I continued my life as nothing happen, my exam results are okay no carry-over. My daughter is now in nursery school, She is a happy child, my mother is fond of her now. I know what I experience as a child in the hands of my friends father, I don't want the same for my daughter. I guard her like my life depend on it. I don't want stories like abusing her or her getting pregnant out of wedlock like me. Life is not going the way I planned but I still thank God for everything. I got a call from Child hoping he has forgiven me about the betrayal, the disappointment he received from me. He gave me the biggest and saddest news of my life that day, He is getting married as well. I cried like a baby. I ask God why is my life like this? What is wrong with me? Why is everyone leaving me? So many questions to ask God. I understand more the full meaning of disappointment because the pain was too much to bear. The next day I became sick , I called in sick. I stayed indoor for three days before Organizing myself again. Life must go on I said to myself. I made up my mind no more guys again. The time am not pregnant but my heart is , I laugh to myself. I asked myself, what do I want more in this life? The honest answer was success because I told myself that am not lucky in love maybe I will be lucky and became successful, maybe then guys will love . I was in my final year when I received the new. I was occupy with school work, my project ,meeting up with my project supervisor, doing research, and defending it , that was my savior. The heartbreak made me realize I have to find myself first before love, have a purpose. I started building Self confidence going for what I want. I devoted my time to my daughter too, no time for guy, I mean it this time. I was happy once again my work,my baby and my parents is all I got. Our final exam timetable is out, I went to school, copied it and I study like my whole life depend on it. I succeeded because I graduated with a good result, I was happy I made my parents and my daughter proud. After some months I registered for my Nysc to serve my father's land according to the Constitution of my country. Which I was posted to my ex state. I needed somebody who knows the state to help me. My ex has been calling me, begging for forgiveness, explaining he was hurt , he made that decision to hurt me back . I told him I cannot date a married man. He invites me to the state that I should come,we will sort things out , I said okay because I needed somebody that I will help and locate where I was posted which he did. I gave him condition of no sex at first which he obliged. But we later had sex. I still have small feelings for him, which I won't deny. He asked me if I will marry him as a second wife because am now a graduate, I have small business am doing. I don't depend on anybody to survive but myself. I instantly said no, I will not be a second wife, I now know my worth.
