The betrayal I felt is still with me up to this day, it made me not to believe in guys again. The day I gave birth was on Monday Monday. I gave birth to a beautiful baby gir, I wanted to name her Hope but my parents said precious because of her skin color. The pain I was feeling after the delivery was much but I didn't mind the pain, because I got a message that I have an exam for my admissions process in the university, which I went on Wednesday a day after the delivery. I wrote the exam , it was hell but I managed, I went back to the hospital, stayed a while for them to monitor me and my baby. I was discharged from the hospital after more two days. The result was released and I did well. I was waiting for the admission and also was planning on who to take care of my baby at home, I have priority now, my baby, my work and my education if given the admission. I was managing life, or should I say I was struggling with life, when I received the new that the father of my baby is getting married, I became mute instantly, I am hurt deeply, I feel the betrayal, one thing I told myself is that life must go on. I got the admission to studied Accountancy. My parents were happy and proud, my marks was even higher than that of jamb because I it with determination. I informed my madam because the only job I could get as a breastfeeding mother was Nanny job at least the pay was manageable for me and my baby, she was happy and said I should be coming to work three times a week after lectures,I was grateful for her kindness, my hair making business was on Saturdays, my indoors catering service was based on contract, I miss lectures whenever I got a job, that was my life, no time again for love or game. I was too innocent for this game but life happen to me, I embrace it was hard work. My first year wasn't that smooth because I almost empty my account , registration was too much. My parents saw how focus, determined I was with life they decided to help with taking care of my baby girl which I grateful. I continued my busy life that way until I received a call from Child, he is inviting me to over to his State where he lives by then I was in my third year, I said okay I will think about it. I took permission from work arranged everything he transfer the transport money to my account. I got to my location he gave me and waited for him to pick me up, he came very late in the night to pick me up and I was smiling and said sorry for coming late, I smile back at him because he has changed, he is now a big man, he came with his car carmery. I got in the car,he drove to his house. He has planned everything perfectly well. I was entertained. The next morning he went to work, he now have a pharmacy shop of his own in the city. He left leaving me a note and few currency on the table. I took myself out in the street, so I won't be bored, he came back very late in the night around 12am. I slept off waiting for him on the tyles, he woke me up, I greeted him, he smiled and and answered, how are you? I said fine, I ask him if wants to eat anything he said yes. I made stew and white rice with the money he left on the table, I saw him smiling, we ate and went to bed. I was sleeping when I note his hand touching me and he said something like baby, I want to make love to you this night I can't endure it again for how many years now. I thought about it , I am ready for it again, will he Betray me, does he love me, will he accept my daughter, all thought was hunting me. I decided to give in we made love that night after my three year of celibacy. The next morning was on Sunday I decided to tell him the truth of what happen to me over the years, it is he decision to accept it or decline, which I did. He was disappointed. I said sorry but he did not say anything again. I stayed like four days in his house before Coming back home to face the reality.
