Two weeks after spending time with Samu, I met a girl around the campus, Tami, she was spitting image of my first love and I gave her my attention because of that. We spent time, we didn't have sex, I guess you could say I got lost in her resemblance of the only person I've ever loved, so much that I didn't care about fucking. A few days later after we spent time, that's when things started getting out of hand.
08. "THE WRONG FALL"
In situations where the girl falls for the bad guy, a disaster always awaits. I don't know what is it about me that these girls love so much, I think that the previous day is what got me into this mess. I was in a fucked up state and she just happened to be there for the moment of distraction but it seems like she's not understanding that we were just passing time, nothing more.
Now everytime I'm trying to have some alone time, she pulls up and makes it all about her. I don't know what else can I say to make her lose interest in me, I told her about my past, my flaws, bad habits and the kind of life that I live but she still wants to get closer to me.
I'm the last guy that she wanna catch feelings for, I'm not the answer to her desires and I keep tryna tell her million reasons why I'm not the right choice. I don't know how else can I make her lose interest in me and I know that she's just a sweetheart looking for somebody that'll make her feel loved but I'm not the one for her.
She's falling for the wrong guy, what we had was just a one-time thing, I was just passing time but it seems like she's already falling for me.
09. "USE IT"
She fell for my eyes, she liked my energy, she stayed for my attention and then she was attracted to my rare traits. I've always known her as the sweetheart that just wants to be loved, she knows about me and she knows where I stand when it comes to love but she's still here, so instead of throwing her love away, I might just use it.
Not in a dogish way but I've been out here with different girls, with no love to feel, since she's here with her love in her hands, ready to pour into me, I might just use it for my benefit. The way she loves me already, she would do anything for me, she submits to everything I ask and she makes sure that her feelings for me are well known, so why not use her love for me in the good way?
I can't love her but I can give her what she wants, which is me, as long as she keeps doing what she's doing. She can come around when I need somebody who sees me for who I really am, she can get my body, kisses and touches as long as she keeps loving me the way that she's trying to right now.
She's in love with a toxic nigga, she gives no fuck about my flaws, she still adores everything that I stand with, through the past and the nonchalant behavior, I'm still the one she wants for herself, so rather than me chasing her love away, I'll just use it.