18. "INDECISIVE"
Your mommy probably told you a few years ago that you shall not accept shit like this, a guy that's caught up in his past while you're trying to prove your love to him.
You don't deserve the stuff that I've put you through, the lack of validation from me, the sex addiction and the toxic treatment. It's my fault why you're competing with somebody that isn't a part of my life anymore, all because I just can't stop looking for her in everybody.
I'm so indecisive, sometimes I don't want her, then I love her, sometimes I regret her, then I miss her, I just can't make up my mind, I'm sorry for putting you in this position. Nobody wants to be with somebody who is in love with their ex, nobody wants to be competing with a past but this is my reality, you're trying to love me when I'm still holding on to my past.
I'm indecisive about her. Your mommy probably told you about guys like me, forgive me babe, I can't be available for you emotionally because I'm still holding on to my past.
19. "CREATED ATTACHMENTS"
We create attachments to who we fall in love with, everytime we kissed, touched and talked about things that nobody else would ever know of, an attachment was formed between my soul and hers.
Maybe if I kept the whole thing as a fling, I wouldn't be battling the hardships of being left with nothing but attachments. I made a choice to love her and nobody else, so this is my war to take on.
I'm attached to every moment we shared, when we were naked, when we shared a bed, when we fell asleep in each other's arms and when we stayed on the call at night, I got attachments to that girl and it's fucking me up.
We created attachments and I'm left to deal with this shit.