In this chapter, the theme gets more vulnerable and open, with one part being reflective about the bad lifestyle that I've been living and then the other part being about Samu. She has this new habit of trying to change me, after Tami, me and Samu got back to our old ways but this time she's trying to change me for her own benefit.
12. "CHASING SKIRTS"
My appetite for women doesn't seem to get satisfied, as soon as I see a pretty face with thigh thighs, I find myself walking her to wherever she's going as if she's something I've gotta win for my ego and I never lose.
I know it might seem as if this is what I live for 'cause I keep doing it but at the end of the day, when the voices and the girls disappear, I am face to face with the truth. I haven't been the same since the breakup with my first love, it seems like I've been looking for another one of her in every girl I meet.
I can't keep chasing skirts, kissing in the hallway and sneaking girls in, I don't wanna live that kind of life, I'm just at war with myself about things of the past that I can't change.
13. "CHANGES"
Everytime we talk, it's always another day in court, bringing up old shit and all of the things that I refuse to change about me, she wanna have me attached and fucked up over her, it all starts with a kiss and ends with a heartbreak.
Everybody isn't to be trusted, so I'm not gonna give my love to somebody that's gonna wake up loving another dude any day, she's pulling for my love now but when she changes on me, she's gonna forget about the changes I made for her.
She wants me to change my ways for her, she wants me to open up for her temporal love, I rather be a cold hearted nigga or whatever she calls me, than to suffer the consequences of trusting a girl like her. I don't wanna be played, lied to or misled, because girls that are in relationships always sneak with me, so there's no longer such thing as love, especially from girls that are like her.
Girls like her are too quick change, so I'm not gonna make changes for her because she's gonna forget about it when she changes on me.