Mica's POV:
*Continuation of Flashback... *
He didn't come. This has happened so many times.
We had agreed to meet at our usual place, but he didn't show up.
I don't know what he's doing. He's not answering my calls and texts. Rumors are spreading that he has another girl. But I don't believe it. That's a different Calix. There are so many Calixes in our school, but there's only one Calix for me, and he's not the Calix they're talking about.
"Mica....."
I turned to see who called me. It was Ella.
She smiled at me, so I did the same. That's how we are---we don't need words, just glances and smiles are enough.
"How are you? Why are you here alone?" She asked, looking around the room.
"Calix didn't show up," I answered.
Ella looked away. I could tell she wanted to say something. Maybe she was going to scold me.
"Let's have lunch together," She offered.
I smiled and nodded. I missed her. Lately, all my attention had been on Calix---probably because of the rumors going around school.
Ella and I ate in silence. It was a bit awkward, but that was fine. I didn't want to talk about the issue anyway.
"You know... Keifer confused to me," She said.
I stopped eating and looked at her.
"S-seriously?"
She nodded. "He had feelings for me for a long time, but things were complicated, so he only clarifried them now."
"Do you like him?"
She lowered her head and but her lip. "Yes."
"Then why do you look sad?"
She seemed deep in thought.
"Yuri confused to me too. I think that's why they're not talking to each other."
I froze. If my situation was tough, Ella's was even tougher. Two guys we're fighting because of her.
"What do you plan to do?"
Ella covered her face with her hands. " I don't know. I like Keifer, but I don't want to hurt Yuri."
That really was a tough situation. You don't want to get hurt, but you also don't want to hurt someone else.
I wish my problem was like that too.
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"Is there nothing else?! This food again?" Calix complained, pushing away the lunchbox.
"But this is your favorite, isn't it?"
"That was before. Of course, I'll get tired of it if it's always the same."
I packed up the food. "I'll just buy you something else....."
"No need! That's a waste of money!"
"But you need to eat."
"Tsk! I'm not hungry. Just let it be!" He said before walking away.
Lately, whenever we see each other, he's always in a bad mood. He doesn't even call me "Baby" anymore. There were new rumors about him again.
I didn't know where they came from, but they weren't ture.
I looked under the table. The letter I left for him was still there.
When we missed each other, I would leave him letters and text him where to find them.
I had a strong feeling that he wasn't reading my letters anymore.
I sat down on the bench.
What's happening to him?
It feels like he's changed. He doesn't wait for me after school anymore, even when he sees me at the gate.
I don't know what to do anymore.
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"One... Two... Three... Four...."
Calix counted the money in his hands. We were at his house. He had broken his piggy bank because he wanted to buy a pair of shoes.
"Tsk! Still not enough," He said.
"How much are you short?" I asked.
"About 3k.....I don't think I'll have enough by my birthday."
I was about to take money from my wallet, but he immediately stopped me.
"Don't even think about it..... Whatever it is you're planning," He said.
I pouted. I really wanted to help him buy those shoes.
"How about this..... I'll just buy the shoes for you as my birthday gift to you."
He was about to refuse, but I spoke first.
"It's a gift..... So don't think too much about it."
He smiled at me and hugged me. "Thank you, Baby....."
He's still my Calix. I know he still is.
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It was our monthsary. I prepared a simple celebration at our meeting place. I bought a small cake and made carbonara----his favorite.
I also wrote him a new love letter.
I was sitting there, waiting for him. Maybe he'd just be a few minutes late.
20 minutes...
Maybe he just got held up.
30 minutes....
I texted him to let him know I was here.
40 minutes.....
Still no response, so I called him. But he didn't answer.
50 minutes....
The bell rings, but he still wasn't here. Maybe I should wait a little longer.
1 hour....
He'll come. He must be busy.
3 hours....
Only one class left before dismissal. Maybe he's in class.
4 hours.....
School's over. Maybe he's on his way now.
4 hours & 30 minutes.....
Maybe they were asked to clean the room.
5 hours...
I called him again, but he didn't pick up. Where are you?
6 hours...
It's getting dark outside.
7 hours....
He's not coming. It's obvious. I'm just being stubborn, hoping he will.
I'm so stupid, aren't I?
I packed up the food I prepared. I didn't want to cry, but I couldn't stop myself anymore.
Why is he doing this to me?
I could have understand if he was busy, but Ella texted me-----she said Calix eas just going in and out of their classroom.
He probably went home already. He didn't even text or check on me. He didn't even greet me.
I love Calix, but this hurts too much.
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The next day...
I texted Calix to meet me at our usual place. He agreed. I brought the love letter I had meant to give him yesterday.
I walked around the room for a few minutes until I heard something.
I was about to step out and check, but I didn't need to. Through the broken window, I saw them.
Calix..... and another girl.... kissing.
It felt like a knife stabbed my heart. I couldn't breathe, and my stomach churned. My knees and arms went weak.
I collapsed to the floor, and the letter I was holding fell from my hands. My tears started falling on their own.
Why? Why, Calix?
It hurts so much. No words can describe the pain I feel. I just wanted to cry and cry.
Ella was right. I should have listened to her from the beginning. I should have avoided Calix. I should not have believed that he was only mine, that he wouldn't look for someone else.
I was wrong! I was smart, but I was foolish when it came to this. It hurts so much! I just want to die and end it all.
I heard them stop.
I forced myself to stand and calm down. I fixed myself and turned my back to the door where Calix came in.
"M-Mica..... How long have you been there?" He asked.
I took a deep breath. "Calix..... Let's break up."
"W-what? W-what are you saying?"
I heard his footsteps coming closer.
"Stay there! Don't come near me!"
"What's wrong with you?" He yelled, matching my tone.
"I don't want this anymore..... I'm tired," I whispered.
I couldn't take it anymore.....
"Did something happen?! Let's talk about this."
"N-nothing... I just want to end this."
Tears started falling from my eyes again.
"Mica... Why?"
I took a deep breath. This hurt me, but staying with him would hurt even more.
"I-I don't love you anymore."
I quickly walked out. I accidentally bumped into him, but I didn't stop.
I don't want to love him anymore.