Some worlds sparkle, that was how I felt when I met Sarit. I always lived day to day, never really caring about the past nor the future.
Wow how I never knew life could sparkle so much. When I saw his face I smiled. Every time, his eyes were the first ones I searched for in a room. I wanted to learn all about his world, one I'd only seen snippets of.
Isn't it funny how I spent my whole life drawn to the sea yet I had never found anyone like him before. Not even a glimpse of a world unknown to me.
I stared at him now, the night falling. Now was time he return to where he belong and I to mine. I know he had a long day ahead of him tomorrow. I felt a bit of solemnity knowing the world would eventually come to know my boy, and after that maybe I would have no place by his side any longer.
I felt silly for that emotion. I was much more keen on just ensuring he never wishes to part with me. Sometimes when I saw the glimmer of hardship in his eyes I worried what path was best for him.
What I can do for him to be okay? The night was quiet. Seemingly inconspicuous. Sarit seemed a bit deep in thought, quieter than usual. I just knew that Abyss had pulled him aside earlier and they had a hushed conversation with parts I didn't understand and came away looking somber and grim.
I knew they planned some things to do with Khun Onyx at the company and I worried but decided I would ultimately just not ask questions I don't want to know the answer to, and to trust they have their reasons.
Right now I could see they were at a crossroads. Things had already begun to change between me and Sarit a long time ago. Now I worried he felt like running away from that. I think maybe these emotions were too much for him.
"I don't like this," he mumbled, drawing in the sand with a stick. "I can understand that," I said patiently in reply.
For some reason this made him huff, I think he just wanted someone to be mad at. I let him grumble. I leaned forward trying to get him to make eye contact with me. "Do you want to tell me what's wrong?" I asked him.
He lightly punched my chest in frustration, with no sincere attempt to do any damage. "Shut up, I hate you," he said very unconvincingly. I raised my eyebrows at him with an amused glimmer in my eyes. "No you don't," I replied. "If you hated me, you wouldn't let me do this," I said before leaning down and pulling him into me to kiss him.
I wanted to continue but I made myself stop and control myself as I felt it is very wrong to take advantage of someone while they're emotional. It isn't right. "Sorry, not the time," I apologized. "I shouldn't have played with your emotions like that. That's manipulative."
He looked up at me almost shocked that I said such. He instantly shifted his attitude to the very familiar Sarit I know. He stopped himself before saying something to turn towards the seaweed there. "Did you know most of the world's CO2 is actually stored or converted in the ocean and not the trees?" he randomly said.
I had to bite back a laughter by the changing moods here. An interesting quirk about my boy is that he is a bit like a cat. Not only does he bring you random things, when he warms up to someone he starts telling you random things.
"No I did not," I said listening attentively. He nodded. "Yeah it's true. Also people eat fish like you guys do, because they think it gives them the Omega 3s, specifically DHA and EPA forms of omega 3 and yet actually the fish get all their omega 3 from the seaweed and algae. Plus, fish have horrible levels of parasites and environmental toxins even if the fish is farmed or the 'meat' is frozen," he continued now biting the seaweed.
"Good thing I eat a lot of algae then," I said. He glared at me. "You also are a fisherman." I put my hands up in the air as if asking for peace.
"Omega you said though....like you?" I said. Sarit just stared at me in stupor, totally dumbfounded, judging me for whatever nonsense I just said.
"Want to come in my house and watch that BL you liked?" This now perked him back up. He nodded eagerly and got up brushing the sand off like it was gross insignificant grains of sand that dare not touch his beauty.
In my house we sat there like domestic love birds, already I glared at Aphrodite to leave us alone and she caved in saying she was going to get some protection at the store or whatever. Sarit was laying across the couch like a work of godly art, if that was a sultry interpretation.
I traced my fingers around his chest slowly with my finger as he layed over me and his legs partly hanging off the edge of the couch. "Don't start something you can't finish," he said looking up at me and booping my nose.
"Who says I can't," I said. My energy instantly perking up. "Oh shut up if you don't have the guts." I looked at him confused why he was so agitated today. I paused too long contemplating it because he huffed and got up. "I will just leave," he said trying to get up to go.
"Wait, come back here boy." I got up suddenly, feeling a bit woozy. I suddenly got nauseous and had to cover my mouth and dash to the bathroom. The second he heard me gag he rushed over looking at me with worry. I was throwing up, yet that diva stayed and kept my hair from my face and offered me water to rinse my mouth.
Even though he was disgusted by these sorts of things, I felt his care despite his words. He mocked rolling his eyes at me, leaning against the bathroom counter. "What are you, pregnant?" he said. I just laughed finding the comment funny. My lack of an answer however struck concern.
"What wait are you really?" He asked. I just laughed. "Of course not. Men can't get pregnant plus I haven't even had such encounters since I met you," I said putting my hand on my side from the joke.
"Men can't get pregnant?" He asked quizzically. "Of course not," I replied. He just stared blankly and said "huh okay."
I looked up at him finding his reaction a bit suspicious. Now slipping myself up from the floor til I was wrapping my arms around his waist and pressing him against the counter. "What, did you wish for me to get you pregnant?" I asked him now deepening my voice. This one in particular earned me a slap, I can't blame him, maybe that one was too far.
Still, if at first you don't succeed, try and try again. Although doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result is the definition of insanity... I just needed to try a new way.
I nuzzled close to him breathing close, before scooping him up and dragging him out the bathroom, he tried to protest but I was already feeling better being close to him.
"Just give me a few minutes Sarit, I'll be okay," I said leaning into him. "You're sick because of me," he said frustrated. "Haha how could you be the cause?" I asked him.
"To be in this close of contact with a siren but not....sleep with them can make your body try to also transform but it can't like this so it can make you sick from the sheer power transfer," he said.
Honestly I understood none of it, only picking up on the "sleeping with" detail. It is not that I didn't want to, god I did, but I didn't want it to be because I was sick. I wanted him to give himself to me willingly.
Sarit similarly made no move. "I think we should separate for some days," he said. "What?!" I said to him shocked. "Anything but that," I said to him. I now looked him down with a possessive stare.
"You will get better if I leave for a bit," he said. "You're overthinking babe," I said. He narrowed his eyes. "I am NOT your babe," he huffed at me. "Yeah yeah feisty kitty," I said pulling him closer. He pulled back and stormed towards the door.
"Don't stop me, I'm leaving," he said. I pulled back his wrist and pinned him to the wall. "I will let you go if you truly want to go, but not if you're leaving because you're worried about me," I said staring at him with intense eyes. "Why would I care about you?" he said trying to muster anger at me.
"If you didn't care, you wouldn't have said you'll leave for some days because I'm sick." He looked at me with emotional eyes. My heart skipping a beat. Both of us realizing there was more here than simple attraction.
The realization struck me when the wind was quiet. No words were uttered, yet that is when I understood. I was falling deeply, deeply in love. I stared at him, knowing he was so scared and trying to flee, because he was too.
"Shall we just forget about this plan of yours?" I asked him. "Why don't we just run away and live on some faraway island between the sea and land, the divide between the sky and earth," I suddenly said breathlessly. "What has gotten into you!" He replied looking at me with confusion, but a softness in his eyes.
"There is nothing wrong with me Sarit, I just like you. I like you so much the whole world could drown as long as I could breathe in your soul. I like you so much I actually hope the world changes, that climate change becomes a good thing rather than a bad, so that this world can be beautiful for you," I said to him as his eyes stared back at me with shock.