Abyss
"There is no greater truth than what I feel with you," I smiled, tears in my eyes.
He looked up at me now, putting his hand over mine that rested on his shoulder.
Smiling the same. He makes you believe in magick in a world full of darkness.
I had yet to ever feel such extraordinary depth to a relationship.
With him, the skies even smiled. He feels light as a feather. I wonder what it would be like if he felt the same as I?
He turned to me now, pulling me out of the corridors, he looked at me as if weighing his thoughts. Something was changing between us. I felt my core start to shake as if my powers were slipping out from excitement.
He stared at me with those eyes, pulling me through the giant woven glass and wood doors, towards his gardens. I followed him willingly. Part of me feeling maybe I would let him take me anywhere.
My head drifting to those strange dreams I had been having. I wanted to listen to them. To throw away all my goals and just live like this.
I wanted to tell the truth about who I was, however too many doubts and questions still lingered within.
He led me past the gardens now, towards an ethereal place that was draped in wisteria and willow trees. It almost looked like something out of a movie rather than the real life in front of me.
"Where is this place?" I breathed, looking around in awe.
"This is where music hums a tune even when the world is silent," he replied. I felt the wind whisk around my temples before he continued, "This is one of Pixie's favorite places, thus it became mine. I wasn't much of a nature person, but I learned sometimes we don't need to love the things those we are interested in love, but we should love the very fact that they love it. Over time, seeing things through their eyes, I started to care too."
I listened to him talk. I loved when he talked on and on like this. He was so interesting unlike me, whose only trait was fighting and my friendship with Sarit. I had never learned how to be passionate like this.
"I wish I liked things the way you do," it slipped
out of my mouth before I could stop it. I found myself glancing at him nervously while he just smiled softly, now picking up a snowdrop and tucking it in my hair.
"That's okay; everyone takes time. You're still young. You have time to figure it out," he said to me softly.
"You say that like you're old."
"Mayhaps not ㅡ but a bit older than you."
"Are you teasing me now?" I asked.
"No," he said, turning to sit on the grass under the tree. I walked up and sat next to him, letting the silence sit between us. Neither of us tended to speak the words hidden within. It seemed perhaps both of us were aware the other hid things.
"Abyss...can I ask?" he said to me hesitantly. "Ask and we shall see," I responded, patting his knee. "Are you seeing anyone right now?"
I felt my heart almost stop from the shock, where had this question come from? I paused momentarily before responding, "No, I am not, but I think maybe I like someone."
He seemed to smile at me with a soft, hopeful smile. "I think I can say the same."
I felt my face blush. He probably wasn't talking about me at all. I knew this logically, but the small chance he was- gosh, ah- I did not know how to compose myself now.
I fiddled with my hair, rocking back a bit, trying to find something to focus on. My mind going in ten thousand directions. I looked up at the wisteria and was resisting the urge to spout a bunch of nonsense. "If there was a treehouse built between all these trees and connected by bridges for support, it would be a really fun hideout."
He looked around, taking in my words, contemplating how sturdy the trees were before he nodded. "Yes, that would sound really lovely. I always wanted a tree house growing up," he said.
"You did? I don't imagine you as the tree climbing sort," I said just building rapport with him.
"Watch me." He bounced out to grab a branch, trying to now hoist himself up. I watched him try to climb with his slender frame, smiling at him. When he was like this he looked so joyful and free, far from the reality that bound us.
I walked up to him, helping prop him up on the branches as he slid so his knees hooked around it and he was swinging upside down by his legs, a wide smile coming to his lips. He reached his hand out to me. I stepped forward and grabbed it.
"You can feel the breeze like this, come, try it too!" he told me.
I let him encourage me as I climbed up with him, my coordination beginning to better itself on land with only two legs. I leaned against the deeper trunk for safety. He looked at me with the look of a blazing passion for his freedom. "I could forget the entire world up here!" he breathed.
"Don't forget me," slipped out of my mouth.
"Never! You're... you're unforgettable," he replied.
I merely smiled. If I was so unforgettable he'd remember who I was beyond just that mysterious gravestone. Yet, in my time here, he seemed to only take me as I am. Who am I to talk though? I tried to get to know him to only learn enough to give me more questions. However, I knew he was special. Not because of him being the firstborn. I knew firstborns were one of the only ones that tended to have a...special attraction to other species. With him, it was more than that.
He was more than that.
He was once a lifetime.
Dawn could turn to dusk as dusk turns to dawn, this loop wouldn't end for me. The loop of my feelings and thoughts that seemed to battle whenever he was in front of me.
"Why did you say yes to coming today?" he asked. I shifted a bit as he leaned closer to me now, he had pulled out a book but wasn't reading it.
"Because it's you, I will come when you need me," I replied before realizing the weight of my words. He looked at me hopefully.
"I didn't say I needed you, but I'm glad you're here," he said softly.
"You didn't need to say it. Plus, no one should be alone. You already have a lot of weight on your shoulders as is. I know you need to be the older one, the parent, the CEO every day. Who is that for you? Don't say your aunt; remember I was at the funeral."
"You were. You know things with her are very complicated. I won't pretend otherwise. I can't rely on her for support, but it's okay, I'm used to handling things on my own, it's easier that way," his voice wavered a bit in resignation.
"Not with me, I'm here, remember. You're not alone. Beings like me form close bonds," I said.
"Beings like you?" he asked me, catching my misstep of a sentence. I cursed myself internally. "Dang it." I was not supposed to slip up.
He looked at me with a raised eyebrow but didn't say anything further. "Yeah, just people in my family and culture, I mean." He looked at me with a strange expression but nodded and moved on.
"Well, thank you. I don't know why you would care about me. Still, I really appreciate it, thank you."
"So forget the CEO stuff, like our deal, okay?" I said. He nodded. "And you remember to tell me more about you," he said.
"Hahaha, I will once I get to know myself," I said with a hint of dry humor.