The next day I was woken up by the rush of nausea that sent me running to the bathroom. I hate the morning sickness fuck. After throwing up I went back to my room and checked my phone for any messages.
None.
That was a cold reminder that I had lost all of my friends, Layla, Alexander, and most
importantly someone who loved me, Angelo. It was my fault though. If I had chosen to not give a fuck I would be happy.
The guilt would haunt me though, the guilt of disregarding Esmeralda's last wish. The lie would haunt me for life though because Saint would never love me. Not in this life.
I climbed back on my bed and pulled the blanket on my chest. The warmth pulled me in but before I could fall asleep again there was a knock on the door. Whoever came to my room now had the wrong timing. I contemplated ignoring the knock but then it came again so I had to open the door.
I groaned beneath my breath and dragged myself towards the door then I opened the door.
Saint pushed me aside gently then closed the door then he pinned me against the door and kissed me.
My mind was racing and I didn't know if I should respond to the kiss because just a few days ago he had treated me like an animal.
His hand groped my ass squeezing hard and I moaned into his mouth and he took that
opportunity to thrust his tongue deeper into my mouth.
I let my guard down and snaked my hands around his neck. He used his knee to part my legs and put his hand on my thigh slowly until it got to my entrance.
He rubbed my clit through my panties and the friction from the fabric, his fingers and my clit was a type of pleasure I never thought Saint would give me.
He pulled away before we could finish what we started then he looked at me and smiled. His smile was beautiful, his eyes sparkled and I just wanted to see this version of him all the time.
'Du bist so schön.'
' What does that mean?'
' Ich möchte dich lieben, Evadne, glaub mir, wirklich. Es tut mir leid, dir so viel Schmerz
zuzufügen, aber dein Verrat hat mich tief getroffen. Und obwohl ich froh bin. Dich und nicht Esmeralda geheiratet zu haben, hast du mich trotzdem verletzt, kleine Vögelchen.'
I have no idea what he just said. Learning German was never on my to-do list but now I am starting to consider it because whatever he said must definitely be important.
Shit!
I looked at him hoping that he would translate what he just said but he just smiled at me but this time his smile was bitter. The smile did not reach his eyes and his eyes were now swallowed in the familiar darkness I knew and the fact that they were onyx brown didn't make it any better.
'Go get ready little bird, I'm taking you out today. '
I pinched myself to see if I was actually dreaming and the pain told me that it wasn't a dream.
I'm sorry Saint, I don't think I heard you right. Can you please say that again, I just need to make sure that my ears didn't deceive me.'
'Your ears didn't deceive you little bird, 45 minutes is all you have. Go.'I nodded my head and he left my room. Considering I had already taken a bath I just looked
through my wardrobe to pick out a dress. Most clothes in this closet were new and whoever picked out my dress had good taste.
I chose a loose fitted orange dress that had spaghetti straps and had a big bow behind that was longer than the dress. It wasn't classy but it was cute and comfortable and my baby would be able to breathe. I rubbed my belly softly wondering how it would feel when it started kicking months later.
Saint has to know about this baby before things go wrong but how do I tell him without making him angry. This date could actually be his apology or maybe just his way of playing with my feelings again.
I went to the kitchen when I was done hoping to grab a snack just in case Saint decided to starve me wherever we were going. My Evelynne was already in the kitchen when I got there and she was drinking a cup of coffee and she was engrossed in whatever she was reading which looked like an important document.
Ms Evelynne was really beautiful even when the wrinkles were starting to appear but they
weren't that visible. Her raven black hair was beautiful, it made her look so divine and made me want to dye my hair black. It made me wonder how her mother looked because she was definitely blessed with beauty.
'Good morning mom.'
'Good morning sweetie,why are you up so early?', she asked her attention still on the
documents she was holding.
'I was going to sleep but Saint told me to dress up because he wants to take me out.'
Even though I had no reason to trust him nor his intentions I smiled. Ms Evelynne's attention drifted to me and her forehead was furrowed.
'even though he is my son, I don't trust him. Why are you even going? Why did you agree?
What if he hurts you?'
'Lets hope he won't then.'
She nodded although she was unsure. The silence was a little too heavy for me. I wanted to talk about something, anything at this moment.
'I'm pregnant mom.'
'Pregnant?'
'Yes. Saint doesn't know though, please don't tell him.'
Evelynne was always too calm. Her features were always gentle, always welcoming a reflection of her kind soul and pure heart. She may have blood on her hands but that didn't change that she was a beautiful soul.
'Who does it belong to?'
'Saint . It belongs to Saint.'
'Okay. I'm still a little busy so when you come back from your little trip you will come to me and we will talk okay.'
I nodded my head in understanding and made myself a cup of coffee and cut a piece of already cooked steak and ate.
Saint came looking for me in the kitchen and he looked handsome. As usual his hair was slicked back, he wore his cocky smile as he hugged his mother. He was wearing sweat pants and a black gold shirt.'You look cute little bird. Let's go.'
He took my hand in his and led me to one of his cars. He opened the car door for me and
waited for me to get in before closing the door again. The drive to wherever we were going was silent and comforting. It was far better than being lashed at for no reason, scolded or punished.
Maybe this was actually going to be a fresh start if he was willing. This is what Esmeralda meant. I guess that him being unaware of her death would give him a certain type of freedom.
Saint slowed down the car's speed when an amusement park came into view and slowly drove into the parking lot which was full and finding a parking spot was hard or so I thought because he happened to have a spot reserved just for us.
The perks of being rich i guess.
'I figured since you are so childish you would probably prefer the amusement park over a lunch date.'
I smiled at him hoping that my facial expression expressed everything I felt in my heart right now. Maybe he didn't know it but this little thoughtful act of his meant so much more to me. It was heartwarming. I'm not sure I can begin to even describe how I felt right now.
Nothing good lasts forever though. If he didn't have any ulterior motives then this would end real bad. I just have a feeling that this day will end badly but I will just enjoy the fun while it lasts.
Unable to contain my emotions I hugged him anticipating the rejection if it came. Instead he wrapped his arms around me and there was that familiar feeling of safety.
'If this is temporary please dont hurt me atleast just for today Saint. Please.'
He just kept quiet, ignoring my statement and that stung so bad but I pushed the feeling aside.
The entrance line was long and I thought we would have to wait but Saint went directly to the ticket master and he let us in without a fight. Our tickets were scanned one by one before we got in. This was the first amusement park I'd ever gone to in the 19 years of my entire life. I'm grateful I really am. Saint let me choose the rides and I did. All of which were scary but the adrenaline made it more fun.
The storm chaser was the scariest for me and when I opened my eyes each time I was in the air it felt like I would fall but it was amazing, knowing that I was secure and I wouldn't. After 3 rides I was hungry so I asked Saint to get me something to eat. He bought some cotton candy from a man who was passing by and told me to sit down, he would come with the food.
I sat on a nearby bench and ate my cotton candy. It was as soft as clouds and when it touched my tongue, pure bliss and my eyes rolled back from the sweet delicacy but someone, someone just had to ruin my moment by calling me.
When I'm home and have nothing to do, no one bothers to call me, not even a single phone call but let me have fun and the whole world wants to talk to me. I contemplate ignoring the call but the caller is persistent so I end up answering the call.
'Hello.'
Silence.
'Hello.'
Silence again.
Fuck it im cutting this call.
'Despite being the daughter in law and wife of such important people you have the guts to be alone in a public space where anything can happen. Your husband and his family don't seem to care about you now do they/?''Who is this/?'
'Sorry that was rude of me. Hi evadne, it's your twin sister, it's me Cyvelle.'
The next thing I knew someone put a cloth over my mouth and I didn't have enough time to fight or call for help.
Kidnapped.
Everything went black afterwards and the last thing I felt was being carried over someone's shoulder.
Du bist so schön- you are so beautiful'
Ich möchte dich lieben, Evadne, glaub mir, wirklich. Es tut mir leid, dir so viel Schmerz
zuzufügen, aber dein Verrat hat mich tief getroffen. Und obwohl ich froh bin. Dich und nicht Esmeralda geheiratet zu haben, hast du mich trotzdem verletzt, kleine Vögelchen.'
I want to love you Evadne, trust me I really do. I hate causing you so much pain but your
betrayal cut deep and even though I'm glad I married you and not Esmeralda you still hurt me little bird.