'She… doesn't remember anything at all, what must that feel like? What must knowing nothing feel like? I already… suffer so much from knowing nothing about the system, and thats only a part of my life, a large part of my life now but still… I know who I am, I know what I want, I know what I want to be… she knew none of those… none of them at all.' Alan thought to himself as the emotion of pity remerged once more, it was an emotion that somewhat combined with empathy, he could somewhat understand what she felt like, atleast a part of it, the system had taken over his life one morning and offered practically no answers, it had thrust him into a world that he wasn't ready to enter at all.
But even then… he knew that the comparison wasn't even close, Alice had been thrust into the supernatural world with no memories at all, she had become a monster and had no idea of what she had even been before.
'In a way… maybe that was easier for her. Maybe having her human memories would have actually made it harder for her, by not knowing anything at all about her past and who she had been, she atleast didn't know what she lost though from the look on her face now… it seems like she learned of it. Or maybe she didn't… maybe she's just envious of humans, and truly… who am i to tell her to not be envious, in her position, I would be too.' Alan thought before his outward expression slowly changed into a softer one as he released a soft long winded sigh that matched the one Alice had just released moments ago.
"I'm in a bit of a different position, I just woke up one day, like two weeks ago and suddenly nothing was the same anymore, my entire life was flipped upside down." Alan said softly as he shook his head as his mind wandered back to her… to the one person that he still hated with a dire passion, the person he had to face, his first real challenge and his first time experiencing true loss.
"Just… woke up and changed? What? What do you mean Alan?" Alice asked as her somber tired expression changed almost instantly, her eyes narrowing, not in suspicion, not in aggression… but in concern for the boy that sat before her.
"Exactly what I said. I woke up and suddenly, I was changing, it was like I could start to see better each day, I could walk more silently which was weird and then my face started changing too, I'm sure everyones noticed by now. There havn't really been any other changes besides those until now and they've started to slow down but yeah thats basically the essentials of it. Thankfully though, I didn't wake up suddenly and have any craving to harm or y'know… eat people." Alan said as his eyes met hers, his tone of voice was perfect, there was no flucutaions in it, no change in his pulse, it was all perfect even as he told half truths that hid the complete reality of what had happened to him.
For a moment after speaking out, Alan stopped, waiting for it, waiting for that damned notification from the system that would spell his doom, however thankfully, it didn't come, he was fine, completely fine.
'So… as long as the system isn't known about, I can talk about the changes that came from it, I just can't tell the truth on how those changes came to be.' Alan thought inside of his mind, nodding to himself inwardly.
This had been a risk, a major one that directly involved his life as its stakes however it was one that had to be done, it had to be done for what Alan wanted to achieve atleast, he could have continued to hide it or atleast refuse to talk about it, however if he wanted to increase his reputation and relationship status with Alice, he had to atleast speak a little about the secret that was not really one, not after everyone in Forks had seen what he looked like now.
"That… okay, so you woke up and slowly day by day, you were getting stronger and seeing better? And then your face also changed… which yeah, everyone's seen that. Thankfully no humans really thought much about it besides plastic surgery, well I guess regular people dont go around thinking of anything supernatural instantly, that's kind of a last resort and even if they did think of it, they'd be called crazy by everyone else." Alice said as her eyes slowly returned back to normal as she released another sigh, for what felt like the the thousandth time in mere minutes and then she leaned backwards, getting in a more comfortable position.
"Yeah, that's basically it. And you're right, no human in their sane mind would think of anything supernatural, but… well your not human and my fear currently is that something else has learned that I'm not exactly normal… my house seems to be the doing of one of those people" Alan said as he ran a hand through his hair before standing up as he started walking around the room in a slow circle, his eyebrows scrunched together as he thought back to the sight of the eyes in the forest.
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