Jay's pov -
jayy....
he called me softly
Like if he said loudly i would disappear
Like I am fragile
I am trying to move on from past 6 months
I cried every day and night waiting for him
If he love us
If we matter to him
I thought over and over
I carried everything alone
Pregnancy vomiting cravings mood swings body pains
Every hospital visit everything
Now he came like nothing happened
Everything is back on track
I kept my hands on stomach
don't
dont call me like that I told him firmly
like what he said gently
like this
like you l_love m_me
why keifer
why did you came now
you left me remember
everything is over between us
why you came again i said coldly
Because I couldn't stay away from you anymore longer
why jayy
why didn't you tell me your pregnant he said with a crying face
why would I say to you
that I am pregnant
if I said I am pregnant
will you own me
will you take me back
you don't even love me right
i am a burden to you right
i am a piece of shit like my brother aries
You said I am a flirt
You said I flirt with section e boys
you said I am only to be used
i didn't deserve love
if I said I am pregnant
if u say I am not the father
You said I am a mistake
if you say my child is also a mistake
i couldn't handle that
what will I do i asked him the questions that are in my mind for all these months
Tears flowing down i don't know when I started crying
i didn't mean it
I didn't mean any of it
i didn't mean to hurt you
i didn't want to left you
if I had known you are pregnant i wouldn't have left you
he said while crying
then you could have stayed back
Ofcourse you didn't mean it
you said it for fun right
Like it's a prank i shot back
why keifer
why have I done to you
that I deserve to be in this state
why do I deserve this i said while crying
Wiping away the tears I shed before
i am sorry
i am really sorry jayy
i hurt you to protect you
i had no other fucking choice jayy
my relatives
my enemies
they are all targeting you
they want to use you as my weakness
some of them want to kill you
some already sent me death treats jay
i couldn't protect my brothers and you at the same time
if inheritance isn't my mom's hardwork and if it isn't my mom's last wish
i would have choosen you
I couldn't waste my mom's death jayy
so I pushed you away from me
i made this sacrifice
I thought may be your farway from me
left me
angry of me
let go of me
Seeing you alive is enough for me
but I couldn't handle another gun pointing at you jayy he said while crying
for a second i couldn't breathe
i let out a bitter laugh
you hurt me to protect me
you could have make you hate me
You could have tell me to leave you
but why this
why did you choose this way
you could have done any other way too
i don't deserve that pain and sufferings i told him
i know
you don't deserve any of it
what would I tell to you
if I make another girl my girlfriend
you wouldn't believe it
you would punch or kill that girl
like you did that to honey
if I say breakup
we are not a couple too
what would I say
you are formally Yuri's fiancee
even though you are mine
i had only this option
but believe me jayy
When i say I love you.
its real
what we had is real
i didn't fake any of it
yes the plan is real
but I had fallen in love with you even before the plan started
my plan backfired on me jay
when I say I love you
they knows the whole section e knows
they knew I fallen in love this you
they knew I stopped the plan a long time ago
so they never pushed me
They also stopped the plan
they care for you jayy
you made them care about you
you told me that I used your body
i only know to do that
its not jayy
your the only girl in my life that I love
you are the one then and now and forever also
i am not a Playboy jayy
i changed for you
trust me when I said I used you
i am also broken too
i am also destroyed myself just to protect you
these six months
i couldn't breathe
i feel sofacated
because you weren't there with me
because I hurt you
The thought of hurting you
made you cry and the reason is me
i hate myself too
Trust me i wouldn't want any of this he said
I stood frozen
i didn't know what to say
we both stood there for a few minutes
the time has stopped between us