Just one day later when we were preparing for celebration, she seemed unwell. Then I stayed beside her and kept her company . She said with a smile , "everything is alright . Don't worry about me. Just be careful ". Some hours later she couldn't hide it anymore. She said, "I can't breathe. I feel like I'm suffocating. " Then my father went outside to find oxygen cylinder and we started to give her some massages . Our neighbors came to help us because her body was getting cold and so ours . But there was no improvement, her condition worsened and she said , "Where's your father? ... call him .. take me to a hospital.. I can't take it ."
We called him and one hour later he arranged a car and also an oxygen cylinder. Then I packed her belongings and medical reports and went with them but my father refused to take me with them . Because my sister was pregnant and there was only our grandparents in our home so it will be dangerous to leave them alone and we couldn't reach our brother in law as he went out on a trip . After that we cooked something for them . But I couldn't able to eat anything.
After midnight, I called my father and he said to me , "she is better now , go and eat something or she will get worried. " Then I ate a little just to keep my promise . When I was preparing to sleep, I heard that some of our neighbors came back and they were discussing about my mom's condition. From their conversation, I came to know that my mother's condition was not good. But some time ago I just talked with my father that's why I thought that they didn't know anything . Then I planned to visit her the next day . At dawn, I got up and dressed to meet with her but then my relatives forbade me and lied to me. They said , " you are not an adult yet , so they will not allow you to go inside. " At first I argued with them but then I didn't have any energy to do that . Our neighbors and relatives started to come to our house. I didn't understand the reason . I thought that they were worried so they came here.
Two or three hours later, I called my father but instead of my father I heard my brother in law's voice and he informed me that they were coming back home. I asked him again and again, "why are you coming back if her condition isn't good enough you should take her to another hospital." But everyone was silent like they couldn't understand my words. Then one of my aunt who helped us a lot , told me everything. After that I couldn't hear or remember anything and collapsed from the shock. I had always been fragile, crying at every small slight. Yet, in the face of my greatest loss, I found myself numb. The tears simply refused to come. I felt empty inside, like a shell, where emotions couldn't reach the surface.