/POP Alice/
Alice found herself in a dream. She stood in the A-site, a place she knew all too well.
Alliter, when still a child, hid herself in the dark room. Tears shed from her eyes while she used her hand to wipe them away. She breathed heavily after realizing her dad no longer wanted to look at her again.
[So this is part of my plan, this is the best, haha. This pathetic past can't compare to my future now. I have known everything about this... but I keep pretending to be an innocent girl. Because my future self can no longer be herself; if I know too much, she might be destroyed in some way.]
With an empty expression, she looked at the ceiling in deep thought while leaning against the wall.
Alice was confused, shaking her head to look around.
[What should I do now? This scene is so boring. Maybe I need more time to think about my plan, right?]
Alliter struggled in despair, her legs kicking the wall to show how annoyed she was with her current situation... Suddenly, a book from the bookshelf dropped onto her head due to her movement. Alliter held her bumped head. She sulkily looked at the book as if it were her enemy. "How dare you! I will burn you to dust!"
[...Lyly? That girl is just pathetic. Killing me to save the galaxy, her race, and her beloved Sana from suffering because of me.]
A dangerous expression appeared—one not fit for a normal child. Her brown eyes glowed as a flood of information overflowed into her head. "Let's see what I can do with you," she muttered, holding the book tightly.
Alliter, with a happy face, tried to do something to release her stress. She held the book firmly, crumpling it. With a satisfied look on her face, she said: "There are 10,000...00 ways to make you turn to dust."
Alice didn't care about these memories; she just moved around while lost in deep thought.
[Lyly is Sana's friend in the unknown world. She is my creation, just a tool to keep this Cosmic universe more lively and interesting. I destroyed the free will of her race, and many of my creations want to kill me to escape their God. How pathetic, Taluala... but I need to control my actions right now.]
Alice snapped her fingers while imagining things. She acted as if she were playing cards in her hand and put on a fake angry look at her past self, making sure her acting wasn't suspicious. She was the top priority now, right?
[They're just tools for me, the best playing cards I have. Eternal love would be boring, which is why I created this simulated universe...]
Alliter stopped her acting reluctantly and said with a curious voice: "If you die too soon, it will be boring. So, I will give you a try to see how evil you are."
Alliter opened the ugly book, and then...
Her face was filled with shock, and her hands trembled as she fixed the crumpled novel. "This is so beautiful... the descent of God to this cursed world."
Alice recognized that book with a wave of nostalgia. "To be an adventurer... oh, that is a good ideal. Maybe if I have a next life, I want to be an adventurer with darling. That would be so interesting."
Her face turned dark as she sat near Alliter, reaching for the novels.
[I never want to have a child because I am so selfish. I only want his love completely for myself, not to be shared with my child.]
From that day on... Alliter found herself traveling to all different types of worlds through novels. She became utterly addicted to it. Every day, every single day and night, she just lay in her dark room reading novels... These books were like the light in her dark world, while Alice kept thinking about her crazy plan.
Alice smiled when she saw these old memories from her past. These days she still read novels, but none of them were about traveling, becoming a hunter, or an S-rank adventurer in some medieval world like her own past.
Alice's face turned red as she lay on the bed, covering her face. "These days, I'm reading all the novels that have yanderes. I want to know their methods to keep their love."
[I know that thing has been watching me to make sure everything happens exactly how God created this world. My current self is the last hope for her—the only soul Alice left in the galaxy. My creations have been hurting in every universe just to make sure they kill their God. I just need to keep pretending.]
Alice's eyes filled with interest, and a creepy smile appeared on her face. "When I wake up, I'll make sure he will..." she giggled alone in a crazy way.
[I have done so many things to make sure he will be mine forever. Even if it looks so scary and creepy in some ways... maybe I look so sick, why am I just obsessed with him? Normally, I could live a normal life, to be an adventurer alone, to be happy. But it would be empty and meaningless if you didn't exist in this world. Today there are a lot of temptations... but he is special, the only thing I can trust. There is no one who can replace him. I am not stupid enough to fall for all the stupid temptations.]
Alliter shouted to herself with a lively face. She stood on the bed with an enthusiastic gesture. "I want to be an adventurer, to defeat monsters, to have a harem, to go to dungeons to pick up a monster girl and make her my wife!"
Alice shook her head. "What a shameless dream."
[My dream is stupid, just feeling the pain, but everything is meaningless without you. Maybe in the future, I will lose my memory again, but I am sure my future self will find it out. I promise you, for the last time I see you, darling.]
Alliter giggled while looking in the mirror. "But I'm a girl, how could I have a wife? I don't like the male lead; he just collects waifus like Pokémon."
Alice nodded.
[I know darling only loves me. In every timeline, every world, he just loves me. This is our fate—to be in love.]
Alliter squeezed her bosom curiously. "If I keep doing this, it'll get bigger, right?"
Alice blushed. "Hey, stop! This is inappropriate!"
[He really doesn't care about that; he only cares about pure love. Even during the times we became enemies, he kept loving me no matter how crazy I was—even if it would bring the end to the world.]
Alliter tilted her head. "No, I don't want it too big. I want to have a good body to move around, not to look like a three-headed monster."
[He doesn't even care about my appearance; he is just so strict about caring how I feel. Many times, he tried to rewrite me from a yandere to a normal girl. What a clumsy guy he was.]
Alice sighed in relief...
Alliter didn't stop her actions and continued squeezing. "But the bigger the better, right?"
Alice looked down at her own chest. But it was still flat all the time, no matter how much she had worked on those stupid methods from adult novels.
[I wish I could spend more time making myself more beautiful, but it would be pointless to darling, because he doesn't like highly stylized, beautiful girls. But he loves long hair hanging down, haha. You can't escape me, because your fate belongs to me forever.]
Alice blushed. "No, no..."