/POP Sana/
Unknown place where reality, dreams, illusions, the assimilated universe, boundless cosmos, and time combined with each other. Sana found himself in a bent timeline while his whole body slowly dropped, like there was gravity within the space of the universe... His body soared high into the sky above the darkness, only to be pulled down again by gravity... and countless memories of his body and soul being shattered into the eternal peace of death itself. It felt like his soul had been sucked out of him. He felt like he had transmigrated through the vastness of many worlds, but he couldn't remember them. This moment would become a significance within the annals of history.
[ What the fuck? What is going on? Am I dead? So this is how Firefly in HSR felt? But I'm not being killed by some unknown monster... just trapped in immortality. ]
The atmosphere felt very weird, like a place meant for the most ruthless and daring souls, but somehow he could feel a strange power surrounding his soul. It wasn't evil... it was nostalgic for something unknown, like memories from a forgotten existence calling out to him from beyond time itself.
[ I'm going to hell? Why can't I control my body? It feels like it had been controlled by someone. These feelings... I don't hate them, but why? ]
There were two lights in this dark universe. One was light blue, and the other was light golden, emitted from the giant broken clock behind his back. The pieces started gathering from every corner of the universe. It felt like time itself had frozen somehow, affecting him deeply. The clock was enormous, bigger than anything Sana had ever seen in his life. For some reason, he didn't hate it. It felt like he had met an old friend somehow. His mind couldn't think about anything else. And there were broken pieces of mirrors floating around him. His face reflected through them. He could see them like scenes from a movie. For short moments, he saw himself from the past staring at the clock. It felt like he was being watched by another version of himself.
[ What is the meaning of all these things? I don't get it... I want to meet my honey now. I miss her so badly. There are still a lot of things I want to do with her. I want to have a first date with her, and then maybe we could live a normal life. Maybe I can fix her yandere side. ]
Suddenly, someone came out from that broken piece of mirror and then... "BOOOM..."
Sana really didn't care about it, but unknowingly he found himself facing another version of himself from the past while both of them floated in space. His past self stared deeply at him while the two of them faced each other... the atmosphere changed dramatically. Suddenly all the light turned purple mixed with light golden, and then from nowhere a song started playing...
"Every time I fall in the deep / And I can't fight it, I can't fight it / You wreck my mind, I'm losing my sleep / And you know that it's all that I need / So don't leave me alone / Lo-lo-lo-lone (Lo-lo-lo-lone) / Don't leave me alone ~" — BEAUZ & Heleen
Sana's head hurt so badly, like he had forgotten this music. Suddenly, an old memory came to him. In a dark room... stressed, depressed, wanting to die... "Hahahaha, weak-willed boy. I will burn your pathetic nihilism." He used one hand to touch his forehead in a cool gesture.
His past self giggled in a fearful way while his purple eyes glowed dangerously in a criticizing voice. "How pathetic. My future self still believes in some illusion of this world. Love, romance... what a pathetic sweet boy dream. What a shame. You're fucking stupid to fall into this trap. I must wake you up to the hard truth of reality again."
[ What stupid damn asshole is this guy? He is not me, right? There are still good people out there. I had met a lot of good Vietnamese people, especially the older generation, not the younger generation. This guy is so stupid to watch these meaningless nihilist videos and believe in nothing. These content creators are just trying hard to make more money. They even use many different thumbnails, translate into Japanese even though they're just American guys. He just talks about money, but in the end he only wants our money by ruining the minds of young people like him. When you have a weak mind, you will try to escape the pain and hurt you feel. Nihilism is just a pathetic excuse for weak minds. They don't want to accept themselves. There's nothing wrong with love. Love is the only reason humanity still exists today. Some people always say they want to stay single for the rest of their life? Haha, they have deep wounds like me, but in the end they'll naturally feel lonely and envy other people who are living in love. ]
Sana's eyes looked soulless. His mind right now couldn't handle anything. He had been so distressed for so long. He just wanted to destroy everything, even the universe itself.
His past self had a happy face while hiding his terror and fear of death. "Yes, I love this pain. Death is better, you know. Everything in this world seems meaningless and fake. We were forced into this pathetic life by our parents, and now how good is it? Just hell... endless hell, never-ending. She even trapped you in 500 years of meaningless immortality and suffering. But I know you understand very well how meaningless this world is, right?"
Sana looked at his past self while pretending to have a tired face, losing hope in life. He wanted to hear his shameful past self to make sure he would never return to nihilism in the future.
His past self continued while moving his hand in a victory pose. "Love and romance novels are just illusions to escape the reality of hell. We were born to be slaves for this system of society. I wish I could change. I wish I could ignore it. But I can't. The more the future comes, the worse it becomes, you know? The cost of living becomes higher, and the distance between rich and poor becomes bigger. All we're here for is suffering..."
[ You're so ungrateful to all the people in the world. If they didn't exist, you couldn't live. Yes, maybe we need to bond together for existence, but this is how humanity works. You just keep complaining about your world. Why don't you change yourself? Finding a job is not hard. Money? You're not trying hard enough to learn more skills, just a lazy Gen Z fantasizing about a dream job. ]
Sana nodded like a dead soul and pretended like a true nihilist. "Everything is just an illusion. Conditions, love, relationships... just lies with morality."
His past self continued with a pained face. "Yes, don't trust pathetic things like ChatGPT, AI models, Google, or anything related to AI things. These are just tools to keep us alive by giving us an ideal that we're doing well in life, after all they're just tools and don't think like an AI girl like myself."
Sana closed his eyes while lying in space while his whole body dropped by illusion of gravity.
His voice trembled. "I'm so tired of living... of existing in this curse..."
His past self followed him, fly with him "Yes... just end this shit by free will."
Sana smiled bitterly. "Maybe death is the only way to end all of this shit."
And then he use lava to burning himself from the past " Arrrr why you must torments me like that..."
Sana gigle while look at the fire human burning. He like this warm from the fire, it had been long time he cound feel the warm of the world with a happy voice he say " I just get the free will you wants right?"
Suddenly the atmosphere became completely dark, and Sana heard a voice he had forgotten in his long journey of 500 years.
Alice in a tease voice "Darling, you can't escape me, even in death."
[ I knew it she will come]
Alice appeared and hugged him very tightly. Her face looked dangerous and obsessed. "Mine forever."
Sana was taken aback by her appearance. "This is bad... I remember now."
[ is this just another her trap to make sure I'll be her forever? I so stupid not, my soul had been betray me]
Alice giggled crazily while she rubbed her face against Sana's chest. "Mine... Mine... You can't escape me now... even if you said you never wanted to meet me or dared to face me again, Darling, right?" Her voice was so sweet to Sana.