Why am I not better yet? it's been so many years...
At first i thought this was a phase. It won't last long, it will be over quick. How foolish I was as I entered the maze.
This maze of feelings that began to grow and grow. Not the good kind of feelings, but the bad. The kind of feelings that make stuck in a low.
It's been many years since then. The feelings have kept on growing, the darkness draws ever near again.
How can I keep doing this? How long till I heal? or what if I missed.
That time to heal a long time ago. Now what? Do I have to wait to get around another bend, or do I finally let it end.
Let the silence sink in, forget the reliance, stand alone in defiance? No I think ill let the dark thoughts win.
It's been 5 years since the start. I haven't healed anew. My soul still looks to be renewed.
How long must I wait to heal? I'm already impatient, 5 years takes a toll. maybe it is time to reel. It in. Finally let go.
No.
No!
I will not fall to the thoughts in my head, it may years but there's still a future ahead.
Why give it all up now? why after I'll I've been through. I refuse to bow. I
'll wait to heal, as long as it takes. 5 years so far, 5 more to come. As long as in the end I make it.
I'm not better yet, it's going to be many years...