Abyss
"WAIT NO," I said, stretching out my hand... oh why, oh why. Why was the man I had grown to love such an impulsive man.
Why did he take such drastic action? This was my fault, wasn't it? I was scared, I was angry. I pushed him to this point. I thought it would be easier.
I looked numb as I saw him stab his own chest in front of me. I wondered where it all went wrong once more. I didn't have healing powers like him. What could I do? My tribe being long gone couldn't help us now, but like a boy I looked around for anyone to come.
The world felt so vast and lonely like this, the emptiness as I held onto his body. He was not yet dead. I needed to save him somehow. Did I want to save him?
What sort of inconsistent person am I to go back and forth like this. I knew that my emotions and mental state were both unstable, hence my outbursts and recklessness. Still, I didn't want to do something I regretted permanently. If he was going to die, it had to be by my own hands when I had gotten revenge on more than just him.
I knew he wasn't really the solely responsible one. I just needed to get close to their leader to gain intel and have the opportunity to strike. It was them I was really set on. Them I really wanted dead deep down.
When Onyx was in front of me it was just too easy to remember the bad memories and blame him, it was also too easy to keep falling for him. He was like a beautiful crystal with different sides. I remembered smiling with him all the time. Even if we hadn't had our first kiss, our feelings bloomed over time.
I realized I actually had felt safe with him and Pixie. Maybe the hole in my heart was too empty I let anyone in, maybe it was because it was him.
I took him towards my home, hoping to at least find some herbs. I had a sea creature send a message to ask for Riddle to come help. All while I rushed, so did my feelings to the surface.
To let someone try to kill you and still... still care. Why did he care about me so much? I wasn't even that pretty or talented. I was intimidating looking, I had a darkness that followed me. So, why does he still care?
To care about someone that much, they must be special. So special you would risk everything.
I pulled him closely to me now, my anger could wait. I needed to be reasonable now. I couldn't just let things end like this. His body felt cold, colder than normal. I tried to keep pressure on the wound. "Hold on okay, we have much to honestly talk about."
Sea creatures' lives are full of much turmoil and death, for in the depths it is a vicious game of survival. The sea didn't care about your moods, the tides would change, the undercurrent of secrets and mysterious creatures. Not all of us got along in harmony.
It was hard like that, finally after what felt like centuries p'Riddle arrived. "Hurry please," I grasped her and urgently asked, "heal him with the medicine." She grabbed out objects from her bag, unsure where to begin.
Quickly we worked to stabilize the wound, in tandem. I clenched him tightly, not letting go. When he awoke I would have a calm conversation with him, we'd talk it out and I would apologize for pushing him this far.
He needed to wake up.
Hours ticked by, slowly turning into days, then weeks. Two weeks had gone by now. It was both too fast and excruciatingly painful as I watched him every day, every night, just slumbering.
Guilt churned deep within me, feeling completely distraught as he continued to evade wakefulness.
It seemed as if it was a hard time for us all, I hardly saw Sarit as he often returned to the upper shores quietly and silently, he would stay out for a long time. He wouldn't come back if not to check on me.
I wanted to ask but chose not to pry much as I saw the symptoms of someone being separated from a mate. I knew the bond they had was special, and clearly something had happened to stop Chada from returning.
If the effects were this strong on them right now despite the fact Sarit had not given his pearl to my knowledge, then I surmised they had begun the process and were soulmates.
My elders used to tell me, while preparing for different futures, not to leave a siren mate when the bond is beginning to solidify. It is living hell for both parties that are longing to form a connection. That timeframe is when the bodies start to change to be able to accommodate the other's powers, the sudden absence of them will feel like trying to forcefully stop such a connection from forming.
Thus, I knew it was best to just focus on Onyx right now unless I had some ability to help. "I could go to land myself, but I am so sorry Sarit I don't want to leave his side."
I took deep breaths and hugged Sarit to my shoulder as we stared at his sleeping body in front of us. "It will be okay." Sarit said in a sleepy tired voice. It was in the dead of night, rest had evaded us greatly in the last weeks.
"As best friends did we really need to go through all this at once?" I said in a bittersweet tone. He laughed weakly while still leaning on my shoulder.
"We sure do have some annoyingly fragile love interests don't we." He said cheekily. "We should have dealt with them a long time ago, since apparently it is this easy."
I patted his head softly, embracing him into a hug. Placing my hand down, ensuring I could feel the man's heartbeat below me.
"Will you be okay if I leave you here for now?" Sarit softly asked with a weary look in his eyes. I nodded at him softly in turn, "I will stay with him."
As my friend swam away I muttered, "Chada, please come back for my friend fast now, he misses you."
I looked down at the man in front of me. Slowly laying down next to him, curling up by his side. I caressed his face softly, "When will you wake up, huh?" I pressed my forehead to his, feeling the traces of his regaining warmth. I held him closely, kissing his forehead and running my fingers lightly through his hair, letting the water swish through it.
The eyes opened slowly, staring into the depths of my soul, taking me in, then moved closer.