Onyx
I felt my heart pounding again, the boy in front of me wielding a knife. My heart raced not from fear, not from care for my life. It was the dawning on me that things weren't as simple as they seemed.
Abyss was a creature like me. Abyss was not human. Abyss was one of the last of his tribe... he was that boy. My soulmate.
Suddenly it was as if everything was clicking into place.
I was not completely stupid to this fact. The thoughts that he may be of another race had long begun to spin in my mind. I had simply chosen to ignore it because I had decided I trusted Abyss.
"Abyss... it was you?" I whispered. He still hadn't ended my miserable life.
Abyss stared back at me as if unsure how to formulate his words, unsure how to respond as if I had slapped him in the face. "How did you not know? Was it not YOU who put that driftwood grave with my name?"
The question resounded in my mind, trying to recall what it was he was asking about. Why couldn't I remember? "I don't know. It's all a blurry mess in my head! Sometimes I remember more and then sometimes I don't. It's almost as if..." my words trailed off as I realized the boy was looking at me as if he was about to cry.
"What's wrong? You can kill me, isn't that what you wanted?" His tears were freely flowing, but I couldn't see them from under the water. I could only tell he was crumbling in distress.
I fumbled trying to figure out what to say, I wanted to comfort him. I knew I probably wasn't the one he'd accept it from right now. "Please don't cry. You can kill me. You can do anything you want, Abyss, but please don't cry. I'm sorry, okay? I'm sorry. Your crying hurts me worse than anything."
I knew he was just as likely not to believe a single word I said.
I felt bad as I watched him lower his head and turn it away from me to hide his sadness. It contorted his beautiful vivid features. I wondered how one could ever get angry at him.
Was I really so unaware that Abyss was probably there to kill me? Honestly no. I knew from the beginning when he showed up at my office that he probably had another agenda. I also got to know the boy before me was actually authentic in his personality and mannerisms. I knew he was a horrible actor, I didn't care. I knew he was too sweet to actually harm me, but I didn't care if he did anyway.
I just didn't know how important this boy was, how important he would become. I did not know why I had always wanted to get closer to him and go against protocol to let some random people join my company. I just knew that if I was ever going to get close to anyone again, it had to be him.
I swam myself closer. I had nothing to lose at this point. I only worried about Pixie, but if Abyss was really going to kill me, he would do so no matter what I did.
So I approached him now, letting my arms pull around his as I pulled him closer to me. He looked at me sadly, before saying, "Why did you have to do this? Why couldn't we just be happy without all this drama. Just when I was starting to forget all this, you went and injured those I love! If Chada, my best friend's mate, dies because of you, I will kill you!"
I let him sob. "Shh, shh. He won't die, I'm certain of it." He looked at me, staring daggers. "How the hell can you be?"
He was right. How was I so sure?
Today many questions left unanswered seemed to swirl in my mind. It was as if something unfamiliar was tugging at me. I had no time to process it though, because the boy before me was still distraught.
"Well, you can get your revenge right now if it makes you feel better?" I said to him gently, concerned. I figured this must be greatly difficult for him. Killing a soulmate, even if it was one such as myself, was extremely difficult for any species to do. Not to mention the personality Abyss had. Had he actually ever killed someone before?
I had observed him a lot before, it was also why I didn't ask him much about himself. He seemed gloomy and edgy, but was surprisingly soft and sweet. I loved the way he smiled at me genuinely.
Abyss chewed his lips, giving me that sad look. That wasn't the fear and anger that had overcome him earlier. The terror that he'd lose everyone he loved again. His reactions made sense to me. If I had lost my entire tribe before, I would be sensitive as well.
I put his dagger closer to my hearts, and hoped that he would do me in. I wanted to make this easier for him if he was just going to be in pain with my existence.
He tried to back away, not recognizing the fact he didn't want to truly kill me.
I felt a pain within me I couldn't explain. Seeing his turmoil heightened my own until I was overcome with sorrow. It was almost as if I could actually feel his emotions. I was not aware I had such an ability, maybe it was my imagination. However, the feeling made me want to eliminate the source of it just so that Abyss could smile again.
"You can't kill me, can you?" I breathed softly, not an accusation, a question. I knew things wouldn't be the same between us anymore.
I took the dagger from his hand and he let his grip loosen with little force. What I did next was driven by a deeply rooted emotion, a pain wherein I couldn't have been in my right mind.
I slowly took the dagger and placed it to my heart's core, and then I pressed down.