his was steps dancing with rhythm of unknown melody, each step he takes make him feel like he wanna dance or...he actually dancing he just don't know yet.
Hypnotize by the sweet sound something aromatic filled his nose, fresh and clear air...even though where he was standing already was like heaven, but this new feeling is something that could heal everything if it's enter your body just once. His nose to lungs all felt something tasteless yet most beautiful thing that ever entered his body, closer he get his mind become more clear. Like fog escaping something.
But each breath also doing something else. Raising his heartbeat more and more. He raised his hand slowly reaching his chest, without stopping he opened his hand in hope to calm down his heartbeat.
Clam down for a bit will you?
He grabbed the chest.
Calm down!
?
???
What?!
I can't feel my heartbeat. Than what I was feeling? No i am still feeling it. My heartbeat still rising.
But I can't feel it by touch of my hand.
It's like...i am not even inside my own body...
...Well... nothing gonna change if i died again is it? Maybe i just died in my sleep.
He shrugged.
Dying is like daily couse of meal for me now...he chuckle.
Did I even hear my own words right now?
Saying something like that just because i died once.
He rubbed his face for a second and come back to his senses.
Right now I can't do anything. Best option just go to where sound is coming from.
Each step closer to melody make his legs move like he just a carefree child moving around... just like kids his age should be. But sadly he was too fall deep into subconscious state of relaxing, even he don't know about he had.
While mesmerizing sound keeping all his attention, nothing could break his attention from his path.
Nothing.
Nothing...
Finally i am here. It's sound so beautiful I don't even wanna left go of sound, i think nothing can take over this beautiful sound...i mean what can be more captivating than this?
Nothing right.
Nothing at al—
He stopped.
The feeling he getting right now is probably like someone dreaming inside a dream itself. Holding his dream closer he closed eyes for a second just as he about to reach the place.
Open them slowly...
... Upon opening eye... his dream start tearing itself in pieces right infront of his eyes... come magestic view upon reaching the place where sound was coming from.
His eyes left wide open. Not just for a single moment. He took his time more than anything holding himself captivated by feeling of shock and yet seeing something beyond his imagination. His breath itself feel like if it's escape now, it can ruin everything.
...
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...
Finally taking his time he let breath escape from his body. Just after that h took deep breath.
Swallow.
His eyes start to get wet almost making him tear up a little, for first time since...than I never felt like this... this...this happiness i don't think I deserve it. but I can't let myself get easy enough to let tear fall from my eyes.
He closed his eyes with as much force he can and put his hand on top of his eyes by putting pressure on both sides or eyes with thumb and fingers. He controled himself from drowing in emotions.
Finally getting his control back he decided to describe scenery in from of him.
Water even cleaner than my own soul fall from above.
Wait my own soul?
Well can't deny that my soul not clean but still...
...Anyways foucs.
Following stream of water coming from above making a river of water below but even though beautiful water feel like one single stream the river below...not moving at all.
Strange very strange.
Before he gets distracted more, he start describing more things around.
There is a big rock wall in front of him from top to bottom at top it's reaching towards a cliff it's hard to pinpoint exactly the cliff itself. But rock wall are everywhere even the waterfall itself surrounded by rocks making something like a barrier...and at top of cliff standing a really big and beautiful tree almost impossible to comprehend it's Beauty.
Lowering his gaze below.
There was no flowers around the river they stop at some distance before reaching the river. But still there was too many of them. Raising a question in his head...who plant these and who actually take care of these?
Having this many flower I never thought it can even exist.
Again his heartbeat getting stronger he tried to grab his chest once again but nothing pass through his hand only empty feeling of touching his own chest. Ohhh i forgot i can't feel my heartbeat.
He lower his head.
....but how come i am not feeling it when I try to touch but it's getting stronger?
With questions start raising in his head beautiful melody once again reached his ears and captived him.
Emotions melody was passing got deeper than questions in his head.
He looked in front.
Well who cares?
Letting his feet move once more. He start walking towards the river.
With each step everything he saw start becoming more clear. For a moment a blurry thought start appearing but before it could take proper form it's disappeared... aughh. What was that?
I don't remember...but I wa—... what was i ?
Ah?
Just what I am thinking about?
Is everything ok man?
Ha ha, who am I even asking that?
Look like I am tired...he look at his hands for a moment.
!
??!
Shaking? My hands are shaking?
Did I actually put too much toll on my body?
Should I lie down for a bit before reaching water fall and river.
As he thought about it, a sudden pain of something piercing his head pass him.
Augh. What was that.
I feel like wanting to rest yet...I feel like I can't.
He put a hand on his stomach even though there was no pain.
Pain?
There no pain anywhere.
Than why I am grabbing my stomach like this?
Augh!. Damn it!
I don't know, but I have to do it i just don't know why.
As he reach the river near waterfall. Pause ...he stood in front of waterfall for a moment.
Giving a quick look at water falling from top to bottom, it was beautiful just like before but at up close it's feel more mysterious than beautiful... almost like... it's alive.
It's moving like goddess singing a song or calling... Goddess? No way right.
I am not fortunate enough to meet a god or goddess enough. I mean i think even if they exist it's about your own efforts that take move in your life. Even gods forsake those who never work... Even demon mig—
Chuckle.
!?
Did I hear it right? Did someone just laughed?
...or i am just imagining it?
He chuckled. Or maybe this is that goddess I was thinking about.
Hmmm, what goddess actually laugh at words like that?
All i said god's and demons or maybe she laughed at word forsaken.
Yeah, sound nice to me. I don't know you goddess but I call you forsaken goddess.
He chuckled again. Well if you actually exist that's it.
Anyways I love that sound of that i might call you waterfall of forsaken.
He just smiling inside thinking about what he doing giving name to a waterfall he just meet it's not even human or like it's ali—
As if answering his words waterfall, that was falling gently all this time making a beautiful melody, made a cascade roar hitting something hard.
Alive?
Hmmm. Normally that thought would send fear down to every cell of my body...but right now. Forgot about fear in every cell, I feel like if I was broken and shattered this will actually help me instead of devouring me.
He raise a hand start moving it toward waterfall, trying to check his theory...or just gut feeling.
Hmm.. gut feeling...
Can I even feel my guts right now?
Before a answer appear in his head or he could check by some way. His gaze fell upon water below him.
He couldn't help but to stop his body for a while, only thing that was holding focus was his eyes vision trying to make sense out of what he was seeing.
Water below was peaceful just like he saw from distance but having a look from close up it was strange...way too strange.
Water was peaceful...way too peaceful. Even though water was coming from waterfall hitting it with so much speed it's almost like that force just disappearing.
Not a single movement in water at all.
He gently lower his body, putting his eyes as much closer he can without touching it.
He pulled his body back after staring for a bit.
He sit down down near water.
...Not a single particle was moving.
He took his finger out dipping it slowly inside the still water. As tip of his finger touch... it's not cold...yet...not hot either... actually I am not even sure I can feel any kind of temperature from it.
It as if water itself not even there!
He dipped his whole finger after some seconds... nothing happened.
Following his one finger example he let other fingers follow the same path, Dipping all of them inside water. After waiting for few more seconds he finally let whole hand taste the tasteless water.
Tasteless?
I still haven't even let it touch my lips. How the hell i would know if it's taste less or not?
He took his hand out water. Holding some water inside his hand. Water stay on his hand like it's just broken pieces of something big not separate thing without making any movement.
It strange to watch something like this. Well i don't even remember last time when I saw water, but I can definitely tell just by feeling it wasn't like this.
His gaze fell upon water inside his hand.
Gulp!
Should I?...wait can I even?
I mean it's feel like it's not even there. How it will feel if a waterless water enter my body. Weird wording but I guess it work here. Hmmm, maybe presence less work better.
Anyways either way. What can I even feel if it will goes inside?
Well... only one way to find out.
SPLASH!
Ah, even though it not giving any feeling like actually water. But still the feeling it's giving my whole body when I my face hit it... just like real water.
Refreshing, truly refreshing. No more like giving me whole new life.
He greedily start throwing at his body everywhere over and over (again).
Splashes hitting his body while drops that was falling from his face fell like...his own skin peeling off. Like those water drops become part of his body, every drop that hit the water below become one with it again without causing any movement inside it, while drops those couldn't reach water fell on ground instead of merging with ground like normal water, every drop start looking for other one start becoming one together making something like water sheet top of ground near the boy... without the young boy knowing it.
"Chuckle."
His ears twitches. But he was too busy to notice anything.
He finally stop.
Ah, lovely!
...He couldn't see his face but he knew something is wrong, his face making a expression he never felt before. It wasn't sadness or pleasure not even happiness ...it was expression of fulfilment.
A smile that he never felt before yet it won't disappear...
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...
How long it's been since I actually felt water on my whole body?...he lower his head ... It was even hard to get enough to just to survive. Taking bath was like a dream. That's getting fulfill right now.
I mean even dirty was enough to make my thirst go away having this much water for myself... it's just unbelievable.
Swallow.
Holding some more water in his hand.
... It's not wrong right. Just a single sip, it's all I ask. I know i wasted all this water even though I shouldn't, but there just too much one sip not gonna hurt anything right.
I think my skin was more thirsty than inside.
...I am not thirsty but it's not gonna hurt right. I mean look at this beautiful water, it's telling me it's ok right.
He closed his eyes for a second. bring his hand closer to his face reaching towards the mouth. Just as water about to touch his lips, he opened his eyes.
Ah!?
Wait...why?
Why?
I don't think I remember how i look, but how could I forgot water suppose to show you the real self of yourself.
There no reflection of mine in water??!