I would have walked straight to the restroom but the plane is about to take off so I just took the seat and put on my seat belt then wait for the plane to be stable on air.
When the plane is finally stable I go to the restroom to take a look at myself because I definitely look so messy.
I walked in and look at myself on the mirror and I just don't look messy but very terrible and horrible.
I really can't believe that's how I walked around looking like that but I wouldn't blame myself or anyone should blame me because I wasn't okey to even notice that I wasn't wearing my shoes talkless of even caring on how I look.
The past eight hours was a living hell for me. My life was perfectly okey before the past eight hours since when father told me I was getting married to Landon Harper.
And I really miss those times so much when I was single and free. I thought I was single until the past eight hours but I was engaged the whole time to Landon Harper and I don't even know for how long.
And my tears starts to fall again. I can't even feel my eyes anymore from how I have been crying a lot today.
But why me? He will be able to find the perfect woman to be his wife without even trying a bit. So why will he have to choose me who is the right opposite of the perfect? I am nothing he would ever what and need. And it's not like he knows me personally to have something on to take revenge for. And come to think of it, met briefly five years ago, we hardly talked and I didn't even had the confidence to look at him for a long time to know his face features. If not with the help of social media, I wouldn't have known how Landon looks. And if he would have wanted revenge on father he would have destroyed him by taking his position and reputation instead of giving him a higher rank than before. So why?
Why on earth is this happening to me?
I wip my tears and wash my face. I found a first aid box in the cabinet and used it to reapply the ointment and bandages on my scratches. After getting all my wounds done I fixed my messy black hair and leave the restroom.
I settled on my seat and open my mini bag to see what I have inside.I find my phone, headphones and my favorite chocolate. Even though they haven't packed it with the charger but it's okey,at least I have those instead of having none. And I am so thankful for the chocolate because I really need it so much.
I have five things in particular that makes me happy or at least makes me me feel okey and better. There are, watching Korean dramas, read a lovely romance novel, looking at a beautiful view or sight, listening to beautiful music that gives me the best feeling even if it sad and eat any dessert that has chocolate.
I connect my headphones to my phone and start to watch some kdrama edits as I eat my chocolate bar. That's all what it takes to make me feel ok and happy even though it is temporary.
When I finish the chocolate bar I decided to go through social media a little bit which I know it will be a bad idea.
As I scroll through the media I find my picture and Landon's picture posted, announcing the marriage that will be happening on Saturday.
It is all on social media like he is the most famous and loved celebrity. Like is one unbelievable news that blasted the world.
Yes,it is actually unbelievable that it is hard to believe. But they are making it such a big fuss about it which is so uncomfortable.
I really hate people's attention, I prefer to stay in the shadows for no one to even notice me.
It is becoming too much so I just exit the media and enter my Spotify to listen to music that will take me out of this painful reality. I play Cry by Cigarettes After Sex.
I chose this song because I feel like crying for what happened to my life so far but I won't. It is not even worth it at all.
And come to even think of it, I might be free just like when I am with father.
Landon is a very busy man who hardly gets time for himself so how will he even I have time to even pay attention to me. We will even hardly meet after the wedding because by the time I wake up in the morning, he is already out for work and by the time he gets back from work at night, I would have gone for bed already and he will be traveling for business trips from time to time like father.So it will be so impossible to even meet at all, not like he will even care to spare me a look.
He is cold and emotionless so he will ignore me like how he does with all people.
And just by thinking about that, makes me think that maybe this marriage will be peaceful and I can live like how I used to but of course there will be different. But it is also okey as long as Landon stays away from me.
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After five hours and thirty one minutes of flight without sleep and just overthinking, the plane finally landed in New York City.
We left the plane and walked to the car. The whole drive to father's mansion was very quiet. When we arrived to the mansion,I was escorted to my temporary bedroom.
As I walked into the room and look around, I suddenly miss my bedroom back in Los Angeles. This room is nothing like the one I had back in Los Angeles but it ok since I won't be using it forever.
I took the pajama that was already on the bed and walked in the bathroom. I hurrily took my shower, brush my teeth and dried my hair.
I am so exhausted and need to sleep.
Now it is past midnight and I know that tomorrow will be a very busy day for me, so I let the sleep take me away fast.
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Like I said, I was disturbed so early in the morning when I haven't got enough sleep at all because I don't have enough time to sleep when I have a lot of things to do to get ready for my wedding day tomorrow.
When I am done with my shower, my breakfast was already served. I don't have any appetite to eat at all but I have to eat, I haven't eaten yesterday at all except for the chocolate bar which I ate on the plane. So I just ate a little just for energy.
I was given an invitation cards to invite my friends but I don't have any friends so i just send it back.
Then I was taken to the salon for hair treatments, then to the spa, face facials like I even need them and fix my broken nails.
And the rest of the day felt like I am really going to the great Landon Harper's bride tomorrow.