She was six years old in the dream.
She always was.
And the thing about being six in the dream — the thing that made it different from all the other nightmares, the ones about the accident and the road and the sound of breaking glass — was that in this one she still had her voice.
She could speak.
She didn't know that was the cruel part yet. She didn't know that the dream would be used against her. She was just six and small, and the words were still there inside her chest, where they belonged. For one single moment,before everything else aarrived, it felt like the most beautiful thing in the world.
Then the dark came.
Not the dark of the apartment she was sleeping in now. Not adult dark. This was something older and smaller and much much worse. This was the kind of dark that has walls. The kind you can touch on all four sides without stretching your arms. The kind that sits on your chest and makes the air feel like there isn't enough of it left for one more breath.
She was in a small place.
A tight place.
Her six year old knees were pulled all the way up against her chest and her six year old hands were pressed flat on a surface she couldn't see and she could feel the walls on both sides of her shoulders every time she breathed in and she needed to get out. She needed to get out right now. She needed —
"Say your name."
A voice. Outside. Close.
She pressed herself back against the wall behind her. It didn't give her any more space. Nothing gave her any more space. There was no more space.
"Say your name little girl."
"Elena," she said.
And that was the part that broke your heart if you were watching — the way she answered. Immediately. Obediently. Her small frightened voice filling that tiny dark space because she had been taught that answering was the right thing to do and she still believed that the right thing would save her.
"Again."
"Elena. My name is Elena please let me out I don't like it in here I can't breathe please—"
"Again."
"Elena Brenette. My name is Elena Brenette I am six years old and I want to come out please please I'll be good I promise I'll be so good just please let me out please—"
The voice didn't answer.
It just said —
"Again."
And she said her name again.
And again.
And again.
Until the word stopped sounding like a word and started sounding like something being taken from her piece by piece.
"ELENA—"
She woke up.
No scream came out.
It never did. It hadn't since she was six years old because six was when they took her voice and it never came back. So what happened instead was her whole body did the scream without any sound — her mouth open wide, her throat tearing around nothing, her chest heaving, every muscle rigid and shaking like her body was trying to survive something her mind hadn't finished processing yet.
She didn't know where she was.
Three seconds of pure animal terror where she was nobody and nowhere and the dark was the dream and the dream was the dark and there was no difference.
Then the chain pulled at her wrist.
And she remembered.
The apartment. The guards. The blindfold that smelled like engine oil. The bed with the iron frame. The lock turning from the outside.
All of it came back at once like cold water.
She grabbed the chain with both hands.
She pulled.
She knew it wasn't going to give. She had already learned that — had already spent time she couldn't measure testing every link, every join, every point where metal met metal — and she knew it was solid and she pulled anyway because her body had just lived through that nightmare and her wrist was already raw and she needed to do something with the terror that was still sitting on her chest like a physical weight.
The chain held.
She pulled harder.
The bed frame scraped against the floor. A sound. A real sound in the dark. The only sound she had.
She used it.
She grabbed the chain in both hands and she banged it against the iron frame over and over in a rhythm that meant nothing to anyone who couldn't hear it but meant everything to her because it was the closest thing she had to knocking on a door. To calling for help. To standing in a room full of people and opening her mouth and screaming until someone turned around.
Bang. Bang. Bang.
Her wrist split open somewhere on the third or fourth pull. She felt the warmth of it before she felt the pain. She didn't stop.
Bang. Bang. Bang.
The nightmare kept flashing behind her eyes every time she blinked. The small tight place. The walls touching her shoulders. The voice saying "again" and her six year old self answering because she didn't know yet that answering wasn't going to save her.
She hadn't thought about that memory in years.
She didn't know why it had come back now. Maybe it was the dark. Maybe it was the chain. Maybe some part of her body understood the connection between then and now better than her mind was willing to admit.
A small tight place.
A locked door.
A version of herself with no way out and no one coming.
Bang. Bang. Bang.
Her arms were shaking. Her wrist was bleeding. The tears were coming down her face without her permission and she couldn't wipe them because both hands were on the chain and she wasn't stopping.
She wasn't stopping.
My name is Elena Brenette, she thought with everything she had. My name is Elena Brenette and I am twenty one years old and I survived worse than this and I am not going to disappear in this room I am not going to let them make me disappear I am not—
Bang. Bang. Bang.
Bcak at the house Caden almost walked straight past.
He was half asleep and heading for the kitchen because he couldn't rest and there was nothing else to do at that hour except eat something and wait for his brain to stop running. He had been doing that a lot lately — walking the estate at night when the people in it were easier to avoid. It was a big house. You could get lost in it if you wanted to.
He almost walked past the guard station.
But he stopped.
Two guards he didn't recognize. He knew most of the regular staff by face if not by name and these two he had never seen before which meant they had been brought in specifically which meant someone had needed something done quietly.
His stomach tightened.
"Where is she," he said.
Casual. Easy. Like he was asking about the weather.
The guards looked at each other.
That look told him everything before a single word came out.
They told him. Briefly. The minimum. A small apartment in the far end of the city. The aunt's instruction. Temporary arrangement. Just for the evening.
Caden nodded like he was processing perfectly reasonable information.
Then he turned and walked in the direction of the east sitting room and by the time he got there the casual easy part of him was gone entirely.
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His aunt was still dressed.
Which meant she hadn't slept. Which meant she had been managing something all night, making sure pieces were in the right place, keeping the machinery running. She looked up when Caden walked in with the mild irritation of someone who was not expecting company and not particularly pleased about it.
"Where is she," Caden said.
"Caden it's late—"
"I spoke to the guards," he said. "I know what you did. I want you to bring her back."
His aunt set her glass down with the deliberate patience of a woman who has decided she is dealing with something beneath her but is willing to address it briefly before dismissing it.
"I had important guests," she said. "People who did not need to be confronted with that situation. It was one evening. She is perfectly fine."
"She was chained … and i dought that does chains were taken off " Brenette Caden said. "In the dark. Alone. In a place she has never been before."
"She is a problem that needed to be managed—"
"She cannot speak." He took a step toward her. "She cannot call for help. She cannot tell anyone where she is. She cannot do anything except sit there in the dark and wait for someone to decide she matters enough to come back for her."
Something moved across his aunt's face. Not guilt. Something harder than guilt. The expression of a woman who has heard the argument and has already decided it doesn't change the answer.
"Bring her back," Caden said. "Tonight."
"No."
Just that. Clean and final.