He looked around the room. The untouched bed. The glass. The chair pulled too close to the window. He sat on the edge of the bed and looked at his son and said
"How are you doing."
Lucas almost laughed.
"Your mother told me everything," Armano continued. "I came as soon as I could. I know I haven't always been a great father Luca and I know I'm not always there but I want you to know that I'm here now. I'm here."
Lucas looked at him.
"Right," he said.
"Luca—"
"Do you remember," Lucas said, "when I came to your office before the wedding."
Armano went quiet.
"I sat across from you and I told you I didn't want this marriage. I told you something was wrong about that night. I told you I needed more time to understand what actually happened and I needed you to go to Grandfather and tell him to wait." Lucas's voice was steady. Too steady. The kind of steady that takes everything you have to maintain. "Do you remember what you said to me."
His father didn't answer.
"Don't always be selfish Luca," Lucas said. "The family comes first. It is for the best of the family."
He stood up from the chair.
"I wasn't being selfish," he said. "I was trying to tell you something wasn't right. But the family came first. So I married her. Because you told me to stop being selfish and think about the family."
He walked to the window.
"Now look."
Just those two words.
"Now look."
He stared at the city below him.
"My wife is dead. My baby is dead. They were on that road that night because of a marriage that nobody wanted and everybody forced." He stopped. Swallowed. "And in my house right now there is a girl. A mute girl who has never been able to speak a single word in her life. Who has Sarah's exact face. Who was on the same road. Who believes — who genuinely believes — that her car is what killed my wife."
His voice dropped.
"Every time I look at her I want to put a knife in her. Because she doesn't get to be alive. She doesn't get to stand in my house and breathe and exist while Sarah is gone. She doesn't get to have a face that looks exactly like my wife's face and just walk around living like that's acceptable."
He stopped.
His hand was pressed flat against the window glass.
" I can't be in the same building as her."
The room was silent.
Armano stood up slowly. He crossed to the window and stood beside his son and he didn't say anything. He didn't try to fix it or explain it or offer another version of the speech he had prepared. He just stood there.
It wasn't enough.
It wasn't close to enough.
But it was what he had.
And Lucas — who had been alone with this since the hospital room, since the white walls and the notepad and the name "Elena Brenette" written in careful shaking handwriting — didn't move away.
He stood at the window with his father beside him and looked at a city that didn't know his name and let the silence be what it was.
PART THREE — ELENA
She had stopped counting time.
There was nothing to count it with. No light changing. No sounds telling her what hour it was. Just the dark and the chain and the thin mattress and the smell of a place that had forgotten what people felt like.
She was thinking about Lucas.
Not because she wanted to. Because he was the only variable she had.
He knew her name. He knew she wasn't Sarah. He had sat across from her and read every word she wrote and he hadn't handed her to the police or thrown her out. He had left the country instead which she understood — she had handed him the worst possible information and watched it land on his face and she understood completely why a person would need to run from that.
What she hadn't seen coming was his aunt.
What she hadn't seen coming was this room.
She wondered if he knew she was here.
She wondered if anyone knew she was here.
She pressed her back against the wall and closed her eyes and held onto the one thing that was still completely hers regardless of what they did with her body or her name or her freedom.
"My name is Elena Brenette."
"I survived a wedding that wasn't mine."
"I survived a collision that should have killed me."
"I survived three weeks inside the wrong life."
She opened her eyes.
The dark looked back at her.
"I am not done surviving."