Narrator: Unreliable
To: Soft Rose Pink Soul the Moonlight Empress
Everyone has a role in this life, I simply chose to become the king who is perceived as a poet. I was forced into the role of a soldier, it's not like anyone could ever understand the pain of truly being alone.
Do you seriously not understand how it feels to not have a mom, dad, friends, or people you even trust? All they do is send you question marks or say such fake statements.
I will become the survivor who relied on the sexual 4 energy of hate solely to survive. I hated the world. This world was not worth saving if that novel truly occurred. I am not interested in a world who has refused to save me. If you don't understand the pain that I'm in then why bother becoming someone who is save by me if 'Three Ways of Survival' truly existed?
Surviving [Borderline Powerful Disorganization attacks]
It feels like some demonic force is trying possess me and ruin my life on purpose. Why was my brain trying to kill me? Why did I have to vanquish it and tell myself that I am *** Joonghyuk just to survive?
It was such a painful episode today for some reason. It made me question when I am calm if someone or something wanted me dead on purpose in this life time.
I survived but this makes me wonder what the next time is. I had to tell myself that I was a regressor and a vanquisher just to survive. Was there a splitting in personalities where one was self-destructive who wanted the body dead for some reason?
God damn it, I'll be the one who conquors death. It was like an unwanted demon was trying to eat my brain from the inside out. Is this what happens when you haven't been able to sleep for more than 24 hours?