The passage of time is such a cruel way of reminding us of our finite lives.
Seeing the cycle of life and death,each single day being more unique thanks to the principals of continuous change.Has things always been this way? As this is quite the peculiar question to brush past our minds,I guess it is a complicated matter. Incomprehensible as it may look,maybe the final conclusion will come relatively near or far; though I cannot guarantee which one either.
However there is one thing I am sure of. And that is if something has been perceived even once, you can't change its reality that has already been created by being aware of it. Awareness is what creates the visible manifestion of matter, in which we see matter and process it.
If matter is unable to be seen or is simply not being perceived at any given time, could it really be defined as this thing that we call existence.
If you are not known now and have never been known before, is your lifes existence real because you are the seer of it?
If the consciousness of the one living through the story could change its fate or outcome,how can we decide what is fate and what is will
If you ask this objectives relevance to the matter of time,I don't remember how I got to know it.
I can only feel.
I feel it in my grasp,slipping through my hands like sand.
I guess this thing that I'am now aware of is the passage of time.
~
Reminded of my own existence I slowly started to feel my consiousness,as I slowly remembered how I even came to be in this situation.
Feeling my heart beating franticaly,my eyes pried open. Breathing in the air around me rapidly with each shallow inhale.
I felt like I was suffocating. As if I couldn't even stop for a moment. Otherwise, I felt like I was going to choke.
Huff-huff-huff
I could finally feel myself relaxing a bit after a few minutes of gasping for air.
Panting, I looked around to understand what kind of situation I was currently in. I looked down to see myself covered in dirt and debree,lying down in a crater. Must have had happened when I ate that godforsaken stone...
Huh? Wait a minute...
This doesn't look like my body,just what exactly did I turn into?!
I was panicking not knowing what I was supposed to do from now on with this weird body. It had hands,legs,that was long enough that it couldn't be my own two stubby little legs, and all kinds of other body parts that I previously didn't have.I tried to stand up from where I had been laying but trying to stand posed a certain challange to me. I tried to push myself up from the ground again,just to stumble and fall again.
Ugh! Just how am I supposed to get up,I can't get the hang of it.
I laid back down on my back in frustration,angry at the pathethic state I was in. Knowing I couldn't lay down forever,I tried to atleast sit up.
Ow ow ow , why is this fleshy skin hurting!
I brushed off the dirt and little stones that was stuck on my skin. They had created little dents on it.
Weird,they dissapeared even though they were there just now. Where did they go?
I looked but couldn't see the little dents again.Atleast it wasn't hurting now.
There was more pressing matters on my hands to pay attention to. I first had to get out from this massive crater that I created somehow. I tried to get up once more. This time making an effort to be steadier. I slowly squatted down after putting my feet flat to the ground to push the ground up and stood up in an even slower manner.
This doesn't seem so bad anymore,atleast I can maintain my balance.
Then I turned my head to the side and my gaze slowly started to wander. Unfortunately I was slowly looking up and seeing the highness of the sidewalls crushed my confidence. I could feel my confidence crumbling right beside my eyes.I felt like crying right then and there. How could so much misfortune happen to fall upon me.
I still had to find a way up to see if the barrier was lifted up or not. So I had to harden my resolve and figure out a way.
Since I cannot climb it up I guess I have to dig a pathway up there.Sigh~ my future looks so bleak...
I got to work and started to dig the dirt with my hands.
When I started the sun was still up and it looked pretty early assuming from its position. When I still was digging,only managing to have got halfway. The sun was already setting?!
What was I supposed to do now?what if the barrier really had been lifted up and some weird monsters could now get in. Was I supposed to get eaten with this fleshy mass of a body.
I refuse. I don't want to get eaten and I don't want to stay down here.
~Shiver
Ugh,it sound so scary when I think of it like that...
I had to think fast before I became dinner for some weird creature.
Think fast think fast,come on.
~Aha, I could just try the climb the remaining half. Its not like its that far from the top, is it.
Haha, I am such a genius. How could I have such brilliant ideas even when I had been doomed with bad luck.But to perserve my brilliance and to keep myself alive I first had to make it through the night.Even thinking about such unlucky matters was enough to bring my mood down.
Now the only thing that's left was to climb up.
~Hyap
I launched myself up to get a hold of the upper ground. Latching onto it like how a newborn baby latches onto anything they can get a hold of.
I get the gist of it... I guess?
With only luck and prayer I managed to throw myself up from that hellhole. Panting and still covered in dirt. Though now I had more dirt on me,significantly more than before.
Why am I getting tired more easily with this body, and why am I sweating so much just from climbing up? This is such an hassle.
Since this was the new body I had been gifted with,even though I never once asked for one, I had to make do with it.
Well,time to get up and survey around.
I dusted myself off as well as I can(which mostly didn't change anything about the dirty state I was in) and sprung up from the place I threw myself up to. Looking around I went up to where the invisible barrier once had been.
Swinging my arm back and forth,it seemed like the barrier was gone now...
Barrier...
Gone...
It was gone...It really was gone!
I exclaimed with excitement and jumped up and down,flailing around like a baby chick.
Unfortunately I remembered why I had been rushing to get up here so quickly. The sun was setting down.
Damn it! Where am I supposed to sleep now,there is nothing left protecting me. I suppose I could try to climb up a tree high enough to not get noticed by monsters.
I didn't even know myself as to why I was so sure there were any monsters lurking around here. I didn't even know where I was. But,oh well,I couldn't do anything about it. It just felt like the right choice.
I had to get out from this little prison I had been contained within before. My legs were shaking either from the cold or the excitement so I closed my eyes shut and took a step forward.
...
Opening them back up,I looked around to see nothing bad happening to me nor any grand retribution has befallen on me,luckily.
Nice,now I can roam out. I surprisingly feel more free now that I am not locked in there.
I took my second step,then the third, then another one and another one. I was walking. I was walking away from there and no less at that. I felt proud about myself. I walked and walked. The sky was getting darker each passing moment.I set my sight on a tall enough tree and wrapped myself around it,slowly climbing up till I felt pretty safe from whatever could be down there or whatnot. I found myself a sturdy and a really wide branch.Thankfully I could lay on it just fine to sleep and not fall down to be food paste. I didn't want to imagine my sad remains being licked and eaten like tasty jam by wild creatures,yuck.
Remembering I had a brand new body I decided to inspect it more carefully now that the more pressing matters I had at hand had been solved. I raised my arm and looked at it till I felt my eyes watering from not blinking.
So not blinking for too long makes my eyes hurt huh.
It seems like I could only learn so much in one day.It is going to take a long time to understand my new body it seems.
Sigh,where am I supposed to go or stay now. I don't know anything,I don't have anything with me either.
I couldn't even discern how I knew so many words and what language I was speaking. I didn't know how I got to learn so many terms and information from the start.
Maybe I was born with these as default. Who knows,maybe I was cursed or something.
Eh,I couldn't careless right now.
I could feel the sleepines slowly creeping up to me.Getting drowsier and drowsier each passing second but I could still fight it a little.
What happened to the stone that I ate after I ate it? It probably had something to do with the barrier and the explosion that happened after I ate it,which happened to also make a crater along with it. Weird...
I really couldn't make sense of all the things that happened to me up till now. I didn't even know how long I had been passed out nor did I knew how may days and months had had passed while I was knocked out cold.
It certainly felt like my brain was going to fry if I thought too much about it.
~shiver
It feels so chilly.
I ripped out a few of the trees leafs. Thankfully they were were big enough to cover me up with just a few of them. Suddenly I didn't feel so cold anymore.the leaves were quite fuzzy too so I could snuggle in. It was warmer with the leaves that was covering me up from the cold wind hovering above me.
Unable to keep my eyes open and unable to bear the heaviness of the days weight, I finally drifted off to sleep.
Sleeping soundly and unaware of anything else.