Noo not now not at this time I can't let it happen at this time when I am at his place this will become very awkward situation for both of us. It can't but I feel it that it came but why this needs to happen this time can't it happen sometime later I said it to myself while holding my stomach with my one hand.
But this is the natural thing I can't do anything in it nothing is in my hands regarding it I said it to myself.
Then the breeze of pain squeezes me inside my stomach and I hold the kitchen counter top slab where I was standing and slightly bend down and slowly slowly sits on the floor of the kitchen and then while holding my stomach where pain is occurring I asked myself that why why it happened today here I didn't even have anything for it but I need to go out yes I need to then I try to stand up but unfortunately I got failed in my attempt and ended up myself sitting on the floor once again.
Then the pain is getting worse second by second and I know myself that when this pain will reach a certain amount of level then anything can't be controlled but Zhao shiza you need to go to the convenience store yes you need just gather some strength in yourself and then you'll make up till there but how can I go there like this I need to change myself but after changing it if it occurs again then how can I able to manage this outside so what does that mean do I need to sit here like this whole but there is really no use of sitting like this whole I am waiting for whom for whom to arrive I asked myself this question.
No one gonna come Zhao shiza to help you only person here that can help you to come out of this situation is only you yourself no one other than you I said it to myself it like a motivational speech that maybe maybe gives me some strength to get up from here but no matter how much motivational speech I am saying to myself nothing is working on me physically they all are working on me mentally but there is no use of that really no use.
Yuan said it right he really said it right I am the silly one here soo silly that I can't even bring that thing with me when I came here like I have completely forgotten about it that seems like it never came to me again really how silly you are Zhao shiza just let me tell you Zhao shiza Yuan Yuan is really visionary he can even tell my trait of silliness just by seeing me few days he is quite a visionary I said it to myself.
But then again at that exact moment the breeze of pain like a cold air again hits my stomach and I squeeze myself in me and closed my eyes tightly while trying to endure that pain then I opened my eyes and said to myself that being a girl I must prepare myself for such situations but these are all the things that I was supposed to do but what's now there is no use of talking about it now as these all are just talks now and right now the main important thing on which I need to focus on is that how should I able to overcome this situation how should I I asked this question to myself while starts biting my nails while thinking about it due to the stress.
And then my eyes went on the wall clock where it becomes five pm in the evening and then I saw at the kitchen window where outside the weather is quite different no wrong word the weather is quite Zhao shiza's liking as it seems like that it's about to rain at any time soon I said it to myself.
No doubt my favourite weather just arrived without even its proper season god are you doing it purposely to make me happy today I asked then no matter how hard the day is the clouds the late evening weather the dark sky every time makes my Mr heart to believe in positivity that there is still still a little but there is a hope a hope of living a life that you always dreamt of a hope of having that you always prayed for and a hope of living the ways you always lived for.
And then a smile appears on my face not a big one but quite a sufficient one which is enough for uplifting my mood.
I am about to have my mood swings right now but the pleasant weather made it stop thank you god for making me smile in the situation where I didn't even imagined it.
Then while looking at that window I start wondering that when will clouds will start thundering and then the moment I think about it a sound of thundering of clouds just happens I flinch a little and then I smiled and said now this is really what Shanghai looks like in Zhao shiza's eyes I said it to myself.
Then I put my hand slightly upward so that it can be able to reach the counter slab where I just dropped my phone when the pain was starting to hit me at that time.
As I move my hand the pain occurs again but somehow I am able to manage to grab my phone from the counter slab and then I opened weibo and saw his photos which the china tv posted on its recent post saying that looking too charming to handle and it's his pictures from his thailand trip where he wears that red coloured shirt and with that black pants and in the train where his photoshoot has been done while watching outside the window and then holding the handle on it and sitting there all the shots and poses of him are as stunning as he is.
Then I scroll it down and saw the recent picture of his from the shoot of the variety show where he is playing the role of the detective and dressed up in black pants dark green long coat with multicoloured shirt in it and earring type thing on his left eyebrow and my favourite his hair that makes his looks completely stunning and stunning enough to catch Zhao shiza's Mr heart very easily I said it while watching these pictures of him and think that he must be shooting for it right now.
Then I scroll it down and then I saw some news about his upcoming dramas with other actresses the news and the post that I really don't like it at all I know I am a kind of jealous person but this is the way I am and accept it that yes I do feel jealous whenever I even see a girl standing near him even when he didn't even talk to that girl then also that's enough to make me jealous but my jealousy has nothing to do with him it's only my emotions that maybe I am not able to control it but this is how it is like this only I said it to myself.
Then I put down my phone beside me on the floor as I am done for now as I only opened my phone just to make myself calm after seeing him but looks like his upcoming projects and dramas news will not let me stay calm anymore I said it to myself in a bit of jealousy and angry tone.
Then suddenly the door knob moves and I got a little scared thinking that who appears here at this time then as I know that I am not in the position to stand up from here I got a little scared but when the door gets opened full what I saw is way more scaring for me than I thought it was cause it's Yuan who came back home.
And then I saw the clock immediately on the wall and it's eight pm at the night ooo god scrolling really makes time fly this fast I haven't knew it before I didn't even realise that while scrolling weibo this much time has passed I mumbled all this to myself.
Then he came inside the house smiling and said did you say anything he asked me.
I smiled back at him and said no I didn't.
Ooo but it seems like you did he said while sitting on the couch and drinking the water then he asked me why are you sitting like this you silly girl does it a new way that you have found to make me run around you all the time he asked me in a bit teasing tone.
I forced a smile on my face and said no no it's not like that what you are thinking it's just I am finding peace here like I am feeling very relaxing here so I sat down here I said.
Ooo good keep it up but how long are you going to stay like this he asked me.
The whole night I said it just slipped out of my tongue very unknowingly but he heard that and asked me shockingly that did you just say the whole night or it's just me who heard that.
No no I said that I am not sitting here for the whole night you just didn't let me complete my sentence and then you started assuming the things I said it to him.
Ooo it's like that he said.
Hmm it's really like that Yuan I said.
Then he looks at me for a while like he is observing my face.
And then he asked me why you look like that you saw a ghost just now not your lovingly boyfriend he asked me.
I smiled while looking at him and said no no it's really not like that then I mumbled in myself that it's better for me to see the ghost in this situation cause seeing you right now here at this moment is way more scaring than facing the ghost.
Then he got busy on his phone and I think in myself that Zhao shiza what should I do now Yuan has arrived already and sitting here if he is not sitting here then also there is no use for me cause I need to go to the convenience store but how can I if I say that I want to go out then he'll definitely go with me but these all things are secondary cause I am not able to stand up from here I really can't soo what else I can do what else I asked this question many times to myself.
Then I came up with an idea an idea which is a bit strange but there is no other option I have left with and then I have started making the execution of my plan in my mind and it is that when he'll go to his room to sleep at night then I'll go to the convenience store cause this way I am able to stand up from here without getting noticed by him yes this is the only way tonight that can save me but thank god my cramps got stopped now otherwise I won't be able to execute this plan tonight but I need to do it fast before my cramps return back I said these things to myself while looking at Yuan's face continuously while smiling.
And then he looks at me and raises one of his eyebrows and asked me silly girl you are smiling soo mischievously are you up to something he asked me.
My facial expression got changed immediately as he just spoke something that I was planning to do few moments later and yes someone really said it very right whoever said it that knowing someone too much is also very dangerous cause then they'll know all about you and you can't hide anything from them ever I said it to myself.
Then I asked Yuan that you came early today.
Yes the shooting got packed up early today as we went pretty fast while shooting that he said.
Oooo I said while nodding my head and then asked him what was the name of that variety show for which you are shooting today.
Who's the murderer he replied.
Ooo yes where you played the role of the detective I said.
Hmm correct he replied.
This is the only way to make his attention on some other topics cause he'll definitely find that I am up to something but he has fallen for my trick that easily I have never thought how could he even think that I didn't know for which variety show he is shooting for even I know it all before him only after all once a fangirl always a fangirl I said it to myself.
Then he stands up from the couch and starts coming towards the kitchen.
I got scared that how can I now able to manage him now what excuse I make him making him fall for my trick is only possible just once very barely but every time I can't I really can't cause Yuan is very smart he'll definitely get that there is something fishy about me.
Then he enters inside the kitchen and said move but I didn't behave like I haven't heard it.
Then he exhales slowly and said are you planning to stay like this for the whole night he asked me.
Yes I said which again slipped out of my tongue unknowingly but he heard that too.
What what did you just say he asked me while getting little shocked.
No nothing nothing you heard that wrong I was just sitting here for relaxation as it's very relaxing place have you ever explored it before me I asked him.
No but I know way more relaxing place better than this he said.
Where I asked him.
The bed inside the bedroom where you are going now soo stand up you'll catch the cold the floor is very cold at night he said.
No Yuan I am ok actually I am thinking of sitting today like this only see how soothing it is I said.
Now you are really making me suspicious about you he said to me.
Noo noo you are just being suspicious cause you have just come back from shooting for the role of a detective soo now you are seeing everything in that perspective only I said to him.
I am really not buying this he said.
Then who's selling you I replied.
Then he exhales slowly and said now enough of you being the trouble maker kiddo now I have to apply my way on you.
Your way I repeated it.
Yes my way he said and then.....