I sent a text
To my ex.
It's been a couple years,
I wanna see what comes next.
No stress...
Just wanna see if she's blessed.
The last time that I saw her,
Her whole life was a mess.
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I pulled up
Behind her truck
Parked across from
An Irish pub.
She'd gained some weight.
40 pounds or so.
Call it
A couple dubs.
She asked if I meant to drink,
But I said, "Water is enough."
I can't even lie...
Lookin' in her eyes,
That shit was kinda rough...
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She had asked me
How I'd been,
And I had told her
Half the truth...
So uncouth,
I know,
But I was somewhere else.
Not in that booth...
She was getting kinda flirty,
I was tryin' to play in smooth,
But I could tell
She just wanted to fuck,
That threw me
For a loop...
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I was still in a relationship,
Regardless of how toxic...
Couldn't bring myself to cheat,
I knew that someone's God was watching.
I was fishing
Just to talk with her,
She wanted just my cock
And I was so turned off
By all of it,
I couldn't shake the shock.
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I had to try to step away,
I told her, "Give me just a second."
Took myself into the fella's room,
I had to drain my weapon.
While I pissed,
And pissed,
And pissed,
I was so far from an erection.
Couldn't stomach any thoughts of her,
No spiritual connection.
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When I returned
She went to the bar,
I joined her on a whim.
I said, "I'll be back."
She said, "Hurry, or I might just leave with him."
Then she pointed to
The dude who
Sat next to her.
Bob, or Jim?
Can't remember,
I just stood and left.
Never saw her again.
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I sent a text
To my ex...
Wanted to see
If she had changed.
Wanted to see
If she had grown.
Wanted to undo
All the strange
Places that I had left us in
Back when I drove away.
She said, "I will never forgive you."
It hurt me more
To see her sway...
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Before I had left,
She was already drunk,
And we had just walked in...
That bar was small,
The walls were tall,
She seemed to fit
Comfortably in...
When she had asked if I would drink,
I had said no, hoping she'd follow.
But she obviously didn't.
That fuckin' sight was hard to swallow.
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When I came back from the restroom
And she had moved to the bar,
I decided then and there
That I would head out to my car...
I told her that I would be right back
Cause I was still at work.
I had just taken a little break,
That was one of my perks.
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When she said,
"I just might leave with him."
I knew I wasn't coming back.
I couldn't take seeing her
In that state.
Where all here morals lacked.
I told her I was disappointed
And she never texts me back...
Maybe she went home with him?
I do my best
Not to think of that...