If it weren't for the burden of her family's future and even the entire Feiyang's future, she would rather be just a little girl with no ties to the military. She wouldn't reject the glory and wealth of the Hastings family nor boast shallowly about it.
As long as there are enough financial conditions to support her whims, allowing her to shop as she pleases, pursue her own desires, travel to the universe's depths, and not get lost in the hardships of life and the chase for money, it would be enough.
Unfortunately, that is just an unrealistic fantasy. From the day she became sensible, she knew that her life was not hers to decide. This naturally included marriage. Apart from marrying a man of equal stature to maintain or elevate the Hastings family's status through alliance, she had no other choice.
