A few days have passed since my transmigration and I've spent every second of them searching through Xavier's memories, hoping to find something useful. As more days pass I've noticed that my mannerisms and personality traits have started to slowly fuse with Xavier's. It's gotten to the point where I've started to question who I really am.
Obviously I am Alex the overworked office worker but by now I'm probably about 40% Xavier Kalki the peasant. The number would probably be 50% if you factor in physical appearance.
I've started to fear that one day I will wake up and the only part of "me" left will be my original first life memories. No, I can't think like that. My mother always told me. "If you think about the worst outcome then that outcome will be the only outcome. However if you think about the best outcome then that will be the only outcome."
The best outcome in this situation would probably be finding a way to transmigrate back to Earth, specifically into my original body. But is that the best possible outcome? The last time I've genuinely enjoyed my first life was when I secured my first job as an intern, however after that my life only got more and more depressing every day.
As much as being a peasant does suck I'm still having some fun with Aurora and for some reason having to scavenge to survive every day is kind of exhilarating. I think being in Xavier's body has reminded me what it feels like to know your alive, even if I am just barely alive in Xavier's body.
Me and Aurora are currently walking through a forest, something that Aurora has been talking about doing constantly. As we walk i glance downwards towards Aurora and see that she's very exhausted. "You doing okay Aurora?" She lets out a sigh before replying. "My feet really hurt…" she whines.
I change my expression to one of concern. "Do you want to head home?" Aurora nods. "Okay then. I'm probably gonna stay here for ten or so more minutes so can I trust you to walk home on your own?" Aurora perks up, getting serious. "I swear I won't mess up!" I chuckle and smirk. "Then you should get going." She nods then begins running in the opposite direction. Hopefully she's fi-
My train of thought is suddenly stopped as a specific memory of Xavier's springs into my mind. It's a faint memory from when he was 10 but it still has incredible potential to be useful.
Xavier is wandering through dirty streets, looking for something edible, when he hears whispers from two adults walking by his left.
"Did you hear about the youngest son of the Talbot Family?" "What's so special about him? He's just another rich kid born into a wealthy family after all." "Well people have been saying he's blessed by the heavens since he was a baby due to his perfect and shining silver hair and bright blue eyes." "But don't both his parents have brown hair and eyes?" "Well the truth is his mother cheated on his father but said it was a sign of blessing when his hair and eye colour were revealed." "Typical rich people." "Regardless, the thing I'm talking about is the kid being a 2nd Level Spirit Apprentice at 10 years old!" "I thought it was impossible to cultivate at such a young age." "It's supposed to be but apparently the kids a genius."
BINGO!
So this world does operate off cultivation after all! I can't help but smirk at the thought of being transmigrated into a cultivation based world. But confirmation of cultivation existing here raises a few more questions, the main one being why everyone isn't a cultivator. But I don't need an answer to that right now, all I need right now is to cultivate!
I wander through the forest for a few more minutes until eventually I find a circular spot of grass with trees surrounding it like a barrier. The perfect spot for awakening my ability to cultivate. I walk into the centre of the spot before sitting down and putting myself into the lotus position, a common cultivation position. I then take one long deep breathe and close my eyes.
Although I do know that cultivation exists in this world I still do not know how to actually awaken as a cultivator as it's never explicitly stated in the web novels I've read. I suppose all I can do to try is meditation and take it from there.
One minute.
Two minutes.
Three minutes.
Four minutes.
I've been meditating for nearly five minutes straight and I've still not felt any different! What am I doing wrong and how can I change it?! Just tell me already God!
I reopen my eyes and sign with frustration. "I don't get it. I'm sitting in the lotus pose with nothing but nature around me and I've completely calmed down my mind! What else am I supposed to do?!"
I rub my eyes, trying to remind myself to keep my cool. When I open my eyes again however I see something. It was only for a split second but I swear, right in front of me, I saw some sort of glowing particles floating in the air. No, it's wasn't glowing particles, it was energy. Also known in the world of cultivation as Qi.
"If Qi is just floating around in the air then surely there is a way to bring it into my body. If the method isn't meditation then what else could it be? Hmmm…. If Qi is life energy then it should be in everything that's alive. Plants are alive. Maybe I need to eat plants?"
I know this is a dumb idea but this is all I could think of at the moment so cut me some slack. I hesitantly walk over to the grass then sift through it to find some plant. It had a long green coloured stem with six leaves at the top of it. The leaves were white but got more and more purple the closer they got to the tip.
"This looks poisonous as shit…. But then again it also looks really majestic and cool, like the kind of plant that would be used in the making of a Qi pill. If the second one is the case then I might become a strong cultivator off the bat. If the first is correct however…"
I strange at the odd plant, which seems to be more like a flower than anything, with slight tints of fear, curiosity, and strange excitement. "Let's hope I'm right about this." I take a deep breathe then open my mouth and chuck the flower in.
I begin to chew, the flower started to fall apart and melt in my mouth. The taste is strangle relaxing, like lavender, if that even is a taste. After chewing about 15 times I swallow then wait for a few seconds. "Nothing happened? This is complete bull-!"
All of a sudden a burning sensation appears in my throat as I feel a lump getting and higher within it. I'm throwing up. I cover my mouth but am unable to stop myself from puking in the grass. After doing so I wipe my mouth and stare at it. I notice faint tones of white and purple, it was the flower I threw up. "This didn't make me a cultivator, it made me sick!"
I collapse onto my knees, a small wave of depression washing over me. "My entire life I've wanted the ability to cultivate…. And now that I'm in a world where I can, I'm unable to do so…."
"No! I cannot think like that! I will cultivate!" My mind swirls with determination. I try a few more techniques in the span of five minutes but nothing seems to work. I lie down on the grass on my back, exhausted and sweating. "How…the hell…am I supposed to…cultivate…?"