And then I saw…
he was standing right beside me…
the one whose support I probably needed the most at that moment…
Seeing him, I couldn't stop myself…
I felt like hugging him and crying…
But truly… I didn't have the courage to do that…
I composed myself…
He came and sat beside me…
his eyes seemed to be asking me something…
I said to him—
"What are you doing here?"
He said—
"Same to you…"
I said nothing…
He came a little closer to me…
his coming closer made me restless…
and also made me feel a sense of belonging…
He held my hand and said—
"You can share your pain with me… I am with you…"
He had really understood so much without me saying anything…
I truly wanted to cry…
With every moment, he was coming so close to my heart…
that no one had ever reached there before…
My eyes filled with tears again…
He said to me—
"Come… I'll take you somewhere…"
I asked—
"Where?"
He said—
"Just come first…"
I said—
"Okay…"
Then he took me to a place…
that I had often passed by…
but had never gone inside…
It was a playground…
very old…
after a new playground was built, children didn't play there anymore…
The whole ground was empty…
there was long grass grown everywhere…
And there was a dog…
whom I always saw there…
he was there today as well…
He went near him…
and took out a packet of biscuits from his bag…
and fed him all the biscuits one by one…
I was just watching…
I slowly went near him…
He understood what question was in my mind…
He didn't wait for me to ask and said—
"Do you want to know why I brought you here?"
I said—
"Hmm…"
He said—
"This is the place from where I see you every day…
Look, from here your rooftop is clearly visible…
and every day at 5, you sit on your rooftop and study…"
Pointing towards the dog, he said—
"His name is Yaru…"
"I always talk to Yaru about you…
and keep watching you…
I never had the courage to speak…"
"But you are the person in my life…
whom I love the most…"
"I won't say that you should love me too…
that's your choice…"
"I just want you to always stay happy…"
"I don't want you to be sad like this again…"
"I know you don't want to tell me why you're sad…
but I can't see you like this…"
"You tell me… what can I do to make you happy?"
Without thinking anything, I directly hugged him…
I held him tightly…
and started crying…
Seeing me cry, he gently stroked my head and said—
"I am always with you… calm down…"
"If you cry more, this Yaru will run away seeing you…"
I pulled away and said—
"Sorry… I troubled you…"
He lightly tapped my head and said—
"You should eat almonds…"
I asked—
"Why?"
He said—
"Your brain will become sharp…"
I said—
"Oh really… my brain is sharper than yours…
you should eat them…"
He started laughing…
and seeing him laugh, I also laughed…
I said to him—
"Can I say something…?"
"Honestly… you made me wait a lot…"
"If you had come earlier… I would have been even happier…"
He said—
"I was always around you…
you just never noticed…"
I asked—
"Will you always stay with me?"
He said—
"Yes… if you want…"
I said—
"And if I don't…?"
He said—
"I just want to see you happy…
you have always been in my heart…
and you always will be…"
I hugged him again…
as if I had accepted him as everything…
I truly couldn't control myself…
that feeling of being near him…
as if even if I die now, I would have no regrets…
He said to me—
"Those who love us…
never leave us…
they always stay in our hearts…"
My heart had become completely calm now…
I said softly—
"Let's go…"
He asked—
"Where?"
I said to him—
"You should eat walnuts…"
He said—
"Why?"
I said—
"Your brain has become very weak…"
He asked—
"How?"
Looking outside, I said—
"Look… school students are going…
school is over…
it's not right to stay here now…"
He understood…
And we left from there…
and started walking together…
And then…