I thought he would change, I hope he will notice me atleast for once but
In the end.... he didn't..!!
I try to fix everything the tension between us, the discomfort, the distance, I really tried to fix everything but....
Everything became even more worse..!!
I didn't waited for him to buy me gifts in birthdays, in festivals I didn't ask him to give me surprises in Anniversaries
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....
.....
I gave him gifts not many I just tried to give him something precious in birthdays,
I did surprise him in Anniversaries, I cooked special dishes for him in festivals...
I've cook every day with the hope he will like it,
I woke up early in the morning just to clean everything fix everything I hoped he will like it,
I tied his tie and send him off with a warm smile I hoped he will smile back....
I really tried to fix everything I hoped everyday.... everyday every time he ignored me in front of other girls I just hope that he will notice me,
He will love me,
H..he will look at me with love
I hoped many things but,
In the end they were just my incomplete dreams I always pray to make it real....!!!
But now I am tired.....
I am really tired....
And now I don't have any position to love him
I am nothing now..
I have a .....
I already have a disease...
I just can't do more anything for him....
I don't want to be a burden for him...
I will leave now...
So....
He could live his life peacefully
Without me everything will be perfect.
I know, I did try to fix Everything
But.....
I forget I am the one why everything is messed up....
I am the one why everything is getting worse...
I really forget all these and just try to
Fix everything.
But now I will leave.....
I will leave from his life...!!!!