Chapter-1
"I don't know when it started...but somewhere between crowded corridors and ordinary school days,he become my favourite destruction."It was just another day at school-or at least it was supposed to be. The knowledge pledge area was unusually noisy that afternoon.Some girls were laughing too loudly, fixing their hair again and again, while others kept missing steps and getting scolded by teachers. I remember feeling slightly irritated, slightly nervous… and completely lost in the noise of everything. Musics through the space as students practiced for the farewell of 10th and 12th grade.Laughter, Footsteps, instructions from teachers everything blended into a chaotic rhythm.I was there too, just a 9th grade girl trying to follow dance steps and not mess up.
And then....I saw him.✨
It wasn't like the world stopped… but for me, it kind of did. My steps slowed down, my focus broke, and somehow, out of all those faces, my eyes just… found him. I don't know why my eyes stopped on him out of everything else. maybe it was the way he stood-clam, effortless or maybe it was just that black shirt he was wearing.simple, but some how...perfect. His hair was slightly messy, like he didn't even try, and yet everything about him looked right. There was something calm about him… something that didn't match the chaos around. For a moment everything else faded.The music,the people,even my own thoughts."who is he?" I remember asking my best friend, trying to sound normal, even through my heart was doing something very abnormal.She look at him,She followed my gaze, then smirked slightly. "Oh… him?"then back at me and said something that I wasn't ready to hear.🥺
My friend said me- "I know him....he used to have a crush on me".I don't know why, but that one sentence hit harder than it should have. My excitement faded into something heavier- something like a disappointment for a second,I wish I hadn't ask at all. But then,I convinced myself... used to maybe things were different now. I smiled… or at least I tried to. But something inside me felt strange, like a tiny crack forming where there was nothing before. Maybe it didn't matter.After all,this was just a crush
...right?Or at least,that's what I told myself. Days passed, but something had changed.🌆🌃
Without realising it,I had started noticing him..... every single day. The school corridors,which once felt ordinary, suddenly became impotant. Sometimes, I would pretend to drink water just to stay longer near the corridor where he usually passed. My eyes would automatically search for him- between groups of students, near classrooms,on the stair case,on the terrace of school.It become a silent routine.Sometime I would see him laughing with his friends. sometime just walking past,completely unaware and every time, my heart react the same way fast, nervous, and confusing. He never noticed me.But some how..... I noticed everything about him.👀
Then exams came
A different kind of silence replaced the usual noise of school.Everyone was busy with papers,stress, last revision.And somehow, out of all the classroom in school.....we ended up in the same one. I still remember that feeling trying to focus on the question paper but being aware of his presence at the same time.It was strange distracting..... but also oddly comforting.
And then something small happened. Some thing that probably meant nothing to anyone else-but meant everything to me.We both stood up at the same time to take a supplementry.
Same moment. same reason..
I don't know why, but that tiny coincidence made my entire day.It felt special.....like some invisible connections, even if it exist only in my mind.The bell had just rung, and the classroom slowly filled with the sound of chairs moving and papers being collected. Everyone looked relieved, some already discussing answers, some rushing out like they were finally free.I stayed seated for a second longer than necessary, trying to calm my thoughts, trying to ignore the fact that he was just a few desks away.When I finally stood up, I didn't expect anything… not really. But as I stepped out of my bench, our paths crossed.It wasn't anything dramatic. No words. No smiles.My heart reacted before I could even understand what was happening. Fast. Loud. Uncontrollable.
And before I could hold onto that moment any longer… he walked away.But something about that one second stayed with me.Maybe it meant nothing to him…🥺
But the movement I can never forget happened right after the exam.💞
My mind was somewhere else- probably still thinking about him- and suddenly.... I bumped into someone. Before I could react,I realised...I had stepped on his white shoes.My heart stopped. I froze completely, too nervous to even look up probably I wanted to say "sorry"....I really did.But the words just didn't come out.
All I could think was-he's going to be angry. Anyone would be, right? Especially with white shoes.
But he didn't say anything.
No anger. No reaction.Nothing.
And some how,that silence told me more about him than words ever could. He was calm. Different. Gentle.
And in that moment ,without even realising it...I liked him even more. Soon,exams ended. The last bell ring ,and just like thatm...vacations began.Everyone was excited-free from studies,free from routine but for me, something felt incomplete.Because somewhere between dance practice, quite corridors,and small unoticed moments .....a story had began a story he didn't even know existed.😌
And maybe that's what made it even more special… or maybe more painful.
Because while my world had slowly started revolving around these quiet, unnoticed moments… his world remained exactly the same. Unaware. Unchanged.
To him, I was just another face in the corridor, another student in the classroom, another presence that didn't really matter.
But to me… he had already become something more.
Not something loud or obvious.
Not something I could even explain properly.
Just a feeling.
A quiet one.
The kind that stays hidden between heartbeats and unspoken thoughts.
Sometimes I would wonder…
If I disappeared one day, would he even notice?
And that question alone was enough to make my chest feel heavy in a way I didn't understand yet.
But still…
I didn't want this feeling to go away.
Even if it was one-sided…
Even if it was small…
Even if it only existed inside me…
It was mine.🫀
And somehow, that was enough.
Or at least… that's what I told myself.
Because deep down, a tiny part of me had already started hoping for something more…
Something impossible.
Something that hadn't even begun yet.-✨💗