Keigan's pov
"What the fvck were you thinking?!?!?"
Yelled kuya as soon as we got in the car
"I wasn't thinking- there happy? I told you."
I yelled back equally frustrated. I saw the way kuya's hand tightened on the steering wheel and how his jaw clenched.
"What's going on with you? Why are u acting this way? Jay told me that what happened why she hit you."
Kuya's voice changed to this tone I never heard him use in the last sentence.
He didn't sound mad not exactly, he sounded disappointed.
"How could you call Jay that? She's important to me! And for fvcks sake she's not some whore. Respect her cause if u don't trust me keigan I'll make you respect her."
I couldn't control myself as if something came over me as if I was someone else.
"So that's it? Your choosing her over us? Again? Why? Aren't me and kerien important? I wish mom never died so I wouldn't be stuck with you"
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Keifers pov
The moment those words escaped his mouth I felt that warm liquid stinging the corner of my eyes. I couldn't lose myself Infront of him, he needs me.
This is not Keigan he just has keigan's face but that's not him he won't say that.
I know keigan, I know my brother, the one who used to hide under my bed, the one who insisted on sleeping in my room, the one who cried by just looking at my bruises that monster gave me,THIS WAS NOT HIM.
"Well guess what u are stuck with me so shut it and I know what you did to that poor girl."
I scolded him. No matter what he needs to know what he did was wrong. He can't just hit woman.
"I- dammit it's that friend of yours, blame him."
I knew he was talking about blaster without him having to explain it.
"Well even in that case you can't just hit her! Cause only the weakest hurts the ones who seem weaker and in this case your the weakest."
I repeated the words mom told me once. I noticed the way his face fell the way his eyes seemed to water.
I knew that feeling, the feeling of hurting the one I love most.
It reminded me of back when I hurt my Jay. It made me feel like the monster, I knew Keigan felt that way. I know how deeply Keigan is capable of loving someone. I knew Keigan would never hurt her on purpose I knew it was his jealousy out of control but it was never an excuse.
My hand moved on its own. I still had a few hours before having to pick up the boys so I drove until I reached this beach, it was the place I visited back when mom died to calm myself down.
"Get out of the car."
I told Keigan.
"So your gonna leave me here? At least take me to a train station"
"Are you dumb? Your my brother I won't leave you here. Just get out of the car and come with me"
He complied and got out. We walked to the shore and I sat down and waited until he joined me. I handed him a pack of cigarettes and a lighter.
"Here do it if it helps."
I told him keeping my voice coldly gentle.
"I thought you quit?"
"Well this is old I just kept it in my car and forgot about it. And ya I did quit but I won't stop you from using it if it helps"
Keigan took the cigarette and lighter from my hands and he lit it up while looking over at the ocean.
"Let it out. Cry if you feel like it."
I said following his gaze to the waves.
"Huh?"
He replied pretending to be confused but I knew he understood what I said.
"Well I was in your situation once and everyday in this exact spot I wished I had someone like me."