Aaj m apni life ki vo baat btati hu jo mne kbhi kisi se nhi btai .
Ye baate h jb m 11th class me hui thi new students admission le rhe the . M kisi ko nhi jaanti thi . Uss time m chup chap rhti thi bss pdhai se mtlb tha mujhe. Jab sb students apas me hste the bolte the tb mera bhi mn krta tha ki m bhi bolu lekin meri himmat nhi hoti thi ldko se bolne ki . Class me kuch ldke bhi aaye the vo sbse bolte the lekin mujhse nhi. Kyoki sabko m serious type lgti thi . Unme ek ldka tha m sochti thi ye mujhse rude h or bolta nhi tha. Dheere dheere mujhe uski baate , kaam psnd aane lg gya lekin meri usse bolne ki himmat nhi hui. Usne bhi mujhse kbhi baat nhi ki.
Isliye mne kbhi jayada jayada nhi socha . Aise hi din beet gye hum 12th me hogye .
Ek din meri snap pe uski request aai . Mujhe visvas nhi hua dekh kr. Mne bhot socha fir uski request accept krli. Fir starting me hmari pdhai se related baat hone lg gyi .Fir hum friend bngye . M bhot khush thi . Aise hi bes friend bn gye. Ek din mne usse uski personal life k baare me pucha. Aap smjh hi gye honge ki mne kya pucha 😅. Mne pucha ki kya tum single ho . Fir usne mujhe btaya haa m single hu . Mujhe khushi hui ye sun k . Lekin fir vo bola ki mujhe ek ladki psnd h bhot time se. Mujhe dukh hua ye sun k. Lekin fir bhi mne himmat krke picha ki kon h vo. Fir vo bola tu jaanti h usko apni hi class ki h . M confuse hogyi . Fir aise hi hum uske baare me baate krne lg gye . Lekin mujhe nhi pta tha vo kiski baate krta h. Bss m uski khushi k liye sunti rhti thi . M usko bolti thi ki apne dil ki baat btade usko. Vo bola agr mne usko btadiya or usne mere frndship bhi khtm krli to . Mujhe jealous feel hota tha ki kon h vo ladki jisko itna acha ldka like krta h 😞. Fir aise hi din beet gye ... Or fir vo din aagya jis din vo uss ladki ko purpose krne vala tha . Meri aankhon se aasu aarhe the. M online hi usse itni jayada attach hogyi thi . Vo ladki purpose krne vala tha or m uski khushi me khush thi . Fir achanak meri life me alag hi mod aaya ...Fir vo mujhse baato baato me puchne lga ki m kisi ko psnd krti hu na nhi .
Mne usko bola ki m jisko psnd krti hu vo kisi or ko psnd krta h. Fir vo achanak bola m usko baad me purpose krunga . Aise hi din bit te gye. Ek din mne uske sath mjak kiya or boli m tujhe psnd krti hu bhot phle se. Fir vo bola ki m bhi tujhe psnd krta h . M sunn k surprise hogyi . Mne usse pucha kya tum sch bol rhe ho . Fir usne haa boldiya . Or bola ki tu hi vo ladki h jisko m purpose krne vala tha lekin uss din tune bola ki tu kisi or ko psnd krti h . Fir mne usko jawab diya m teri hi baat kr rhi thi uss time . Vo khush hogya or m bhi bhot khush thi. Fir hmne kisi ko btaye bina hi hmara relationship continue Kiya . Hum dono bhot khush rhte the . 12th ki ending me ek ladke ne mujhe purpose kiya . Ye baat usko pta chli gyi or usko itna gussa aaya ki vo usko maarne chla gya . Mne usko uss time rok liya . Lekin usne mere ko uss ladke ko bhai bolne k liye bola . Mujhe bhot jayada Khushi hui ki mera bnda bhi jealous feel krta h . Mne usko bhai boldiya . Lekin fir nhi pta kya hone lg gya hmare bich...Humari choti choti baat pe ladai hone lg gyi . Hum dono ek dusre se bhot jayada pyar krte the . Lekin pta nhi hmare riste ko kiski nazar lgi. Sb kuch dheere dheere khrab hone lg gya. Fir bhi hmne ummid nhi chodi . Ek din baat krte krte mne shadi ki puchi or usme kaha hmara koi future nhi h mere ghrvale bahut jayada strict h . M ye sunn k udaas hogyi. M bilkul tut chuki thi. Mne fir usko bola ki agr koi future hi nhi tha to kyu kaha mujhe. Jitna dukh mujhe tha utna hi usko tha. Mne usse break up krliya. Meri himmat nhi hui fir usse baat krne . M Sara din usko yaad krti or roti rhti thi. Aise hi meri tabiyat kharab rhne lg gyi. Na m kisi se baat krti na hi kisi pe dhyaan deti. Scl me usko dekh k dukh hota tha . Hmari 12th complete hogyi . Fir kuch din baad uska message aaya . M sochne lgi ki aaj usne msg kyu kiya. Mne reply Diya . Fir vo mujhse fir se sb kuch phle ki trh krne k liye bolne lga . Ek pal ko m khush hogyi. Fir mujhe yaad aaya ki jisne mujhe future nhi h bolke chod diya tha vo mujhe kya hi pyar krega. Fir mne usko mna krdiya. Lekin hum frnd bngye. Mne uski condition smjhi . Aise hi fir se purani baate bhul kr ache frnd bngye. M sbse dur Jana chahti thi . Mne gurgaon clg me admission lene ki Sochi. M vaha gyi girls clg me lekin vaha admission nhi ho paya. Fir meri frnd ne mujhe rewari admission lene k liye kaha . Mne uski maanli or rewari clg me admission le liya. Fir vaha vo hua jo mne m kbhi nhi socha tha . Mere frnd 🫶 ne bhi vaha hi admission le liya. Lekin hmari stream alag thi. Mujhe khud ki life afsos hua . Mne usse vaha dekha. Hmari online baate to hoti thi . Lekin clg me m usse chupke rhti thi. Meri himmat nhi hoti thi uske saamne aane ki . Nhi pta kis baat ka dar lgta tha. Fir ek din... usne mujhe apni class me bulaya. Mujhe dar lg rha tha. Usse najre milane me . M usko Kai din me dekha . Meri aakhon mein aasu aagye. Lekin mne khud ko control Kiya. Or usse pucha kya kaam h.