Dante was a liar, there was no one to really help me move on from Lizmarie. Is this how Han Sooyoung felt? Being lonely and alone as a child all those years? Caleb Zuozhe silently cries and grieves over Dante, he is tired of grieving over and over again. Was this how Lizmarie felt? All those years, just gone in a couple of days of one argument. "No, I'm not okay," says Caleb Zuozhe. "It'll pass eventually" says Jasper Xhao.
Caleb Zuozhe sometimes wondered if he was a sexual 2w1 instead of a self-preservation 2w1. He acted intensely and preferred one on one connections and would often do dangerous things. Perhaps Caleb who was clearly suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder was displaying the symptoms of his mental illness that was looked down upon by society. He wanted to show an honest representation about BPD so he wrote this story and documented his perspective to the world.
"I'm not going to watch you get obsessive over Lizmarie and cause her to feel unsafe both online and in person". The fact that Dante seriously thinks I would assault her enrages me. I would never do such a thing. Is what I'm doing considered harassment? Seriously? Apparently befriending criminals is a bad thing according to her and my skeleton collective friend did say that people tend to hyper react to BPD symptoms online. I guess this was sadly just another hyper reaction from Dante.
I will admit, BPD is genuinely ruining my life. I wondered if one day, I will regret what I have written and people will flame me in the comments. "You need to move on" is what Dante says. At this point, I'm starting to think that a regressor can't move on. My bad, that I have the Yoo Joonghyuk and Han Sooyoung disease where I stay stuck on one person for a long time.
Do I seriously want the Ruined World Scenarios to begin when it's a dystopia? Reading it was a utopia to me.
[Calamity of Questions has been created as a Calamity title]
Why on earth did Dante lie to my mother and downplayed our conflict to her? Did she not want to get my mother into our drama or something? Kind of wish Wuthering Waves was available as a virtual reality instead of it being a computer game for me.
I really appreciate Sebastian for reading my story and commenting "I love it! It puts things into perspective!" He was the ideal reader that I wanted. Is this what Han Sooyoung felt when Kim Dokja read 'Three Ways to Survive in a Ruined World'?
I was literally just getting better, fucking hell Dante, and you chose to abandon me while I was on my healing journey?! You sure as hell aren't invited to my parties anymore!
I used to be scared of going to jail but after going to the hopistal… I think I got a better sense of idea of what jail is like. Thankfully California is lenient on these types of things and has people choose care first over jailing and imprisonment.
There may be some things that I have forgotten but one thing that I do is that Lizmarie's warmth helped me survive this cruel world. She was my goddess.
I tried playing Hades again and wanted to see how far I could go, guess I ended up dying in stepping on hot lava or getting hit by an enemy which may be my own fault but I couldn't feel it. I was using a video game avatar character after all. I loved using the shield as my main weapon of choice when playing Hades before.
"Your obsessive behavior is absurd" is probably what Dante would be thinking of how I feel towards Lizmarie. Uh no Dante, this is how real commitment of love looks like. Yes it may be one sided but I can't move on and I'm willing to write a whole book for her. It's been three years and I'm still wholeheartedly in love with Khaleesi Lizmarie Lectora. Never in my 246 past regression turns have I felt this way towards anyone before. My tarot card advisor even states that we were married before in our past lives so it's definitely destiny for us to meet again.
Ah right, in this round, I'm Nathan who is an ENTP self-preservation/sexual or sexual/self-preservation 7w8-8w7-3w4. I am the Darkness Dragon King and my role is to fulfill our system's desires and have fun. I am supposed to act the most like Han Sooyoung and the Abyssal Black Flame Dragon.
The fight between the Demon King of Liberation and the Angelic Queen of Bitterness begins. There is no time limit, whoever falls first will win.
The Angelic Queen of Bitterness summons a gaming pc to help her defeat the Demon King of Liberation. She summons Aemeath, Shidou, and a healer and plays the game as it is just like Wuthering Waves. "You won't need a healer" says the Demon King of Liberation. Confused, the Angelic Queen of Bitterness tried to take down the Demon King's health points.
"Ow , that hurts" complains the Demon King. Realizing that he was going to feel actual physical pain from her playstyle, she stops and wonders her choice. "Come on, just do your rotation like you would in Genshin and Wuthering Waves, I'll be fine." The summoning stream mutes the Demon King of Liberation and puts a wall to be unable to determine if Lizmarie will know if he is in pain or not from her attacks.
"Argh that hurts" the Demon King of Liberation proceeds to break Shidou's sword in half and drain her health points. Shidou gets thrown to the wall as a defense instinct made by the Demon King. Shidou is too afraid to continue to fight and has fainted. The healer was none other than the Angelic Queen of Bitterness herself. She took Aemeath's sword and stabbed the Demon King of Liberation's heart. "Great, now you will be seen as the hero of the story Angelic Queen of Bitterness".
The Demon King of Liberation disappears into the darkness as he has lost the fight. Where will he be sleeping? Who knows. This is a story where the Demon King of Liberation is defeated by the one he loves the most.
Nathan watches the scene created by the Demon King of Liberation and thought it was a good story.
Caleb Zuozhe is in pain after realizing he has lost Dante as a friend. He practically lost all of his friends that he considered close before he was in his chronically suicidal period.
I recall calling Jackie Baguet on the phone when I was in my first Psych Ward, I was upset when calling her about it. I don't remember what I said but Jackie stated that I was 'aggressive'. Anyone in my situation would be upset that their close friends practically betrayed them and left them for dead right? I had Borderline Personality Disorder and I was addicted to companionship. Losing their companionship was like losing a part of myself. I was also unmasking myself for the first time since I'm autistic too. Why must endless tragedies fall after I unmask myself fully?
"You need actual help not fictional help" says Dante. Holy fucking shit, that is the most disrespectful thing to ever say to me. To call ORV as not real help is the same as saying long distance relationships aren't real relationships. Do you know how much that pisses me off Dante? Were we just in a piss of battle or something? Was that what it was to you? For fuck's sake, I didn't remember your experiences Dante. I'm sorry I invalidated your experiences but I genuinely forgot. I have Disassocative Identity Disorder bro.
"You are throwing a pity party" says someone from r/plural when I was directly messaging them. It was invalidating the pain and suffering that I was experiencing. No wonder I decided to deceive them after the bull crap they put me through. They say that deception isn't tolerated? Then learn to tolerate it, you weaklings. That's what I had to go through, I was forced to tolerate the pain and suffering that I was put through and for what?
[The Demon King of Liberation curses the r/plural mods as enemies. "Everyone who blocked me are also enemies and will not be saved in the Ruined World Scenarios if I ever see you on your death bed."]
I can't help but feel bored in group therapy. I feel like I have more wisdom and knowledge than everyone else. I prefer being alone. It's annoying to have to hear things that I already have heard. I don't like community that much, I guess it shows how social blind or last that I really am.
[Real Life Conflict Event between Dante and the Xhao Zuozhe company recording has started]
Dante: And I'm saying this as well but you need to leave Liz alone too. Caleb, from an outside perspective, you are a stalker. You are constantly stalking and looking for Liz and I feel bad for her. I didn't want to say anything back then because I didn't know how to bring it up without triggering you but it genuinely needs to stop because it's harassment.
Caleb: I genuinely don't think it's in your place to tell me what to do with Liz as I can not get her out of my mind. You know how much she means to me.
Dante: You know what, I've actually had enough. I was originally gonna say it's not my place really but you know it's gonna be my place now. I know how much she means to you but oh my god Caleb it's coming to a point where it's concerning. Like a legal amount of concern. You are constantly stalking her online and as well as in Puerto Rico, trying to host some sort of event just to get closer or just to have her notice you. Have you EVER thought about how she feels when you're doing this to her and putting her in this type of situation. I'm gonna be very honest but you're actually being very selfish about your obsessive feelings instead of hers.
Caleb: She refuses to communicate hence making me feel forced to put her in this situation. I'm not sure if you will truly understand what I'm doing unless you read Omniscients' Readers Viewpoint. I try and predict what she feels all the time, I ask my tarot card advisor all the time on what she feels. If I could read her mind, I would do so in a heartbeat. I'm tired of missing her and yearning for her. I would move on if I could but I can't and you know reality is cruel to everyone.
The only book I relied on to save me was ORV, no one else was there to guide me or be there for me when I was insane. Hell Liz means a lot to me cuz she was there the most when I was vulnerable with Robin (my 2nd ex who cheated on me).
No one else could come to make me feel not alone compared to what she does. She's special out of 8.2 billion people on this planet. So what if I'm being selfish? I consider it to be a good thing by finally getting my needs met. I'm tired of masking as an autistic, I also display my rage and anger pretty openly. If this is how I'm perceived then so be it.
Dante: You know what yeah you need help. Not fictional help from ORV, you need professional help. you saying "she refuses to communicate hence making me feel forced to put her in this situation" is pissing me off. I don't want to make this about me but you saying that and me reading that from you as a Sexual-Assault victim is so triggering. How dare you force her into a situation like that. She clearly blocked you. There's other people who are willing to help but you won't move on from Liz. Tarot card readers are not gonna be there for you when you get the actual help they can do so much but in the end they just want ur money and will say anything just to justify your needs. You being selfish to the one person you want is beyond me i dont know how you could do that to Liz.
Caleb: I'm simply the product of what happens when the American healthcare system fails me.