Khaleesi's discord banner changed from a dark rose pink to bright pink after I contacted her for some reason.
"I also wanted to mention ahead that I'll take my time on reading your thoughts and properly processing things (this time I won't take more than a week again, lol). Breaking the ice on discussions was probably the second hardest thing for me to do, but that has already been done, so yeah just saying that to help ease your anxiety. Likewise, I'll understand if you also need to take your time to process."
"I'm fine with that, I think it is better for me as well to take the time to organize my thoughts and know what to say properly. It would be best for the both of us anyway to take our time instead of being pressured and rushed. (insert thinking emoji) I appreciate your consideration on explaining things to ease my anxiety."
"No problem, that's completely fair, and thank you."
I proceeded to ramble on and on about how I felt.
"If you need any explanations or any more details if something makes sense do let me know by the way. I'll see if I can try explaining it in another way that makes sense."
I just kept on rambling to her back then about how I felt. It was a symptom of [autism spectrum disorganization] after all and I felt most comfortable with her.
"Highkey it's kind of been on my mind for a while, though I honestly think and feel like everyone is playing guessing games when it comes to giving love and receiving love to others. I mean I see a bit often where people give love by trying to help or give help based on what they have personally experienced. Though knowing what a person may need specifically can take time and practice and possibly communication too if both parties are comfortable enough.
I feel like everyone has their own needs and it would be better if proper communication was needed. I honestly do think that it might have been better for us to just be vulnerable and honest with each other about what our needs are and what is in our capable hands rather than being wearing people pleaser masks and guessing what the other may want/need which just ends up to frustration and possible resentment in one or both parties.
Not only that but a type of misunderstanding was created too. I hope you're taking care of yourself btw. I feel like I'm honestly being fake by not asking more or offering better but you typically comfort or help me in this way so I suppose I'm going to assume this is what you may need since I also am not sure how else I can even help. Take your time on reading my long ass messages. "A pat emoji was inserted.
I regressed and died from the Broken Heart Syndrome while grieving for Lizmarie.