I was thinking about the Korean squid, he always sacrificed himself. He was actively suicidal and just kept on sacrificing himself. I read a post about this beloved fictional character who I found to be extremely relatable on an uncomfortable level. "He hates himself so much that he wants to destroy his younger self." I have been thinking about how sad that was, if only he had a happier life and had such memories of it.
I asked my astrology advisor when Lectora would contact me. I was told that around early May is when she may reply back to my messages. I really hope she is right as I have been waiting for 6 months since she last talked to me.
I remember how Lizmarie was shocked by the fact that I still had feelings for her by the last huge conversation we had. Dang it, Lizmarie blocked me even on Facebook. Why was I so obsessed with winning her back or getting a reply from her back in the first place? Lizmarie had killed me so many times in these past regression rounds. Lizmarie killed me again this round by stabbing me in the heart with her sword.