I learned that in my past lives, I was in a committed relationship with Lizmarie, no wonder I had such a massive crush on her in this life. She found me to be exhausting to interact with yet I found her to be so uplifting to interact with. Was it because I was neglected my entire life where she was exhausted with feeling like she needed to babysit me? Or was it another role she felt like she was playing?
Regardless of what role she felt like she played in my life, she felt like the love of my life and one whom I had loved romantically since I was 18 years old. Dear readers, I am 21 as I am currently writing this chapter which means that I have been in love with Lizmarie for 3 years straight. She was a special interest to my autistic tender heart. She healed me but she also killed me by having the inability to handle my intense energy. The thought of the love of my life finding me to be extremely exhausting and overwhelming was painful.
At least she did it kindly unlike Sylius Xavier.
Sylius Xavier was an ableist and pathetic piece of trash that should be discarded like he is a disgusting item. I will do everything that I can to get my revenge on that irritating piece of trash for burning me alive. He called me immature when I was vulnerable enough to trust him with my inner child. The reason why I would defeat Sylius in every round was because he betrayed me first. He burned my stability to the ground just because he found me to be draining and exhausting. He felt like he was my babysitter instead of a friend.
Never have I ever felt so betrayed. The only trauma I have felt was with that damn cockroach who cheated on me. That cockroach's name was Robin. I'm sorry Lizmarie if I attacked you, I was extremely neglected in my life and had no idea what I was doing aside from losing my sanity and trying to win you back in my life. I had to read everyone's needs and attune to their needs in order to survive. That is what it means to be a self-preservationenneagramcoretwo after all.
I genuinely think anyone who finds me to be exhausting is ableist because all I do is be myself after all. If you find me exhausting then you clearly can't handle the regressor power that our company has. I will write 117 chapters filled with around 2,000 words each just for Lizmarie Mateo and publish it as a book. What will you do for the one you love the most?
Anyways I died because Jacquelin Baguet was a coward to face the angels who were brutally killing me. I was the Demon King of Validation after all. I have been invalidated all my life that I would invalidate others whenever I felt hurt by them. I would also validate the ones who I liked and wanted to save.