It began, as so many of my decisions do, with a refusal to retreat.
Simply a choice.
The dawn approached, faint and pale across my lands, and the others descended—some into coffins beneath the western crypt, some into the earth beyond the gardens, some into sealed chambers lined in stone. I've long stopped fearing the destructive power of the sun, as several of the Ancient ones have.
So I remained.
Not foolishly. Not flamboyantly. I have long since abandoned adolescent theatrics for something far more satisfying: controlled transgression.
The first thread of light touched the horizon.
I felt it before I saw it.
The air shifts when the sun prepares to rise. Even mortals sense it in their bones, though they do not know why.
I stood in the long gallery where tall windows faced east. The glass had been reinforced years ago. The curtains were drawn back.
Louis lingered in the doorway, beginning to wane. He had been able to stay awake longer as of late. Perhaps due to my powerful blood in his veins.
The first true blade of light cut across the fields.
It did not touch me yet.
"You have already tested this," Louis said quietly.
I smiled faintly.
He moved nearer but did not cross the threshold of light.
He will always stop just short of risk.
It is not cowardice. It is discipline.
The sun climbed higher. I grew weaker, and Louis was close to falling.
The light entered the gallery in a narrow band across the floor.
Heat prickled faintly along my skin before contact.
I stopped just before the beam.
And waited.
The waiting is always the hardest part.
I extended my hand.
Slowly.
The edge of light brushed my fingertips.
Pain, yes—but not immolation. A warning. A tightening. A fierce, focused heat like metal left too long in flame.
I withdrew before it could deepen.
Louis exhaled—barely audible, but I heard it.
"Why?" he asked. Before he slid to the floor and lost his battle with the command of the dawn.
"To measure my limits," I whispered before I drew the heavy curtains.
Later that night, Armand came to me in the music room.
He did not sit.
He rarely does when troubled.
"You are altering the mood of the house, everyone is uneasy. They don't know what you're thinking." he said.
"How fragile we must be," I replied lightly, "if mood alone can unsettle us."
"This is not about mood," he said softly.
His eyes were dark, and there was no theatricality in him now. Only something close to fear.
"You stood in the light."
I tilted my head slightly.
"Does that disturb you?"
"You disturb me, you've always disturbed me" he said with a smirk.
The admission landed heavier than accusation.
"I am not suicidal," I said calmly. " I, as well as Gregory, often sleep in the sun."
"I know, and nothing can kill you anyway."
"Nor am I reckless."
"I know."
"Then what are you afraid of Armand?"
He stepped closer—not aggressively, but urgently.
"I fear escalation," he said. "I fear you will push beyond threshold not because you must—but because you can."
There was love in his anger.
There always is.
"I have seen other forms of endurance," I said quietly. "I have seen immortality that does not retreat."
"You envy it," he replied.
"Of course I do."
"And envy in you becomes action."
I smiled faintly.
"Envy in me becomes rebellion more often than not my dear Armand."
Armand's jaw tightened.
"You are not alone in your exploration," he said. "You are Prince, you are Lestat De Lioncourt. What you do becomes precedent."
There.
That was the true wound.
He was not afraid for me.
He was afraid for the Blood.
"You believe you will survive anything, that's always been the problem with you. Why else would you have challenged me so openly in Paris?"
That, at least, made me laugh.
He watched me for a long moment.
"And if you are wrong?"
I stepped into his space—not threatening, not mocking. Close enough that the tension between us felt almost like heat.
"Then I will burn beautifully," I murmured.
His eyes closed briefly.
"You are impossible," he said.
"So I've been told."
He withdrew then—not in rage, but in retreat.
Armand withdraws when he cannot win.
Gabrielle did not argue.
She joined me before dawn without comment.
"You will lengthen the exposure," she said, not asking.
"Yes. I believe I will."
She nodded once.
"If you burn again, I will not carry you," she added calmly.
I laughed.
"I would not ask you to. I have David for that, he has experience with crispy Lestat."
That earned the faintest flicker of amusement.
Louis did not speak.
Gabrielle watched with interest.
Armand was not present.
He had descended earlier than usual.
That, more than his words, told me everything.
That night, I called no formal assembly.
Instead, I invited only a few.
Louis.
Gabrielle.
Armand.
Teskhamen.
We met in the smaller salon.
Candles lit. No grand staging.
"Teskhamen," I said, "when you spoke of the Solar immortals—did they describe transition?"
He studied me carefully.
"They described an unending endurance, they exist and go on with seemingly no boundaries." he said.
"Did they speak of transformation?"
He hesitated.
"Not as the we understand it."
Interesting.
Armand's eyes flickered toward me sharply.
"Are you going to attempt to capture one? As Roland did with Derek?" he asked.
"I want to attempt understanding," I replied.
Louis leaned forward slightly.
"What are you proposing?" he asked.
"Contact," I said.
The word hung in the air.
Gabrielle's gaze sharpened faintly.
Armand went very still.
Teskhamen did not react at all.
"You intend to seek them directly," Louis said.
"Yes."
"Not invite them here?"
"No."
That would be arrogance.
I may be Prince, but I am not blind.
Armand spoke softly.
"You go alone."
"Of course."
"You will not represent us?"
I smiled faintly.
"I always represent us, I am Prince."
That did not please him.
"Will you speak with the Council before you negotiate?" he asked.
I held his gaze.
"I will not negotiate anything," I said quietly. "I will observe."
The same word Amel had used.
Observe.
The echo was not accidental.
Silence settled among us.
Gabrielle stood.
"When?" she asked.
"Soon. Tomorrow night I think"
Armand rose immediately after.
"I will follow you," he said.
"I would not want you to," I replied. " I go alone."
That hurt him.
I saw it.
He left without further word.
Teskhamen inclined his head slightly.
"They will not be impressed by theatrics," he said.
I smiled.
"Then I shall disappoint them."
Later, alone again in the gallery, I stood before the window and watched the night stretch over the fields.
Solar immortals.
Children of the Sun.
Enduring.
Awake.
Continuous.
I felt envy again—not sharp, not corrosive. Quiet. Persistent.
And beneath it, something else.
Competition.
Not hostile.
Not territorial.
But real.
We are not the only aristocracy in existence.
The thought both offended and delighted me.
Very well.
Let us see how they endure.