Viva khatam hone ke baad jab main school se ghar aaya, tab pehli baar dil me sach me darr utarna shuru hua. Ab tak practicals, viva aur school ki daant ke beech time nikal raha tha, lekin ab sab kuch khatam ho chuka tha. Ab sirf ek sach mere saamne tha — boards me sirf ek mahina baaki tha.
Main seedha apne room me gaya. Table par Physics ki book, Chemistry ke notes aur Maths ki rough notebook faili hui thi. Practical files side me rakhi thi, jinhe dekhte hi aur tension badh gayi. Ek taraf derivations, dusri taraf reactions, aur teesri taraf integration ke sums. Aisa lag raha tha jaise har subject mere upar chadh kar bol raha ho — "Ab dekhte hain kitna tayyar hai."
Main chair par baith gaya aur Physics ki book kholi. Pehla chapter dekhte hi dimag ghoom gaya. Numericals itne saare the ki samajh nahi aa raha tha kahan se start karu. Formula dekhte hi lagta yaad hai, lekin question solve karne baithta toh blank.
Chemistry uthai toh organic reactions dekh kar aur bura haal ho gaya. Naam yaad, reagents yaad, lekin sequence yaad nahi. Har dusri reaction same lag rahi thi. Maths toh alag hi level ka pressure tha. Integration aur differentiation ke sums dekhte hi haath thande pad gaye.
Us raat pehli baar mujhe genuinely feel hua ki is baar boards mazaak nahi hain.
Neeche se mummy ki awaaz aayi,
"Kitna syllabus bacha hai?"
Main kuch second chup raha, fir bola,
"Bas ho jayega mummy…"
Lekin andar se mujhe khud pata tha ki bohot kuch pending tha.
Papa office se aaye toh seedha room me aaye. Table par faili books dekh kar bole,
"Ab bas ek mahina hai. Phone side me rakh aur full focus."
Unki awaaz me daant kam aur seriousness zyada thi. Shayad unhe bhi samajh aa gaya tha ki is baar pressure real hai.
Raat ko Ranveer ka message aaya:
"Bhai panic mat kar, ek timetable bana. Physics morning, Chemistry afternoon, Maths night. Ho jayega."
Uska message dekh ke thoda confidence aaya. Maine turant rough notebook nikali aur poore 30 din ka plan bana diya.
Morning → Physics numericals
Afternoon → Chemistry reactions + NCERT
Night → Maths practice
Sunday → full revision test
Plan dekh kar acha lag raha tha, lekin asli challenge usse follow karna tha.
Agla din subah 6 baje alarm baja. Normally main snooze kar deta, lekin aaj seedha uth gaya. Face wash karke Physics ke numericals leke baith gaya. Pehle 2 questions sahi hue, teesra atka, chautha galat, paanchva blank. Gussa bhi aa raha tha aur darr bhi.
Fir maine decide kiya ki har galat question ko rough me 2 baar fir se karunga.
Dheere dheere ek rhythm banne lagi.
School me bhi sabka same haal tha. Har koi bas boards ki baat kar raha tha.
Koi bol raha tha,
"Physics me derivations pakka aayengi."
Koi dusra,
"Chemistry ke named reactions rat le bhai."
Maths wale sir class me aaye aur seedha bole,
"Jo student abhi bhi casual hai, board usko maaf nahi karega."
Ye line seedha dimag me ghus gayi.
Us din se maine phone use almost band kar diya. WhatsApp sirf Ranveer ke messages ke liye kholta. Insta aur बाकी sab uninstall jaisa hi tha.
Din fast nikalne lage. Kabhi Physics strong lagti toh Chemistry weak ho jati. Kabhi Maths ke 10 sums sahi hote toh next day ek bhi nahi hota. Har din confidence aur fear ka mix tha.
Ek raat Maths ke integrals karte karte 2 baj gaye. Main same question 4 baar kar चुका tha, fir bhi answer match nahi ho raha tha. Gusse me pen table par phek diya.
Us moment pe ek thought aaya:
"Ya toh abhi mehnat kar le, ya result ke din regret."
Ye line itni hard hit kari ki main fir se baith gaya.
Subah 3 baje tak wahi question solve kiya… aur finally answer aa gaya.
Us chhote se answer ne itna confidence diya ki laga shayad main kar sakta hu.
Agle kuch din aur bhi intense ho gaye. School me extra classes start ho gayi. Physics sir numericals kara rahe the, Chemistry mam important conversions aur reactions revise karwa rahi thi, aur Maths sir previous year papers solve kara rahe the.
Ek din principal sir class me aaye aur bole,
"Board exam knowledge ke saath discipline ka bhi test hota hai. Daily revision compulsory hai."
Sab class chup thi.
Maine Ranveer ki taraf dekha. Wo bhi serious tha. Pehli baar lag raha tha ki hum dono sach me boards ko leke mature ho gaye hain.
Ghar aake maine poora syllabus list dekha. Kuch chapters tick ho chuke the, kuch aadhe the, kuch untouched.
Lekin is baar फरक ye tha ki pehle jahan sirf fear tha, ab thoda confidence bhi aane laga tha.
Har din 1–1 chapter complete karte karte mujhe lagne laga ki shayad impossible bhi possible ho sakta hai.
Fir ek raat school group me message aaya:
"Board admit cards next week distribute honge."
Ye message dekhte hi body me ek ajeeb sa shock sa feel hua.
Admit card ka matlab tha —
ab ye sab bas planning nahi, reality banne wala hai.
Main bed par let gaya aur ceiling dekhte hue bas ek hi line soch raha tha:
"Ab sirf ek mahina nahi… har din matter karta hai."
Aur shayad pehli baar, mujhe apne aap se bhi darr lagne laga tha.
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Next morning school notice board par board exam datesheet lag chuki thi.
Main uske saamne khada tha…
Physics ka paper sabse pehle tha.
Mere haath thande pad gaye.
Boards officially shuru hone wale the. 📚🔥