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Chapter 10 - The Man He Used to Be

By the time the airship landed, the night had settled fully over the world. 

The candidates disembarked in a quieter state than before. Not calmer, exactly. Just worn down into silence. The kind that came after too many tests, too many near-falls, too much uncertainty packed too tightly into one day. 

Tonpa stepped off the ship and onto stone. 

Cold air met his face at once. Cleaner than the swamp. Sharper than the cliff. It carried the dry smell of rock, old dust, and height. The landing platform stretched out beneath the dark sky in hard, pale lines, bounded by walls that rose steep and severe around the next testing grounds. 

He looked up. 

Then up further. 

Then stopped. 

Trick Tower stood over them like something built less for function than judgment. 

Even under moonlight, it looked hostile. The stone was dark and sheer, the height oppressive enough to distort perspective. Windows were sparse. The upper sections disappeared into shadow. No warmth, no invitation—just vertical mass and the unpleasant certainty that anything called "Trick Tower" had earned the name honestly. 

Tonpa felt his stomach tighten. 

Right. 

This part. 

The tower. 

The prison. 

The place where progress narrowed into decisions and every decision found a way to become expensive. 

Around him, the other candidates had stopped to stare too. A few looked openly uneasy. Others wore the flatter, grimmer expression of people who had already learned that the Hunter Exam never presented architecture without a hidden insult. 

Leorio tilted his head back and immediately seemed to regret it. 

"Are they testing us," he muttered, "or punishing us for showing up?" 

Kurapika stood beside him, gaze moving up the tower face with quiet concentration. "In this exam, I'm not sure there is a difference." 

That was fair. 

Gon, meanwhile, looked fascinated. 

Of course he did. 

He stared at the tower with the bright, direct focus of someone meeting a dangerous animal and feeling curiosity before fear. Killua stood a little apart, hands in his pockets, expression unreadable in that way that suggested he had already started solving problems no one else had fully seen yet. 

Tonpa envied him on principle. 

Chairman Netero stepped forward, hands tucked behind his back, and addressed the remaining candidates. 

"This is the site of the third phase," he said pleasantly. "Your task is simple." 

Tonpa did not believe him. 

"You must reach the bottom of Trick Tower alive within seventy-two hours." 

A murmur passed through the group. 

Netero smiled as if that clarified everything. 

Tonpa stared at the tower again. 

Bottom. 

Not top. 

Right. 

He remembered that detail, and still it sounded absurd out loud. 

Leorio frowned. "We're supposed to go down that?" 

Netero's smile did not change. 

"Yes." 

Of course. 

The candidates were led toward the rooftop entrance area—broad, open stone broken by marked sections and strange panels built into the floor. At first glance, the place looked almost empty. Too empty. The kind of empty that existed only because danger had chosen to hide underground where it could bill by the hour. 

Tonpa stepped forward with the others, every sense drawn tight. 

He knew this part in outline. Hidden routes. Majority rule. Criminal prisoners used as test obstacles. Time pressure. Group dynamics sharpened into knives. 

And because the story had already begun to shift around him, that knowledge no longer felt reliable enough to count as comfort. 

The candidates began spreading across the rooftop, testing stone, examining seams, glancing for clues. Netero and the exam officials stood back with the detached patience of people who had no personal investment in whether any of this went well. 

Tonpa slowed. 

Pattern first. 

Always pattern first. 

The rooftop did not look random. The marked areas on the stone floor had subtle variations—wear at the edges, tiny shifts in alignment, sections more polished by past use than others. Hidden entrances. Mechanisms. 

He scanned the surface. 

Gon moved too, though differently. Not searching through visual logic. Feeling for something. Listening with that unnerving, animal sort of attention that made ordinary observation look clumsy by comparison. 

Tonpa disliked how effective that was. 

Then Gon stopped. 

His head tilted once. 

He crouched. 

And pressed a hand to one section of the floor. 

"There's something here," he said. 

Several candidates turned. 

Tonpa did too. 

Of course it was Gon. 

Of course the child with forest instincts and protagonist gravity had found the right trigger in under a minute. 

Killua walked over and peered down with mild interest. Kurapika followed. Leorio, after a brief pause of suspicious resentment toward children and fate, came too. 

Tonpa hesitated only a second before moving closer. 

Not because he wanted to join them. 

Because at this point, if fate kept arranging the group around the same gravity well, he might as well stand where the ground was likely to collapse in a narratively useful direction. 

Gon pressed again. 

A section of stone clicked. 

Then split. 

The floor sank inward with a grinding sound, opening into a narrow descent passage lit from below by dim mechanical light. 

The reaction around the rooftop was immediate—frustration from those who had searched elsewhere, quick movement from those still near enough to rush the opening, sharp glances as people tried to judge whether speed or patience was the better strategy. 

Tonpa already knew the answer. 

Both. 

A small wave of candidates surged toward the opening at once. 

Bad decision. 

The mechanism clicked again. 

A digital timer mounted into the side wall flickered to life above the passage. 

The numbers began counting down from seventy-two hours. 

And the entrance narrowed. 

The message was clear enough even before anyone said it aloud. 

This route was limited. 

Not everyone who reached it first would necessarily enter together. 

Candidates pressed closer. The crowd tightened. Elbows and shoulders sharpened. Exhaustion made everyone less graceful and more honest. 

Tonpa felt the shift instantly. 

The old Tonpa knew this kind of moment well. 

Chaos. Pressure. Crowding. The exact conditions where smaller cheats became easiest. A foot in the way. A body angled at the wrong second. A grip on someone's sleeve disguised as stumbling. One subtle delay, and another person lost their place. 

The instinct rose before thought. 

He could use this. 

Nothing cruel. Nothing dramatic. Just enough. He knew where to stand, where to lean, how to take one place forward and let someone else fall behind by blaming the crowd. 

A simple thing. 

A Tonpa thing. 

His weight shifted before he caught it. 

Then stopped. 

His jaw tightened. 

No. 

Not this. 

Not because he had become noble overnight. That would have been ridiculous. 

Because he knew exactly how easy it would feel. 

Exactly how natural. 

And suddenly the thought of moving that way again made something in him recoil. 

Around him, the crowd surged harder. Someone cursed. Another candidate tried to force through a narrowing gap and nearly lost footing. Leorio braced one arm out instinctively to keep himself from being shoved sideways. 

Kurapika planted his stance and held. Gon slipped through movement rather than resisting it. Killua, infuriatingly, seemed untouched by the mechanics of crowding and human inconvenience. 

Tonpa stood at the edge of motion and felt the old habits claw upward again. 

Take the angle. Delay the one in front. Use the panic. 

No one would even blame him. 

That was the worst part. 

No one expected better from Tonpa. 

He could do it and the room would explain it on his behalf. 

The realization hit him strangely hard. 

Leorio was half a step ahead of him, being pushed from behind by a broader candidate trying to wedge forward through the group. 

Tonpa saw the line clearly. 

If he shifted now, Leorio would lose balance for a second. The broader candidate would take the gap. Tonpa could step through after. No one would remember the exact mechanics. 

Leorio's hand hit the stone edge, catching himself. 

Tonpa did not move. 

Then the push came again. 

Harder. 

Leorio swore and twisted, off-balance now in a bad spot, his injured fatigue finally costing him. 

Tonpa reacted before thought. 

He planted one foot, shoved back against the broader candidate with his shoulder, and caught Leorio by the sleeve with his free hand. 

The man behind him snapped, "Move!" 

Tonpa looked over once. 

Flat. Cold. Tired enough not to care how his face looked. 

"You move." 

The candidate stared, surprised less by the words than by who had said them. 

That was fine. 

Let him be surprised somewhere else. 

The pressure broke just enough. Leorio recovered his footing and shot Tonpa a look halfway between irritation and confusion. 

"Did you just help me?" 

Tonpa released his sleeve. "Don't make it a whole thing." 

Leorio blinked once. 

Then, to Tonpa's immediate regret, grinned. 

"Oh, this is a whole thing now." 

"Please don't." 

Too late. 

The opening mechanism clicked again, the passage narrowing one final measure. A warning tone sounded somewhere in the stone. 

Kurapika looked back at the cluster around him and said sharply, "Either commit now or lose the route." 

That cut through the chaos cleanly. 

Gon dropped first, quick and decisive. Killua followed. Kurapika went next. Leorio shoved off the rooftop edge with all the grace of a man deeply opposed to vertical decisions but willing to file complaints later. 

Tonpa went after him. 

The descent chute took him faster than expected. 

Stone walls rushed close around him, smooth and dark. The slide twisted, angled, then opened hard into a landing chamber below. He hit the bottom with a jolt that sent a complaint straight through his ankle and up his spine. 

He stumbled two steps and caught himself. 

Still upright. 

Miraculous. 

Leorio was already there, looking offended by gravity. Kurapika stood nearby, composed as always. Gon and Killua had moved ahead a few paces, examining the next corridor entrance. 

Tonpa straightened slowly. 

The chamber around them was circular, built of old stone and mechanical reinforcement. Iron doors lined one side. A digital clock glowed overhead, counting down their remaining time in cold red numbers. Narrow lamps set into the walls cast light that made everything look a little too clean to be safe. 

A speaker crackled overhead. 

"Five candidates confirmed. Majority Rule Route activated." 

Tonpa froze inside. 

Right. 

This group. 

Of course. 

He looked at them one by one. 

Gon. 

Killua. 

Kurapika. 

Leorio. 

And him. 

Wonderful. 

Absolutely wonderful. 

Leorio looked up at the speaker. "Majority what?" 

As if in answer, five watches dropped from slots in the wall and clattered onto a metal tray beneath them. 

Kurapika picked one up first. 

The watch face held two buttons: yes and no. 

Killua took another and clicked his tongue softly. "So that's how they're doing it." 

Tonpa already knew, but said nothing. 

The rule would be simple and cruel: decisions made by vote. Group movement constrained by majority. No clean way to hide from responsibility. Every personality flaw given procedural force. 

A corridor door slid open with a low mechanical groan. 

Beyond it waited darkness, stone, and the promise of time becoming much more expensive. 

Gon turned back toward the group, expression bright despite everything. 

"Let's go." 

Killua gave him a look. "You say that like it won't be terrible." 

Gon smiled. "It probably will." 

That was not reassuring. 

They moved. 

The corridor sloped downward, walls tightening around them in rougher stone now, older and less polished than the chamber above. Iron reinforcements crossed the ceiling at intervals. The air was cooler here, dry and faintly metallic, carrying the stale smell of enclosed places that had seen too many decisions and not enough sunlight. 

Their footsteps echoed. 

Leorio broke the silence first. 

"So," he said, glancing around the corridor, "why are you here?" 

Tonpa turned his head. "Emotionally or physically?" 

"Don't start." 

Killua, walking a little ahead, said without looking back, "He means why you're in this group." 

Leorio looked offended. "Obviously." 

Tonpa stared at the back of Killua's head. 

Killua continued walking as if the room had not shifted slightly colder around his sentence. 

Gon glanced between them, curious but not tense yet. Kurapika's gaze sharpened by a degree. 

Leorio folded his arms. "Actually, that is a fair question." 

Tonpa exhaled slowly. 

There it was. 

The thing he had half expected the moment the five of them landed in the same chamber. 

Not accusation. 

Not fully. 

But selection. 

Why Tonpa? 

Why here? 

Why with them? 

And beneath that: 

What exactly was he becoming in their eyes? 

He chose honesty. 

The least dangerous version of it. 

"I found the entrance," Gon said, before Tonpa could speak. 

Everyone looked at him. 

Gon shrugged. "But we all used it. That's all." 

Killua gave him a sidelong look that suggested optimism was either admirable or a diagnosable condition. 

Kurapika said quietly, "That is not what Leorio meant." 

"No," Gon agreed. "But it's still true." 

That bought Tonpa three extra seconds of breathing room. 

He used them badly. 

"I'm here," he said at last, "because I didn't die." 

Killua snorted once. 

Leorio groaned. "That is the most Tonpa answer you could've given." 

Tonpa almost smiled. 

Almost. 

But Kurapika was still watching him. 

Not angrily. 

Carefully. 

That was worse. 

The corridor opened into a square chamber with five doors and a panel set into the center of the floor. The moment they stepped inside, iron bars slammed down behind them, sealing the way back. 

Leorio jumped. 

Killua didn't. 

Tonpa envied him on principle again. 

The speaker overhead crackled to life. 

"Proceed by majority vote." 

A question lit up on the wall in red letters: 

TAKE THE SHORTER ROUTE? 

Below it: 

HIGHER RISK / FEWER HOURS 

And beneath that, on another line: 

TAKE THE LONGER ROUTE? 

LOWER RISK / MORE HOURS 

Leorio stared up at it. "That's it?" 

Killua looked at his watch. "Vote." 

Gon pressed yes almost immediately. 

Leorio did the opposite. 

Kurapika hesitated. 

Tonpa did too. 

Here it was. 

Not a major moral crisis. Not yet. 

Something smaller. 

But those were the dangerous ones. 

Short route meant more danger, less time loss. Long route meant safety bought at a cost. In the original flow, those decisions mattered less in isolation than in accumulation. Time, conflict, trust. All of it built into one another. 

Tonpa looked at the wall. 

Then at the others. 

Then at his own body—the ache in his shoulder, the soreness in his legs, the lingering drag of too many phases without real recovery. 

The old Tonpa would have chosen according to immediate comfort. 

The smarter surviving route. 

Avoid the sharper pain now, deal with the rest later, maybe drag someone else into paying the price if needed. 

But that version of survival had a shape to it. He knew that shape too well. 

It always ended with the same person in the mirror. 

His thumb hovered. 

Then pressed. 

Yes. 

The panel chimed. 

Three yes. 

Two no. 

The wall split open on the right. 

High risk. Fewer hours. 

Killua looked sideways at him, just once. 

No comment. 

That somehow said more. 

Leorio pointed accusingly. "You too?" 

Tonpa looked at him. "I'm trying a new hobby." 

Leorio stared. "Is the hobby making my life harder?" 

"Apparently." 

Gon grinned. 

Kurapika's gaze flicked from Tonpa's watch to his face, thoughtful but unreadable. 

The right-hand passage led them into a narrower descent lined with barred openings and embedded cells. The prison element of Trick Tower showed itself fully there. Behind iron grates sat shadows, faces, movements. Criminals. Test pieces. Human obstacles filed under procedure. 

Tonpa felt his back tighten. 

He remembered this. 

The five-on-five challenge. 

Convicts offered reduced sentences in exchange for victories. Time as currency. Combat as negotiation. The kind of setup the Hunter Exam treated as normal and civilization should have treated as proof of madness. 

They reached the arena chamber soon after. 

It opened out abruptly—a circular stone pit with a lowered central floor and barred cells along one side. Above, mechanical shutters and viewing slots marked where exam staff could observe without being touched by any of it. Five gates faced them. Across the arena, five others remained closed. 

The speaker crackled again. 

"Win five matches to proceed. Majority Rule candidates may choose the order of fighters by vote." 

Leorio swore. 

Killua smiled. 

That was not comforting. 

One of the opposite gates opened with a grinding sound. 

A prisoner stepped out. 

Broad shoulders. Shaved head. Broken nose. Smile like an old injury. He looked at the five of them and laughed once under his breath. 

"Well," he said, "this group got interesting." 

Tonpa stared. 

The prisoner's gaze moved over Gon, dismissed him for being small, paused on Killua because instincts were not always stupid, shifted to Kurapika, then Leorio— 

and landed on Tonpa. 

For a second, the man's smile changed. 

Recognition. 

Not personal recognition. 

Type recognition. 

The sort that took one look and decided: weak one. 

Easy one. 

Tonpa felt the old fury rise so fast it almost surprised him. 

There it is, he thought. 

There you are. 

The version of the room he knew best. 

The version where men looked at Tonpa and began calculating how little they'd need to respect him. 

Leorio took a half step forward. "What's that supposed to mean?" 

The prisoner grinned wider. "It means one of you came gift-wrapped." 

Tonpa's face went flat. 

Leorio's shoulders tightened. 

Killua's expression sharpened with immediate amusement, which was somehow both insulting and reassuring. 

Kurapika said nothing. 

Gon looked at the prisoner the way he looked at wild animals that had made themselves interesting. 

The speaker overhead clicked. 

"Vote for the first fighter." 

The watches lit up. 

The prisoner rolled his shoulders, still smiling at Tonpa. 

"Go on," he said. "Pick the fat one first. Save everyone time." 

Silence. 

A small, ugly silence. 

Tonpa felt all five of them register the line in different ways. 

Leorio: anger first. 

Kurapika: analysis. 

Gon: confusion, then disapproval. 

Killua: watchfulness. 

And Tonpa— 

Tonpa felt something colder. 

Not humiliation. 

Recognition. 

Because this was the place where old Tonpa had lived for years. 

In rooms like this. In glances like that. In the silent agreement that if someone had to be less, it might as well be him. 

He looked down at the glowing buttons on his watch. 

The old impulse rose again. 

Let someone else take the first fight. Stay behind the stronger ones. Watch. Calculate. Avoid risk. Use the group. 

Reasonable. 

Cowardly. 

Familiar. 

The prisoner spread his arms mockingly. "What? No volunteers?" 

Leorio slammed his thumb onto his watch so hard it clicked audibly. 

Tonpa looked up. 

Leorio glared at the arena. "Not him." 

A beat later, Gon pressed his vote too. 

Then Kurapika. 

Killua waited the longest. 

Then, with a small unreadable smile, voted as well. 

Tonpa stared at the watches. 

Four lights. 

Not him. 

The speaker chimed. 

"First fighter selected: Leorio Paradinight." 

Leorio blinked. "Wait, what?" 

Killua said lightly, "Congratulations." 

Leorio rounded on them. "You all voted for me?!" 

Killua shrugged. "You were already talking like you wanted to." 

"That is not the same thing!" 

Gon looked apologetic. "You seemed ready." 

Kurapika added, "You were also the one most emotionally committed." 

Leorio looked personally betrayed by language. 

Tonpa almost laughed. 

Almost. 

But the moment had shifted something regardless. 

The prisoner's smile had dimmed a fraction. 

Not because Leorio had been chosen. 

Because Tonpa hadn't. 

Because the room had refused the shape the man tried to impose on it. 

Small thing. 

Not enough. 

Still real. 

Leorio swore under his breath and stepped into the arena with the tragic dignity of a man selected by democracy at its worst. 

Tonpa watched him go. 

Then looked down at his own hand. 

Still steady. 

Mostly. 

The old Tonpa would have been relieved to escape first selection. 

This Tonpa was relieved too. 

But beneath that relief, another feeling had started to form. 

Something sharper. 

The prisoner had looked at him and seen the old answer. 

The easy target. 

The joke. 

And the worst part was that Tonpa still understood exactly why. 

He looked at the arena. 

At Leorio. 

At the prisoners waiting in their cells. 

At the stone, the bars, the countdown clock bleeding red above everything. 

Then he lifted his eyes once more to the dark reflective surface of one of the sealed gate panels and caught a warped image of himself in it. 

Same face. 

Not the same man. 

Not anymore. 

Not if he had any say left in it. 

And standing there at the edge of the arena, with Leorio about to begin the first match and the old shape of Tonpa's life pressing against him from every side, he understood something with sudden, unpleasant clarity: 

The exam was no longer testing whether he could survive. 

It was testing whether he would keep surviving as the man he used to be.

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