I placed my keys on the table and took of my shoes before i slumped myself into the bed.
I couldn't believe what just happened. He looked sorry but that was the first time in a long time that he had that expression. It was more of Guilt, A cold look and an emotionless one.
But should i trust him? And what if i can't? I had gone over the edge in the car and told him how he made me feel even though i promised myself i wouldn't. That didn't really matter anymore cause i still wouldn't give in if he couldn't tell me what was going on. What would have made him think that not telling me would help me in anyway? Spiral of questions swam through my brain and i couuldn't answer any of them. I needed to talk to someone about this or i was going to go crazy.
I tried standing up but y body wanted to lay down back for a while. so i gave in.
An hour later, I took off my dress and hung it in my closet. Then I put on my jeans and tank top and rolled my curly hair into a high bun.
I slid on my flip flops and took my grabbed my purse and phone. I texted Nathy.
Bella
Hey, you home?
few minutes later...
Nathy
Yeah sure, Collins just came by few minutes ago.
Bella
Great, i need to talk to you guys about something.
Nathy
okayy no problem, hope you're good?
Bella
Yh i guess, i'll be there in a bit.
I placed my phone in my purse and took one last glance at the mirror. I looked really exhausted and my eyes looked a bit swollen. Nathy was going to give me a whole lecture if she found out i was crying because of a man. I applied ice bags under them to help it go down. After 5 minutes it was barely noticebable.
I slung my purse over my shoulder and headed out. Great thing she was just lived down the street from mine.
"So what's up with you?" Collins asked. We were eating the leftover snacks Nathy had as we watched the movie from a site playing in front us. It was our cute little way of doing Netflix and chill.
I sighed. "It's Ethan."
"Ohh." Nathy replied. "What did he do?"
Collins paused the movie and now their eyes were on me. I silently appreciated the gesture. It meant I was more important than whatever.
"He said the thing with he has with selene has a motive behind it."
"Motive?"
"Yeah, that's what he said. But he didn't tell me what it was. He made it seem like it was a taboo or something to tell me."
After seconds of silence, "Do you trust him?" Collins asked.
Trust was the issue now. "To be honest, I don't know. I once did he made it seem like selene had a mind of her own and it doesn't involve him and I believed him but I cant say the same now. One time i feel i can then the next i don't. I really miss the old us but now he has just been playing with my emotions every damn time. Sending me mixed signals, one time he's looking at me intently like i'm his world then the next he eyes is on selene. But at the same time, I won't deny that the way he looks at her is different from the way he looks at me..... I don't know if i should find solace in that."
"How does he look at her?" Nathy asked
"More of force and pretense. It just has a lot of fakes but sometimes it feels real to me."
"You've still not answered the question miss." Collins reminded. "It's a yes or no question."
"Yes, I do trust in him but not the so called motive. I can't be so sure. Hell who knows what she does to him behind closed doors?"
"Oops Someones jealous." Collins teased. "But since you trust him then that should answer all your questions you have wrapped in your head."
"Plus. If you let them see through you especially that bitch it will give her the edge that will make her think she's getting to you. Yes you trust him but that doesn't mean you should follow him blindly. You cant be someone standby option while they get through with their motive." Nathy stated putting her hands in quote sign when she said motive.
I thought about what she said and they both had a point. "Yeah you're right."
"Thank you so much guys. I really needed to talk to someone about this. I was about going nuts."
Anytime dear. Collins smiled.
Then our conversation changed to lighter topics and after so many laughs and jokes. we noticed it was dark outside already. Me and Collins bid our farewell and went home.
I was feeling a lot better now after opening up. When i got home, I was already starving again. The snacks i ate at Nathy's place wasn't enough so i decided to prepare the remaining ramen i had left.
After setting everything up, i decided to pass time in the sitting room. I opened my phone and saw that i got a text from Ethan.
Mr. Ethan
Don't come to work till 11am.
I texted back an okay and set my alarm for 8am.
At least i got extra hours of sleep
The smell of the ramen woke my unconscious senses and i scurried back to the kitchen. It was already done. I took out a plate and served myself. I took a bottle of water and went to the dining to eat.
I finished my meal satisfactorily and washed my plates, putting them back in place. I checked the time and it was 10:59.
I tok my phone from the sitting room and went to my room, then undressed and put on my matching pj's It was very silky and smooth on my skin. This was going to help me sleep well tonight.