Sometimes
I still want to text you.
Not because I think
it will fix anything.
But because there are moments
when something happens
and you're still the first person
I want to tell.
I type your name.
I stare at the screen.
I think about everything
I want to say.
Then I delete it.
Because I know
I can't keep reaching
for someone
who stopped reaching back.
But God…
sometimes I want to.