I knew it would hurt…
I just didn't think
it would hurt like this.
Not in this quiet,
constant,
unavoidable way.
It's not just sadness,
it's something deeper—
something that sits in your chest
and refuses to leave.
I go through my day normally,
I smile, I talk, I pretend,
but inside…
there's this weight
that never really goes away.
And I think the hardest part is—
you're okay.
While I'm here
still trying to figure out
how to exist
without you.