𝐀𝐋𝐄𝐗'𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐕
Staying at home these days were becoming exhausting and really tiring. My parents kept disturbing and tauting me at any opportunity, i wasn't ready to do what they were asking me for but they didn't seem to actually care about my opinon on the issue...
So ... I finished high school a year ago or so, and my family's financial situation isn't really the best so for now i am staying at home doing nothing meaningful just lazing around waiting for maybe a scholarship program to get into college.
We live in a small area or maybe community? don't really know. But my relatives who are at least more financially independent than our family said they were travelling to the outside of the country 'cause where we are staying is
more like a town or neighborhood where everyone literally knows each other and everything about each other. Sometimes of feels awkward but i guess that what you get for staying in a small town like this one.
They left for their travel and as mmy uncle being my dad's younger brother, we stayed or rather are staying for the time being.
"Are you sure you don't want to get married?". My mom asked she's been calm about this issue,not too calm though but atleast calmer than my dad.
" Nope don't want to....atleast not yet".
"Yet?" my mom repeated i nodded in agreement.
"Why is there a 'yet' in your answer have you met someone already". She asked me smiling she must be trilled by that reply although my dad didn't seem excited as she was,he just stared impatiently waiting for me to answer.
"No,i just said it" i repiled. I don't know why but when saying that yet i immediately remembered about Jessica. It felt strange but just talking about relationship status with my parents i couldn't stop thinking about her. Or maybe is because i haven't really seen her recently.
"So.....?" my dad asked,he was probably waiting for me to say that"have found the one" or "yes I'll get married". But am not going to say anything like that, am not getting married now that's it.
" What?" i asked.
"The marriage, aren't you going to get married soon?,you're are my first son and you haven't even started preparations?"
"Preparations?, for what?, getting married or dating?"
"Marriage " my dad repiled firmly.
"Really, dad i haven't even started dating or anything close to that. And what?, you want me to get married, do i just enter the street and propose to any body i see?". I asked my dad, i had been calm about this marriage stuff, trying my best to be polite and all that. But at this point i was getting fed up. I should get married really?.
"So what do you plan to achieve now?" dad asked still not wanting to give me breathing space.
"Achieve as how?"
"Your future, what do you plan on doing if not getting married"
"Wow, i never knew getting married was some kind of achievement or goal"
"They are other things to achieve in this life, before even thinking of marriage"
"And what are those?, what is more important than giving me grandchildren?"
"A lot of things, firstly, if i get married do me and my family want to leave in this house? What will i be doing to be providing for the family?, i don't even have a source of income " i asked my dad. This whole talk about me getting married is so absurd and there's no way I'll do it.
"So?, what's stopping you from making money and talking care of your family? ". My dad is a really funny man he clearly knows why i stay at home but he just behaves so daft to situations like this.
"What do you mean by what's stopping me?, i haven't entered college am still waiting for a scholarship, because why?. Apparently there's no need for me to enter college i should just get married and give you grandchildren"
"What about me?, huh?, don't i have dreams, don't i have things i want to do?. And now what?, i should just get married and do what?, live in this house with my wife and who knows children, then what?, i will still live in the same house with you two and my siblings? "
"Honestly, i don't care what you feel anymore, i don't care if you didn't attend college and that's why you married early. I don't care if you want grandchildren".
"....have finally made my decision i am going to look for a way to contact uncle and am going to the city to work or find money, i don't care but am going to college, and you are taking that dream away from me ".
I left them both sitting there, they've been pestering me(especially dad) almost all through my life about marriage. Immediately i entered my second year in highschool it just changed my dad became so obsessed with that marriage talk that it became so infuriating.
Have been at home ever since graduation, most of my friends/classmates would have been entering their second year in college by maybe next year and am doing what?. Arguing with my parents especially with my father about marriage and grandchildren. He was the main reason i couldn't apply for the scholarship and he went on and on about how i might not end up a job and how i need to get married early and all that. And just like that the scholarship just went 'poof' my opportunity gone. And the heartbreaking part he didn't encourage me or comfort me he went on saying that i wasn't suppose to apply in the first place.
And all these are reasons why i honestly prefer my uncle over my dad, Despite my dad being the elder brother my uncle is more financially independent than my dad because my dad just left education aside and settled claiming that marriage was more important and where has that gotten us, we are staying in his own apartment ( me and parents and two siblings) my siblings and i depend on scholarship to attend school to get what in return?
"You can't attend college just get married " . Even with the scholarship opportunities he won't still want to agree.
But nevertheless.....am going to contact my uncle i remember having his contact info if is just for me to just speed some time with him and his family then in the process look for part_time jobs to be doing and search for scholarship opportunities i'll do it.
I don't really know now but i just want to leave this house first and stay with my uncle, at least he went to college unlike dad. But....i think am going to meet...yess. I should probably use this opportunity to get to know her better, i wonder what her level of education is....maybe she's in a similar situation? Well who knows.