Jay's Pov
David took me to his house, I practically jumped out of the car when it stopped, I ran inside and David followed me, I ran to the room where he was that day,
David: "Jay"
I turned to him,
David: "His room is not here it is the first one upstairs"
I quick ran towards his room, I saw his room and I stopped with my hand on the door, I don't know why, My heart started beating fastly.
I opened the door, he turned to see me and the first thing I noticed was his eyes, it was red and filled with tears, he expression was something unbelievable,
Keifer: "Jay" his voice came out as a whisper
I moved a step forward, then only he realised I was truly present and he quickly moved his hands back as if hiding it from me,
I moved towards him quickly,
Keifer: "Jay.. I mean Ashtine is everything okay?" He asked in a voice filled with panic
I don't know why it hurt me when he changed my name from Jay,
I quickly pulled his hand from the back,
Jay: "What did you do?"
Keifer: "It's nothing" he says and tries to remove his hand from mine, I quickly move and start searching for a first aid,
Keifer: "Is everything alright?"
I found them and come back to him and hold his hand and start cleaning the cut, he keeps looking at me and is totally confused about the happening, his heavy stare lingers
Keifer: "I am sorry for everything Jay" he says and I stop cleaning his wound and tears fall into his hands,
I couldn't hold it in anymore, especially after seeing his face, I kneel down and start crying,
He instantly start panicking when he see me crying,
Keifer: "Jay, Jay is everything okay? Did something happen?" He ask kneeling down in front me and his hands move to hold my face but stop in front, and that sight stabbed my heart because I am the reason we are like this,
Jay: "Why did you do this to yourself, were you trying to take your life ?"
Keifer: "No, No, I just" he was trying to find an excuse,
I looked at him as if asking the truth,
Keifer: "What can I do? I keep hurting the person who I said love and protect my whole life, I couldn't protect you Jay" he finally speaking his heart out with tears.
Keifer: "I became the reason for your tears Jay, I am the reason for your pain and I know even looking at me is painful for you, I know I have no reason to say this, whenever I know your in pain and I am the reason, It hurts so much" he says clutching his shirt near his chest.
Keifer: "And when you said that you regret loving me, I wish I was dead instead of hearing that, I wanted to die but I can.. not do that rig..ht because I have still have to take care of my brother. I don't know what to do I just.."
Jay: "Why?" I ask looking directly into his eyes which was fillled with tears and fear,
He looked a but confused from my question, he might have thought I am asking the reason why he left,
I held his hand which was about to cup my face,
Jay: "Why do you still love me?" I ask him, he looks surprised by my question,
Keifer: "Wha-" I stop him and
Jay: "I know what happened that night" I said in a lower tone,
His eyes widened in shock,
Words weren't leaving his mouth,
Jay: "Tell me how could you still love me after all this, all I did was hurt you ?"
Both of us started crying,
Keifer: "Jay when you came into my life I had nothing, you showed me what love is and when time came when you needed me I wasn't there "
Jay: "It's because my family threatened you with your brother's life, I am the reason that you suffered, I only made you suffer"
I started breathing heavily because of the crying,
Keifer: "No, No" he gently cupped my face with uncertainty and I looked at him, he still looked scared for touching me,
He was about to remove his hand, when I held his both hands and rested my cheeks and started crying, he also cried with me, because it was finally us.
I looked at him,
Keifer: " Jay when you weren't with me all these years, I hated living , I hated myself for making you suffer, I hated how I didnt know where you were or how were you doing. It haunted me that you might be out there thinking I didnt love you or care about you enough to come and save, I wanted to come to you immediately once we got out of the place but you left, and that day I lost myself i lost my love, my happiness,it all came along with you.
And when I saw for the first after 8 years, It was all I ever wanted nothing else, I just wanted you Jay.
And you are saying you made me suffer, I just wanted to be around you and see your face,
When you talked with me, I felt happy and hopeful, I wanted to tell you everything once I saw but then only I realised how hurt you and I learned all the pains, you went through when you were alone, and I wasn't there with you holding your hand in every difficult situations, I left you alone, I cannot put you through more, so if it made you feel better just shouting at me or even beating me I would gladly take it
You asked why I still love how can I stop Jay, You came into my life when I had nothing and made me fall in love with not only you but also with life, You loved and cared for me when I had no one else. So tell me how can I stop loving, If I am being honest I don't know how to"
Jay: "I lived all these years thinking you left me, I came here to a new city all alone, I faced many harassment and it was really hard without anyone by my side, and during all those hard time I only remember you and wanted you by my side and I cry asking the same question why did you leave me, I started hating you for that but even after years passed I couldn't forget or stop thinking about you, and The truth even though how much ever I told myself I hated you, the truth was I couldn't ever stop loving for not even a minute, even when you came back in my life I was scared because I did not want to get hurt again because I knew If keep seeing you daily, I couldn't stop myself. I thought you stopped caring about me, and I couldn't get myself to accept it, but the truth is I couldn't accept it because it wasn't the truth
But I did not know untill today how much you have suffered, you suffered as equally as me, If I knew about this I would have ran to you" I said cupping his face and bring his face closer to mine,
Jay: "I Love you Keifer" I whispered the words that I have been dying to say,
Keifer: "I Love you Jay"
I started sobbing as soon as he said that
He said wiping my tears with his hands which was cupping my face, I couldn't hold back, I cupped his face and he broke down and I held him, he put his face on my shoulder and started crying, i held him and I tried to hold him and console him instead I started crying more with him, he was in embrace and he cried in my shoulder trembling, I held his hair, he moved closer and his face was on neck, and both of is let out all of our feeling out. Both of us couldn't stop crying.
I hugged him tightly and he also hugged me closer, both of us were afraid to leave other because we are finally Home.
Author's Note:
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