Chapter Ninety-Six: The House of Ghosts
The mansion had become a mausoleum.
I moved through its halls like a man underwater—each step heavy, each breath an effort, each moment stretching into an eternity of gray. The staff whispered in corners and fell silent when I passed. Mrs. O'Malley left trays of food outside my study door that went untouched until she silently removed them hours later. The security team spoke in hushed tones, their usual efficiency replaced by the careful quiet of men walking through a tomb.
Three weeks since the river.
Three weeks since the warehouse.
Three weeks since the world had ended and somehow kept spinning.
I didn't sleep in the master suite. Couldn't. Her scent still lingered there—vanilla and something softer, something that was just her. The pillows still held the indent of her head. A book she'd been reading lay on the nightstand, a ribbon marking her place halfway through. I'd opened it once, seen her handwriting in the margin—a small note about a passage that had made her think—and closed it so fast the pages ripped.
Now I slept in my study. On the leather couch. In my clothes. A man too exhausted to undress, too hollow to care.
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The nursery door was always closed.
I passed it every day on the way to my rooms. Every day, I told myself I wouldn't stop. Every day, I did.
My hand would rest on the cool wood, my forehead pressed against the frame, and I would stand there for minutes or hours—time had lost all meaning. On the other side of that door, the hope-blue walls waited. The rocking chair my father had commissioned from Tuscany stood in the corner, its cream upholstery pristine, ready for a mother who would never sit in it. The mobile of painted stars hung over an empty crib, turning slowly in air currents I couldn't feel.
Friendly shadows.
My father had argued for friendly shadows.
Now the shadows in that room were anything but friendly. They were the ghosts of a future that would never exist—the child who would never laugh, the mother who would never rock him to sleep, the family that had shattered before it could begin.
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One afternoon, Sophia found me there.
She didn't speak at first—just stood at the end of the hall, watching her brother press his palm against the nursery door like he could feel through the wood the life that had been stolen. The grief in his posture was absolute, a weight so heavy it seemed to bend the very air around him.
"Rowan."
I didn't turn.
"I brought you coffee. You haven't eaten in—"
"Go away, Sophia."
My voice was not angry. It was worse. It was empty. The voice of a man who had already said goodbye to everything that mattered.
She didn't go away. She crossed the hall and stood beside me, the coffee growing cold in her hands.
"I dream about her," she said quietly. "Every night. She's laughing. Dancing to that terrible music at my friend's party. Sticking her tongue out at you from the bed while Mom and I played guard dogs." A tear slipped down her cheek. "I wake up and for one second, I forget. And then I remember—I remember that I helped throw her out. That I stood there and watched her walk into the night without a coat, without shoes, without anyone."
I said nothing.
"I know you blame me. You should. I blame myself." Sophia's voice broke. "I was so angry. So sure. The evidence, the video, the signature—it all made sense. And I chose to believe the evidence instead of her. Instead of my best friend."
She reached for my arm, her fingers barely brushing my sleeve.
"She asked for a hug. You told me. She asked you for a hug, and you said no. And I—I didn't even give her that chance. I just watched her go. I didn't touch her. Didn't hold her. Didn't say goodbye."
I finally turned.
My eyes were not the eyes of her brother. They were the eyes of a stranger—someone who had seen too much, lost too much, and was no longer sure why he kept breathing.
"We both failed her," I said quietly. "The difference is, I have to live with knowing she asked me for the one thing that might have saved her. And I was too proud to give it."
I walked away, leaving Sophia alone with the closed door and the cold coffee and the ghosts of a friendship she would never forgive herself for betraying.
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My mother found me in the sunroom that evening.
I was sitting in the wicker throne—the one Sophia had declared "the official pregnancy command center"—staring at nothing. The orange trees rustled softly in the evening breeze, their fragrance thick and sweet. The same fragrance that had filled the air when Aira laughed about pickle tastings and debated paint colors and made us all believe, for one perfect season, that happiness was possible.
"I used to come here to think," my mother said softly, lowering herself into the chair beside me. "After Lyanna. The grief was so heavy I couldn't breathe. But here, with the trees and the light... I could almost forget. For a few minutes. Just long enough to keep going."
I didn't respond.
"I was so sure, Rowan. When that video came out, when we saw the signature, I was absolutely certain she had done it. Because how could she not? She was a Grace. Her family had murdered my daughter. Of course she would finish what they started."
Her voice cracked.
"I didn't stop to think. Didn't ask questions. Didn't remember the girl who cried in my arms, who let me brush her hair, who called me 'Mother' like she'd been waiting her whole life for someone to be that to her. I just... believed the lie. Because it was easier than trusting again."
She reached for my hand. I let her take it, but didn't respond.
"I threw her out, Rowan. Your mother. The woman who should have protected her. I put her on the street in nothing but a thin dress and watched her walk away. And now—" Her voice dissolved into sobs. "Now she's gone. And the last thing she heard from me was a door slamming in her face."
I sat motionless, staring at the orange trees, the fading light painting my face in shades of gold and shadow.
"She wanted to marry me again," I said finally. My voice was distant, dreamlike—the voice of a man speaking to himself more than to his mother. "In the garden. In a white dress. Not black. She wanted roses and peonies and things that smell like summer. She wanted our family there. She wanted to say vows that meant something."
A tear slid down my cheek.
"I was going to give her that. I was going to stand in the sunlight and tell the whole world that she was mine—not as revenge, not as strategy, but as love. Real love. The kind I didn't know I was capable of until she showed me."
I looked down at my hands—the hands that had killed, that had failed, that had refused the last hug.
"Now she's at the bottom of a river. And I'm sitting in her chair, surrounded by her trees, drowning in what I should have done."
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The days blurred together after that.
I stopped leaving the mansion. The empire ran on autopilot—Leo and Leon handling what could be handled, letting the rest crumble. Deals were lost. Enemies circled. The city's elite whispered about the fall of the Royce heir, about the grief that had unmanned him, about the wife who had destroyed him even in death.
I didn't care.
I spent hours in the nursery, sitting in the rocking chair, staring at the empty crib. I ran my fingers over the hope-blue walls, tracing the spots where her hands had touched, where her laughter had echoed. I found a small box in the closet—things she'd collected for the baby. A tiny onesie with stars on it. A soft blanket she'd been knitting, half-finished, the needles still stuck through the loops. A book of lullabies with a sticky note marking her favorite.
Aria from the sleeping album—play this one for our little star.
Our little star.
The note was in her handwriting. The same handwriting that had been forged on those hospital documents, the loop of the 'A' wrong, the slant too tight. I'd studied the forgery so carefully, looking for proof of her guilt. Now I studied her real handwriting, memorizing every curve, every loop, every piece of the woman I'd failed to believe.
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My father found me there late one night.
He didn't speak at first. Just lowered himself into the small rocking chair my wife had picked out, the one that creaked slightly under his weight. We sat in silence for a long time, father and son, surrounded by the ghosts of what might have been.
"I remember when you were born," my father said quietly. "You were so small. So perfect. I held you in my arms and promised I would protect you from everything. From every pain, every loss, every broken heart."
I said nothing.
"I failed at that. You know that better than anyone. I was so lost in my own grief after Lyanna that I left you to raise yourself. To become the man you thought you needed to be. Hard. Cold. Untouchable."
He reached over and placed a hand on my knee.
"But then she came. Aira. And she touched you. She reached through all that armor and found the man underneath. The man I should have helped you become. And for the first time in years, I saw you happy. Really happy. The kind of happy that has nothing to do with empires or revenge or any of the things we fill our lives with to avoid feeling."
My jaw tightened.
"I was going to give her a wedding," I whispered. "A real one. With a white dress and flowers and vows we wrote ourselves. She wanted roses and peonies. She wanted to stand in the garden and choose me—not because she had to, not because she was trapped, but because she loved me."
My voice cracked.
"And I never got to give her that."
My father squeezed my knee. "No. You didn't. And that loss will never stop hurting. But Rowan—" He waited until I met his eyes. "The love you gave her while she was here—that was real. That mattered. She knew, in the end, that you loved her. She knew because you showed her, every day, in a thousand small ways. The oranges at 3 a.m. The feet-rubbing without being asked. The way you looked at her like she was the only person in any room."
A tear slipped down my cheek.
"She asked me for a hug," I whispered. "Before I left. She said she had a feeling something would go wrong. She begged me to hold her. Just once more. And I said no."
My father pulled me into his arms.
I resisted for a moment—a lifetime of learned isolation fighting against the need for comfort. Then I broke.
The sobs that tore from me were ugly, raw, decades of grief pouring out in a single, devastating flood. I cried for Lyanna, the sister I couldn't save. I cried for my child, the future that had been stolen. I cried for Aira—my wife, my love, my heart—who had died alone in the cold while I sat in my office, too proud to give her the one thing she'd asked for.
My father held me through it all.
The nursery walls, painted hope-blue for a child who would never see them, witnessed a different kind of birth that night—the painful, necessary labor of a man learning to feel again.
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That night, I finally opened the master suite.
The room was exactly as she'd left it. Her book on the nightstand. Her robe draped over the chair by the window. A small dish on the vanity held the earrings she'd worn to the gala—the ones that caught the light like captured stars.
I lay down on her side of the bed, pressing my face into the pillow that still held her scent. Vanilla. Warmth. Home.
And for the first time in weeks, I slept.
Not the restless, nightmare-plagued sleep of the grieving. But something deeper. Something that felt almost like peace.
In my dreams, she came to me.
She was wearing the white dress. Standing in the garden, surrounded by roses and peonies, the afternoon sun turning her hair to spun gold. She smiled at me—that real smile, the one that crinkled her eyes and made my heart stop.
I'm waiting, she said. I'll always be waiting.
I reached for her.
And woke alone in an empty bed, the first light of dawn creeping through the curtains, her scent fading on the pillow beside me.
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