"ANTICIPATION"
Gripping your waist tight, kissing your lips, yeah that's what I'm gonna do after I hug you into my warm embrace, you're gonna feel how much I've been missing you, I knew you coming today, so I made sure everything is well, yeah that's anticipation.
I got your favourite scent on, I'm feeling as good as I look baby, on your way? Okay I'm gonna turn on the music and light the candles, close the curtains and set the mood right, yeah that's anticipation.
When you pull up, give me a hug, put your bag on the bedside and sit on the bed, I'll take off your shoes, I'll do a few things, talk to you for a few minutes.. hmh..
I miss your taste, give me your lips, allow me to show you how much I've missed you.
"LAY NEXT TO ME"
I need you for now and later, I need you for the rest of the night, not just for a few hours, I need a whole lot of your love, not just a feeling, I need to feel your body inside my arms, these blankets and the heater ain't no use, I need you to lay next to me for the rest of the night.
Put my mind at ease, warm my heart and body up because my soul has been wondering where it's other half has been. Lay next to me baby, I want you body to body, soul to soul, heart to heart.
LAY NEXT TO ME..
"TIMELESS LOVE"
I've been out here living on the edge, pulling pretty eyes and female attention. I come to realise that if I keep living like this, I might actually grow apart from the girl that is dear to my heart and I'm not sure if that's what I want.
Everytime I see that pretty face, all the girls that give me attention disappear in my eyes, there's something about her that still makes me feel like the nineteen year old who fell in love for the first time.
There is no amount of time and distance apart from her that could ever change the way that I feel about her, I still love her to the same depth as I did two years ago and I know that my actions haven't been proving that, I just have been running away from this subject, distracting myself with senseless things just to numb the feelings.
This is a timeless love.
"HOME ELEMENT"
We all gotta find that one thing or one person who'll feel like home no matter what's going in the world and like everybody's else, I once found something and somebody that felt like home for me, whatever happened happened and then I found myself lost in the world without her.
I've looked for her in so many faces, I've followed her resemblances to some of the darkest places and after so many adventures, I come back to step one, feeling like no matter how many girls I get involved with, they could never replace that girl nor fix me.
She's always felt like home to me.
It's crazy to say but she's the one person that made me feel like I was complete, when it came to her, I never felt like I'm something to be fixed and it was like she was my whole other world because wherever we would be, it would feel like I'm right at home.
Without her phonecalls, without her voice messages after sunset, telling me about the stuff she did in her day, without her being close for a warm hug and a soft kiss, I don't believe that I'll ever find peace without that element.
She's always felt like home to me.
"SIPS"
How many more sips will it take until she gets off my mind, how many more sips will it take for my stop seeing visions of us making love? All I see is her face when she was on top of me, all I hear is our kissing sounds, her hands around my face, her scent on my clothes and pillows, I don't mind opening another cider, I just wanna take sips until she's off my mind.
Just a few hours ago, she was running her fingers through my hair, looking into my eyes, that shit sent me down to my knees, had me right in front of the angels of love, begging for this love between us to blossom and grow, last forever.
Fuck I need more sips because this heart of mine is aching. I'll keep on taking sips until I forget everything that happened on this bed, I'll keep on taking sips until I stop wishing for a rewind & repeat.
These thoughts take my sleep away from me, I am scared to close my eyes because all I see is her beautiful face, when I lay on the pillows I inhale her sweet scent and it sends me back to the moment when she wrapped her arms around me, just to give me plenty kiss before she leaves and fuck! I can't get it off my brain, I need more sips.
How the fuck do you love me and then leave me? I never needed closure, all I needed was to be with the girl of my dreams for the rest of my life, how's that too much to ask for?
Sips.
"BODY TO BODY"
Our naps were face to face, our cuddles were body to body, the sex was skin to skin, the love was heart to heart..
How do we go from those body to body moments to no contact? We used to share details about our days everytime we wouldn't spend them together, we used to make plans about the future, I thought that everything that we shared in those sacred moments meant something to her too, I mean I thought that the date night she painted for me would actually be one of the visions I bring to life for her.
We were body to body every other day, holding hands in the streets, watching the stars together, making plans for the day after and the day after that, all I'm trying to say is that it seemed as if we were in love and meant to be, so that's why I'm having a hard time opening up to a girl again to that level.
Our naps were face to face, our cuddles were body to body, the sex was skin to skin, the love was heart to heart..