Chapter 65
Jay's POV
Jay: I don't know... Maybe.... Yes?
Kiefer: I'm serious.
Jay: I know.
Kiefer: then answer.
Kiefer leans back against the headboard, calm as ever, like my heart isn't doing backflips and my stomach isn't filled with butterflies
Jay: maybe.
Kiefer: Jay... We don't have to if you're not ready. But if you want to? I'm here.
Jay: I don't know...
Kiefer: if you don't know, that means we won't do it. Because as long as I don't have full permission, I won't do anything.
God... I blushed so hard at that... Like, a man? And, my man? Yes.
He won't do anything I don't want him to. That's good. I'm not sure I'm ready for that step yet. But he said it's fine, so I'll try not to overthink it.
Jay: I think... I just want kisses and cuddles tonight.
Kiefer smiles. That stupidly soft, boyish smile only he can pull off and I won't get the ick.
Kiefer: okay. Then kisses and cuddles.
Kiefer's voice was so soft as he said that
He slowly moves towards me and and gently picks me up, his one hand under my knees, his other hand behind my back.
Jay: you're carrying me like I'm your bride.
Kiefer: you might be if you completely forgive me and accept my ring on your finger.
Jay: I already forgave you long ago.
Kiefer: good. Then the only thing missing is the ring, which if you say you want one, I'll get it for you in a day or two. Just name the diamond cut.
Jay: what do you mean?
Kiefer: I'm prepared.
Jay: prepared? What does that mean in your vocabulary?
Kiefer: that means I have the jelwerer on speed dial.
Jay: come on. Why? And... Diamond cut? What's that?
Kiefer: the diamond cut is what shape the diamond is on your ring.
Jay: it can be shaped?
Kiefer: of course it can be shaped.
Jay: oh... That's cool.
He laughs softly, more a chuckle than a laugh. He softly placed me on the bed, then lays down behind me, hugging my waist from behind.
Kiefer: you're cute
Jay: cute? Why?
Kiefer: you have always been cute.
Jay: you think so?
Kiefer: I always think so.
Jay: always?
Kiefer: always. And forever.
Jay: then... Why didn't you let me explain back then?
Kiefer: because I was a teenager. An angry one. At the world, at you, at Yuri. And angry brains react stupidly.
Jay: still.
Kiefer: I know. You don't have to rub it in.
Jay: okay, okay. I won't.
Kiefer: okay. Thanks.
I can feel the small smile playing on his lips as he presses his cheek into my back.
Then he lifts his head and kisses my shoulder gently, pressing his foread against it.
Jay: you okay?
Kiefer: of course. I'm here. In the same bed as you. With you. Not arguing. Not hating. Just loving. I love you, Jay
Thank god he doesn't see my face because, yeah... I'm blushing. Probably look like I just did my makeup and have blush blindness... He's adorable. And mine. And I love him too.
Jay: I love you too.
Chapter written by Andi