"La la la la…"
I sing while moving toward my destination; Today's weather is nice, it's become warmer than yesterday, I thought.
I hold my chin and look upward at the sky, "Isn't it strange."
S ~ i ~ l ~ e ~ n ~ c ~ e
"Who cares?"
I hum on my own, looking forward again—smiling, feeling the blaze of wind striking into my body. It kinda makes me feel nice.
In a few minutes, I am standing in front of the cafe. I look down at my watch. Hmm, just 20 minutes late, it's legal.
I lift my chest in proudness like I won a gold medal just waiting to be praised. I sighed… What I am doing again. I stroke my hair and enter the cafe.
As usual, Shimizu was busy with his work. I went to the worker's room. Change my clothes; I sit in the centre—customers come, quickly. It gets busier for a few hours.
<< 4 hours later>>
The crowd became less—at noon; Shimizu came toward me. Grabbing his broom, cleaning the floor. He stood in front of me to support a broom.
"So why late again?"
Shimizu smiles, hiding his anger so neatly. So what is your excuse today? Because of Shimizu's amusement; He looked into Minato's eyes—desperately.
"Nothing…"
Shimizu deadpanned, what the fuck answer is this, nothing… really??
"Come on, dude tell me the truth. Why hide from me?"
Shimizu makes a pity look on his face, to gain Minato's sympathy.
"Really nothing. I woke up late, that's all."
I say; making a mocking face trying to say really it's nothing but why not everyone believe for one second. I shook my head in despair; Really today's kid…
I sigh; Shimizu stares at me in a puzzled look. He nodded on his own. He moves around back to his cleaning he is doing. In our argument, A customer barged in but this time it was less and calm than before.
The awkwardness shifts to work. Our conflict doesn't stop even at work time. Shimizu always comes to the counter. He say with a brown tilt;
"Really, nothing right."
As usual, I glance at him from above my computer—glaring at him. Literally he is just mocking me by saying that exact word every 10 minutes. What is happening to him? I grabbed my head in frustration. Suddenly, A customer come;
"Are you fine?"
I look at that person, greet him with a smile.
"No, sir I am fine."
He ordered something and went to his seat;
Shimizu looks at Minato in the distance while serving someone; Huh really nothing, but I enjoy teasing him, saying the same word. Now he is pissed, I can say just by looking. I think I need to tease him. Why not?? And when his silly habits are going to end.
Shimizu smiled while imagining Minato's pouts.
Shimizu sighed; And here I am, I can't even stop worrying about him.
"But I need to agree that he can never change."
Shimizu mumbled on his own, walking toward Minato. He smiled; Huh… it's so tiring.
I look at him—huh…
"Why are you here again?"
"Nothing, just for a look at you."
I look at him—annoyingly. Here he goes again. Shimizu laughs, holding his giggling.
"Why are you mad again? I don't even say something silly."
Shimizu teases; I glared at him, not even a word came out of my mouth.
But Shimizu's smile didn't flutter, it became more exciting. He well-knew about Minato. Minato liked to be mocked or teased and be with someone instead of being alone, yah but I can't confirm about everyone, I know that he feels lonely and can't share his feelings openly.
Obviously, he is good at hiding and always gets hurt and makes me worry every time. So I develop that feeling when he says nothing means something is definitely wrong.
"When are you going to change your attitude, you are an adult and… married."
That last word was too low to hear. Shimizu was really sad about Minato being married to nobody without even trying to get to know his family and friends. Just because he trusts his love too much, why??
But I always feel like someday, that nobody will do something to my dear Minato that would shatter his heart. I don't want to see him like that again.
Without knowing Shimizu mentioned the harsh truth about marriage.
My eyes became soft, staring at him. Why did he have to mention marriage? But I need to hide it.
"Ah… come on, I will never change, hehe..."
I smile, I stroke my hair in sadness?? Frustration?? Or… something, I am pushing him away, while saying;
"Now the customers are waiting."
An excuse. I go to the washroom making no sound. I lock the door behind me, looking upward. Tears were streaming but not falling.
"Already my life is a mess now."
I wipe my tears—roughly, "why am I crying again." I fell into my knees, crawling around my knee, everything was going right so why did he have to mention marriage.
"I don't know why it's always happened to me. Why did the Lion have to take another man with him?? A disease?? 3 months?? It's really too much for me."
I tried everything to stop tears from falling but nothing worked. Literally I never expected that would happen to me.Crying because of a simple, brief word where a person says so frankly knowing nothing, I can't even blame him.
"Marriage."
I wish marriage never happened, so I can breathe—freely.
Without bounding;
From everyone…
TO BE CONTINUED.