Hudson's Pov :
"So many people have been stuck suffering in this game and I just hope God can provide an escape."
I looked around at the battlefield. It was water painted red by blood, broken buildings submerged by the red waves and players panicking.
Is this hell on Earth ? Is this the price we have to pay for our sins or the consequences of Eros' inability to love ? If it's the latter why do my people have to be involved ? Why must we suffer for him when he hates us ?
Eros can't fall in love so what ? Why does that have to have so many consequences ?I don't want to be here fighting in this game . I have to be here. I want to save people but why does it have to be this way ?
This is so stupid.
I wonder what God's doing right now ?
[ Get a weapon or kill the beast. Kill the beast to be released ]
"Hudson , stop zoning out. We both need to get to the next level NOW." Kaito shouted at me.
[ You have less than 30 minutes to complete this task ]
Kaito's voice stung my ears as he tried to get me to focus.
Shing !
I drew a sword out of thin air and it glowed brightly.
I have to do this right ? I have to save everyone ? I can't leave this game and I can't abandon my best friend and I can't abandon Eros ...even though he isn't my friend.
He's someone I need to save.
I jumped into the air and sliced at the beast but missed instead I was frozen in place.
" Hey , human . You're back ? I thought you'd chicken out for sure." Cole's familiar voice came from behind me .
" Leave me alone! Just because Eros hates me doesn't mean you should too." I shouted at him , unable to move as the monster headed towards me.
" Just worried bout ya . What's a fragile thing like yourself going to do without Eros ? " Cole asked in a whisper and his breath tickled my ear.
" I'm not fragile. I'm human." I said defensively and he chuckled.
" Same thing." He said then he released from the magic that held me in place right as the monster was coming towards me then he grabbed me and threw me towards it.
I screamed loudly as the monster caught me in its mouth.
My eyes got heavy and before I knew it I was having a dream.
It was a dream that I have been having ever since I was younger.
I was in a garden and a war was going on I think I was hiding by some roses and from where I was I could always see a girl who was wounded , holding onto her leg and crying in pain. It was always the same dream.
It was always the same girl but I could never save her because every time I thought about going to help her I woke up.
This time was the same.
After struggling to save Enmei I started wondering if this dream was about her . She didn't look like the girl in my dream but they both gave me the same feelings of being too inadequate to save someone I loved.
I heard Kaito and Cole fighting and I opened my eyes
I was still held by the monster when I woke up , I groaned.
" Arrows of H - " I started to say the words but coughed repeatedly instead of finishing it.
When Eros does this he looks so cool and terrifying but when I try it seems like I'm trying to be him.
Do I want to be Eros ? Is it why I hate him ? Am I jealous? I'm jealous aren't I ?
I gritted my teeth in anger.
" Arrows of Horror ! " I shouted and nothing happened.
" Kami give me the power of a pure love ! " I shouted and my now and arrow finally appeared.
How am I going to say this beast while I'm in its mouth?
I shot my arrow at the opposite side of the field then I teleported to catch it.
I released my wings and faced the beast .
" I got you! " I said as I threw the arrow but Cole appeared in front of me catching my arrow.
My eyes widened and I scowled at the man who levitated in front of me.
" How about instead of calling on your God you call on Eros instead and beg him to take you back ? " Cole smirked.
Sadness crept over me and I stared down at the ground.
Why'd he have to bring this up.
I cried and felt like punching a hole in the Earth .
" I tried." I said as tears streamed down my face.
" Hudson ignore him. you realize that he's basically telling you to commit blasphemy right ? " Kaito said as he swam towards us , trying to escape the monsters grasp as he did.
I didn't reply.
God is good and I don't support blasphemy but I'm too drained to argue right now.
I turned away from Cole and flew away slowly.
Why am I crying out here ? Why am I always so emotional? Why can't I be more strong and tough like Eros , Kaito or Cole ?
They're all right .
I'm always crying like a bitch.
My feelings are always so overwhelming. It's like my feelings swallow me up. My feelings make me weak and useless.
I was about to fly to some isolated corner when I heard Kaito following behind me .
He had his pole and laughed himself into the air behind me.
" HUDSON ! Why are you letting a scumbag like Cole get to you? You're really going to start crying every time he mentions EROS."
I stopped flying away.
" My emotions. They're too big for me." I said as I turned to face him crying and he looked shocked at first then he rushed in and gave me an hug.
" Hudson you're human I get - "
" It's NOT CAUSE I'M HUMAN ! " I shouted at him as I pushed him away.
" Someone says one little thing to hurt my feelings and I can't stop crying like a bitch."
" There's nothing wrong with crying Hudson."
The monsters shrieking interrupted our conversation.
It fell to the ground. Apparently Cole just leveled up.
" You don't understand Kaito. Most guys don't cry the way I do and for the things I do."
I told him and he shook his head.
" I blame Eros for this. He made you hate your emotions. Mr. I don't feel anything but hate isn't human like you so don't pay attention to anything he says." Kaito told me but I shook my head.
" It's not just him. In school the kids always made fun of me for being soft.Men aren't supposed to be soft."
" Hudson you need to focus on the task."
" I can't I'm sad and frustrated. I'm angry and jealous and my jealousy feels too big right now. I want to be strong like Eros."
" Listen they're are players that traveled from different planets trying to escape just to get trapped here . If you want to be a hero just focus on how you can save these people.
[ Players without a weapon will be eliminated. You have less than 20 minutes to acquire a magical weapon. ]