Then after eating the dinner, when I was about to stand up from my chair to take the plates and wash them, he stopped me and said, "Wait, you don't have to, I'll do it," and took the plates from my hands.
I got a little amused seeing him like that and then I said to him, "Yuan, I can do this, this is really not a big thing to do, and infact I like to wash my own utensils," I said.
He smiled and said, "I know that you can, but you don't have to when I am around you."
"Look, the way you said that you like to wash your own utensils, in the same way there is some saying in my family traditions."
"What saying?" I asked him.
"The saying states that we should treat girls like a queen in her family, cause having the girl in the family brings joy, good health, wealth, and prosperity to the family, and taking good care of the girl in the family will be rewarded as the best service for us," he said.
I smiled and literally smiled and pulled his cheeks with my hands a little, but ofcourse his jawline is soo fine that in my hand I didn't get anything to pull, but still somehow I managed to pull his cheeks while taking a pinch size pull to his cheeks and said to him, "Yuan, did somebody ever tell you—"
"What?" he asked me a bit shockingly.
"That you look really very cute while lying," I said.
"Lying? Who's lying here?" he said.
"Yuan, I am already a pretty liar here, so you don't need to be another pretty liar like me here, one is enough for both of us," I said.
He didn't say anything, just listened to me, and I like it when he listens to me, cause in today's world it's really very hard to find someone who listens to you always, but luckily I have found that one way too easily that I have ever imagined. I think these things in myself and then I came back from my self-thought process and said,
"Yuan, I know you are lying, but you don't need to, you can just simply say it to me directly that I don't need to wash the dishes," I said.
He looked at me quite amusingly.
"What?" I asked him.
"Is it really that simple?" he asked me.
"Ofcourse not, it's really not that simple to say that to me clearly and straightforward," I said.
"Then how am I supposed to say it directly to you when I know pretty well that it's really not that simple to make you understand this," he said.
"Soo you are accepting it that you were lying purposely?" I asked him.
He looked down at the floor for a second and then looked back at me and said, "Yes, I was lying purposely, cause you are the one who made me realise that every time lying doesn't only mean that we are cheating or doubting in our relationship, cause sometimes lying is made to protect your loved one from something that you really can't if you don't lie."
"Protecting me from washing the dishes? Isn't it quite a strange thing to lie?" I asked him while getting a bit teasing in my tone.
He laughed a little and said, "It's quite foolish to lie to you about it, but this is how I lie. I am just a newbie in this lying, soo I am really not as perfectionist as the pretty liar Zhao Shiza," he said.
I laughed a little too and said, "Yes ofcourse, and your attempt also got failed," I said.
"Why, are you going to wash the dishes?" he asked me.
"Just for today we'll do it alternately, one day me and the next day you'll wash the dishes," I said.
"Quite a good thing, but—" he was about to say something further, but I stopped him in the midway of his sentence and said,
"In every relationship there needs to be equality, whether it's the matter of sharing equal amount of love to each other or whether it's about equally helping each other in our daily basis," I said.
He nodded his head and smiled a little and said, "You really have quite a thought."
I smiled back again while looking at him and then I took the dishes from the table and said, "Soo today's dishes are on me, but by the way the traditional saying of your family that you have just told me now is really very impressive, and I really appreciate your talent that how on the spot, even in lesser than a few seconds, you made such a good saying to convince me, which is really quite a good effort," I said to him while showing thumbs up sign from my hands, and then I got inside the kitchen.
"It's not like that, I mean yes I did make that saying on the spot, but it's only because if I didn't bring something appealing like this then you couldn't be convinced, but I think I lack it cause if it was really that convincing then you definitely wouldn't catch me, but you really did, it means I really lack that talent to convince someone," he said to me while I was washing the dishes in the kitchen.
But I heard it all and said, "Don't you dare to curse my Yuan, he is outstanding in every work and in every area, no matter if he does it even for the first time in his life, he is really good in all ways and in all aspects," and then I continued and said, "I caught him because I know him. When he says lie, which didn't mean that he lacks that skill, it only means that my feelings, my Mr heart signals me that no, it's not right, and I behave like that the way it signals me. Maybe you find me strange on this, but this is the way I am, this is the way I know about other people," I said while washing the last dish in my hands.
"Look, while talking to you I have washed all the dishes and didn't even realise it, and see how fast it has done. Combined efforts and equality in a relationship really work well," I said to him while coming out of the kitchen.
And the moment I came back from the kitchen after washing those dishes, I saw Yuan was already asleep on the couch.
I smiled while looking at him cause he looks really very cute while sleeping like that. Then I came near the couch very slowly soo that my footsteps didn't make any kind of noise which could disturb his sleep, and then I crouched down on the floor right in front of him and looked at him, really looked at him, thinking how much relaxed he is looking right now.
The calmness on his face tells how much he got tired today and now resting after the long hectic day. Then I slightly touched his hair with my hands just for a second and then I took my hand back and said to myself that I must not touch him while he is sleeping, it's not right, it's just invading someone's privacy.
Then I am the only one who really laughs at my own thought that I got just now and thinks in myself that look what type of girlfriend I am that touching my own boyfriend's hair made me feel like I am invading his privacy. See what kind of thoughts I am getting, did your love make me this mad? I asked this question to myself.
Then suddenly I realised that I have seen one news just few hours ago on Weibo about his upcoming drama in which years ago the male and female leads loved each other and then got separated, but in today's time they are running café and tea shops separately while telling the story of their ancient time to the customers and telling them about their ancestors and their story.
And this is all the new drama project story of yours Yuan. I am happy that by going time you are growing, making your name bigger and bigger and getting good things in your life. Trust me, I am really happy for you, really, this is all what I prayed for you.
But then this "but" stopped me saying the things that I was feeling, cause this "but" is not a word, it carries something very big and huge in it every time whenever I say "but."
And this time this "but" really made me feel that again a new female lead actress in his drama, and now he'll shoot romantic scenes with her, they'll go to variety shows and events together, which I know is part of their work which they really need to do, but these things only make me worry about our relationship.
What if he starts developing feelings for the lead actress opposite him? What if while shooting the scenes with her he'll fall for her? I asked this question to myself.
Then I said to myself again that it's ok if he really does. Isn't there a saying that what is meant for you will reach you no matter how much the distance is, no matter how much the difference between each other, and what is not meant for you will sooner or later surely leave you.
Soo there is no use of holding it in your fist cause the more tightly you hold it, the more fast it runs out of your hand. Cause no one can stop it, and in our case I know deep inside me that you and I are not meant for each other.
I don't know how I managed to have you in my life right now, but I really don't know how much limited time I have to live with you like this, which I love too. No matter how long you'll stay with me, I'll celebrate having you in my life even if it's only meant for a shorter time span.
I know jealousy is an emotion that I get every time I read about his new project, cause for me new project doesn't only mean new project, it also means new girl in his life which makes me jealous. Still I can't control my jealousy but I can hide it well, atleast from him, I said to myself.
Then I looked at him and put my head on the armrest of the couch and closed my eyes for a while, not to sleep, but the day was really very hectic. I didn't even realise how fast I drifted off into deep sleep after releasing these thoughts which were bothering me and making my Mr heart a little heavy.
But today I know he didn't hear anything, but saying it loud to myself is really much more for me, much more than anything.
Then I folded my legs a little while sitting on the floor and put my head on the armrest and held his one hand in mine, holding it just like a little fan girl holds to her idol, just like that, I said...